_____: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…

_____: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. 

But he simply said, “I don’t want to say that I love someone so easily... If you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”

That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he… At that moment, I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…

 

After that day, I found myself stranded at home crying everyday. He didn’t call me even though I waited for his call. He continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… Everyday.

 

After a month, I pull myself together and went to school. But the pain resurfaced when I saw him on a street with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room. Tears fell… Why did he give these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls… In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him and this is going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

 

_____: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?

I couldn’t help hating himfor acting like nothing had happened and making a joke out of it. Soon, he held out the doll as usual to hand it over to me.

Me: I don’t need it. 

_____: What? Why?

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.

Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again! 

I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, he was shaking.

“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice. He walked over to the road to pick up the doll…

Me: You are so stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

 

But he ignored me and went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~

With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.

“_____! Move! Move away!” I shouted… But he didn’t hear me as he squatted down and picked up the doll.

“_____, move!” HONK~!!

“Boom!” A terrifying sound rang through the whole neighbourhood..

That’s how he left me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.

Since that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and sadness of losing him.