A beautiful bride was walking on the aisle with her parents holding her both arms, guest around them was looking in awe and amaze by the beautiful bride, who was smiling at the her partner whose waiting at the altar, she went closer and closer, her heartbeat beats fast, and she was so nervous, this is the day that she’s been waiting for, to get tie with the one she love and will be together forever as they will be no backing up now, she love that person and she will be happy to live her life, her smile getting wider as she was near to her partner, and she saw her partner shook head and run away from altar as she look confuse on what’s happening, people are whispering and she saw her lover run away from her life. As she processes everything happen and she broke down and her legs went down, she cries harder, her friends look at her worried. And a sobbing was heard from her, her parents was shock too and comfort their daughter, her friends went to her side and soothe her, as her father shouted to the guest that there will no wedding to be, the sob went harder as her friend pity on her and calming her as minutes past the bride pass out from crying as the people beside her panic.

It’s been four long years that I came back here in korea, four years that I let her go, I don’t know what got into me, why I leave her, maybe I was not ready for, maybe I was just a jerk,

I’m here at incheon airport, I saw my best friend waving at me, as I drag my luggage, and she smile looking at me,

“____ I miss you” while hugging me

“I miss you too yoongie” I hug her back

She look at me and said, “so are you staying her for good now?”  I shook my head and smile sadly at her.

“god, I haven’t see you for almost 4 years now” she look at me sadly,

“I’m sorry yoongie but I did contact you right?” I smile sheepishly at her.

“let’s go now our friends waiting for us” I look at her confuse

She smile at me and said, “yuri, hyoyeon and sooyoung are waiting in the car I just told them to wait there haha”

Right my friends, I miss them too, as we walk at the entrance and saw my friends waving at us, as I give them my smirk, they all surround me and said,

“god look at you now, you’ve change your hair and you look professional” sooyoung said, while hyoyeon smack her head and said,

“of course she’s professional she’s famous in Europe pabo”

“god I was just telling, you don’t have to be so violence” she glare at hyoyeon as I chuckle at them, sooyoung hug me while hyoyeon smile at me, and hug me went sooyoung’s done, as I look at yuri whose giving me a cold glare, well I deserve that, she’s taeyeon’s bestfriend and yoona’s girlfriend. As I smile at her when she said,

“let’s go now yoongie” she walks out and hop in, in the car, yoona drag me and whisper.

“sorry about that ____” I look at her and smile telling her it’s okay,

I get my luggage and hyoyeon help me put it on the compartment

Sooyoung went inside and seat herself as she gesture me to seat beside her, I went inside and was seated in between with hyoyeon and sooyoung,

Hyoyeon and sooyoung was asking me a lot of things, as I politely answer them, sometimes we tease each other, but I don’t like the look in yuri’s eyes. Like she wanted to kill me right here, right now, well I can’t blame her, she must been mad at me for living her best friend, I regret that, I really did, we stop at my new apartment and hyoyeon and sooyoung went out.

“wow this is nice” hyoyeon stated

“why don’t you get home ___” sooyoung ask, as she look at me as hyoyeon glaring at her, and whispering,

“oh right your parents mad at you” she smile apologetic on me as I shook my head,

“It’s okay sooyoung,” I get my luggage as yoona call me and went in front of me.

“___ I will be right back later okay, yuri’s was actual— I cut her off,

“she’s mad and doesn’t want you to go with me?” she give me weak smile,

“that’s fine yoongie, you go now I’ll just see tomorrow or maybe”

“I’ll come here later at dinner okay?” I give her an okay sign as she hug me tight, and bid goodbye too sooyoung and hyoyeon who will accompany me to my new apartment, yuri just sent draggers on me as she role her eyes, when yoona buckle her seat she drove away and I can’t even wave at yoona,

“yuri’s really mad at you huh?”

“of course she does, she’s taeyeon’s best friend” hyoyeon said, as I look at them, they give me a nervous smile.

“we should go inside” they nodded, as I drag my luggage,

They stay with me till night, as hyoyeon and sooyoung said that they have to go, I bid them goodbye, as they said, that they will be back here tomorrow, I agree and send them to the door as I wave goodbye at them, I went to my bed and unpacking my things and put them on the cabinet. As I was done, I receive a message from yoona, saying sorry that she can’t come, I just reply her that it’s okay, I put my phone on the night stand, as I was done unpacking I decided to take a shower, I get my towel and went to the bathroom, as I look in the mirror, and looking at myself and said,

“you deserve to be alone so deal with it” I smile weakly and went to take a shower, after I was done I wear my comfortable clothes, and went to the kitchen to look something to eat, but I was too tired to cook as I went to my room and going to change my clothes I guess I’m just going to eat out, I get my phone and my wallet, I went out,

I’m here waiting for a taxi but I guess luck was not on me, so I decided to take a walk and maybe find some restaurant to eat, as I saw a restaurant as I decided to go in, cause I was literally hungry, the receptionist ask me if I have a reservation as I shook my head and was about to walk out when someone called me,

“____ is that you?” I look who it was, as I see my sister as she hug me so tight,

“oh my god, I miss you so much, when did you arrive?” she look at me,

“well I just arrive this morning”

“why you didn’t come home? Mom and dad will be happy to see you”

“miyoungie they doesn’t like to see me, and I know they still hate me for what I did”

“yah don’t call me that arraso?” she pout as I chuckle at her and said,

“why are you here?”

“should I dance here? Of course I’m here to eat”

“haha  I mean are you alone?” I ask and she shook her head,

“nope my girlfriend is waiting for me inside” she give me her eyesmile as I chuckle at her and said,

“well enjoy then, I will just go find some restaurant, this restaurant is full now, and I’m hungry”

“why don’t you join us?” she ask as I shook my head,

“I really insist, and I want you to meet my girlfriend please?” she give me her puppy eyes that I can’t say no,

“would your girlfriend be mad at me?”

“why?”

“because it’s your dinner date?”

“na don’t worry my girlfriend wouldn’t mind it, so let’s go?” I hesitate for awhile and nodded and my sister just smile at me and told the receptionist that I’m with her, the receptionist lead us to the table, as I saw a familiar back sitting alone, as my sister walks towards that person and said,

“taetae you won’t believe whose with me” taetae? I ask myself, it can’t be her right?” the person stand up and I look at them as they greeted each other, the person turn her back when my sister said,

“taetae meet my sister ____” the person turn her body and was shock to see me, I was shock too, the girl in front of me is taeyeon the girl I leave, tiffany nudge taeyeon and ask,

“are you okay taetae?” taeyeon look at her and smile and said,

“im sorry, im kim taeyeon” she said, she’s pretty as ever, I guess she doesn’t want tiffany to know our past, as I bow my head and said,

“im ___ park, step sister of tiffany”

“I told you not to call me step sister cause were sister okay not step” I smile at her and said sorry as she gesture us to seat down,

“sorry if I disturb your date, I’m just hungry, don’t worry I will go after I’m done” I look at taeyeon who look at me. Emotionless and I know she’s mad at me and wanted to kill me right now,

“so let’s order now?” ask tiffany she called the waiter , as we order our food, the table are getting awkward when tiffany spoke and said,

“so how was Europe.?” I look up at her, and said,

“it was okay”

“just okay ? God you were famous there, and you even have event here right? That’s why you come back here?”

Taeyeon just look at tiffany didn’t utter a word as I spoke,

“yeah I’m here just for the event” I flash my sister a smile, taeyeon look briefly at me and i notice the hurt in her eyes and I wanted to run away from here but I don’t want to be rude at my sister who I didn’t saw for almost 7year, cause she staying in the states, my dad died when I was 13 years old and when I turn 15,my mom remarried again to tiffany’s dad, and mom wanted me to live in LA with them so I just let my mom do what she wants and I stay with them in LA, I met tiffany, she’s a year older than me, we become friends and sister, when i turn 17 I told mom that I wanted to go back in korea, she wanted to refuse but I told her that I really wanted to go back in korea, so she let me be and tiffany was mad at me, but I assure her that I will see her soon, when I got here in korea and was being transfer, that’s when I meet taeyeon at XXX high school, tiffany didn’t meet taeyeon, even before I told her at the phone and she doesn’t see any picture of her as I told her that I want her to meet taeyeon in person, and she didn’t had a chance to meet taeyeon. And I don’t know why fate had playing on us, and I wanted to ask them how they meet,

As I was still in my thoughts when tiffany loud voice woke me up from the reality

“yes tiff?”

“i said let’s eat,” she pointed at the food in front of me as I nodded and smile,

“you’ve been spacing out awhile ago are you okay?” I look at her and said,

“oh I was just hungry and my mind went off haha” I try to laugh, tiffany laugh at my statement and taeyeon look emotionless.

“so tiffany, how you two meet?” I ask after I gathered all my courage as I was so curious, and my heart was hurting now, because I know taeyeon have already moved on. Tiffany look at taeyeon smiling and asking if she could tell me, as taeyeon slowly nodded, and tiffany kiss her on the cheek and turn to look at me and said,

“well we actually meet when I got here in korea and I saw her walk just by herself  at the han river and she must have wanted to jump on the bridge as I panic and went out from the taxi and scream at her” I was shock at what the information that I got. Tiffany continue.

“she look at me after I scream on her and told me to leave her alone, but I can’t do that, it will be my responsibility cause I don’t want her to die there so what I did, i drag her with me” tiffany smile. And said,

“for days, I become friends with her, and I ask her why she wanted to jump that day, so she told me that, her ex, leave her on their wedding day, and I was like,? Why would someone as pretty as this person leave her? She must have been really stupid right?” tiffany ask me, as I flash her a weak smile, and my heart hurt from the truth, she was right, I’m stupid. As I got finish what I was eating and called tiffany and she look up,

“yes?”

“I said I will go now, I will pay for tonight okay?”

“you don’t have to, ____, can I at least pay for you?”

“but--- she cut me off and said,

“it’s okay but can you like stay here for awhile?”

“im sorry tiff but I really need to go and prepare for tomorrow’s event”

“ohh okay but I will see you when you’re not busy okay?” I nodded at her, and turn to look at taeyeon and bowing at her, I wanted to get out from here, as I bow and hug tiffany, and bid them goodbye,

I was just walking lifelessly, taeyeon already move on, what am I thinking? I hurt her of course she will find someone better than me, I went to my apartment, lay my bed and was looking at the ceiling, my heart hurt so bad, and I can’t breathe, my tears stream down on my face, as I wipe them but my tears streaming down nonstop, as I hear myself sobbing,

You deserve this, you hurt her, and she deserve to be happy, I hug myself as I prevent my tears to drop, but it didn’t help as I remember the day when I hurt and leave her,

*flashback*

@the wedding day,

I was at the room, fixing myself and look at the mirror, this is it, the day that we will say I do and she will be mine forever, I wear a tuxedo and fix my bow tie, when I saw my best friend smiling at me and said,

“wow you look handsome huh?” I turn to look at her.

“thanks yoong”

“you nervous?”

“yeah very”

“well don’t be you dummy, you will be getting married to your one and only taeyeon hehe”

“yeah yoongie thanks?” she hug me and patted my back and said.

“you will be going to live with her for the rest of your life and be together forever, im so happy to the both of you” she release the hug and fix my hair and said,

“why are you wearing tuxedo? Should you wear like a gown?” she smirk at me .

“yah yoongie you know I hate gown right? And beside im the man in this relationship haha”

“yeah yeah, so don’t be nervous okay cause if you do maybe you run away from her when you see her hahaha”

“yah are you here to make me more nervous ha? If so, just go out now”

“haha okay but you be coming out for 5 minutes” she said while she look at her watch, I nodded at her, she hug me again and told me she will just be waiting for me outside,

I look at the mirror again, and smile to myself, there is no backing up now ____, you can do this, fighting,!!!!

I went out and saw my parents smiling at me they congratulated me as I smile at them and hug them, the wedding is going to start as I walk at the aisle and I saw my best friend smiling at me, I saw my other friends sooyoung and hyoyeon who give me a two thumps up as I smile at them and my hands was shaking, as I went behind yoona, the music was heard indicating that the bridge will be coming in,

I saw her walking wearing the beautiful dress that fitted her slim body, she’s so beautiful, she’s with her parents walking with her, as she smile when our eyes meet, the people surrounding us was in awe to see her, she’s so pretty like an angel, yoona even nudge at me telling me how lucky I am to have her, I smile at yoona, but I don’t know what got into me, my mind was telling me, am I really ready for this? Am I ready to tie a knot with her, am I ready to be with her for the rest of my life? Am I lucky to have her? What will it be if we become one? Should I become happy to be with her? and really make myself happy and her? Do I really deserve her? Am I ready to make this into the next level? As she was getting closer and closer, as I can’t handle what I’m feeling right now, im scared, so scared right now, my heart beats so fast that I cant even breathe, she look at me smiling, as I ask myself, can I really make her smile if we get married? Can I make her happy?, I shook my head and I saw her look confuse, as I turn my head away from her, and run away to the altar, I hear people whispering, I hear yoona’s voice asking me where I was going, I saw sooyoung and hyoyeon’s shock face, as I run, and run, away from the church, away from her life,

*end of flashback*

Morning came, as I look at the clock, and it show 8:00 am, get my phone and there was 10 missed call, I look who was calling me, and it was from my friends, and one is from my mom, I dialed her number, and she answer it immediately.

“you didn’t tell me you were here now in korea”

“miyoung told you huh?”

“yeah she told me last night, and why didn’t you come home?”

“like dad would be happy to see me”

“you know your dad, even his mad he still care for