this story starts with a finish

when luhan tells sehun that he's leaving exo, sehun grits his teeth and clenches his fists

but it's okay

if luhan's okay, he'll be okay too

sehun loves luhan

(maybe in another life...)

when sehun first meets luhan, he is greeted with soft smiles and warm waves

brief touches and stolen glimpses

laughter and shared secrets

that help sehun find a friend in luhan

and somewhere between midnight practices and flashing camera lights, they fall in love

they find each other late at night

messy arms and legs that fit together like puzzle pieces

like it was meant to be

weren't they so happy?

maybe sehun should have seen it coming

when the hospital becomes a second home

and forgotten promises become the center of their world

they realize that not every love story has a happy ending

and somewhere between broken whispers and sleepless nights, luhan knows he can’t do this anymore

and they all know

they know how luhan screams in his sleep

and how he trips and falls and

suffers endless dizzy spells

but it's okay right?

they think it's okay

because he never stops smiling

never stops laughing

never stops trying

never stops saying "i love you"

never complains

there's reality sometimes

but sehun likes living in his fantasies

where everything is okay

where luhan is his

there's fantasy sometimes

but luhan is always harshly jolted into reality

where nothing is okay

where sehun can't be his

and in between the shifts of fantasy and reality

in between the throes of honesty and travesty

their love lies

too bad its ethereal

this story ends with a beginning

luhan loves sehun

when sehun tells luhan that it's ok for him to leave, luhan shuts his eyes because he knows that if he opens them again, he won't be able to turn away

so he closes the door on that part of his life and doesn't look back

(maybe in another life...)

>>>maybe in another life for sehun means that this chapter of his life is closed and over, but for luhan it means that another chapter in his life is opening and there will be new beginnings; thus, it both finishes writing sehun’s story and begins writing luhan’s (and also explains the “this story starts with a finish//this story ends with a beginning”)

>>>this is the story of their love, and i guess it’s pretty close to reality in that yeah, luhan experienced those illness symptoms when he was in exo; he was extremely sick, and that is why he has left (it’s completely justified and if you don’t think so don’t talk to me); also, i dunno this just might be a me thing but i feel like even though luhan was sick he was always clinging onto the hope that maybe he wouldn’t have to file for contract termination and maybe he could pull through despite all the suffering because he genuinely wanted to be an idol, either way he did choose to leave during a time where damage would be minimal and he still continues to have public appearances despite being rather sick and fatigued (to me this shows how responsible he is and that he cares for his fans a lot)

>>>sorry this turned into a bunch of word vomit and my (late) trivial opinions on luhan’s departure :(( hope you enjoyed the story at least and i hope it didn’t make you cry?? please ask questions if you have them i will answer these questions regardless if they’re about the (failed) symbolism in this story or luhan/exo’s situation right now :’)