She hates herself. She is a pathetic liar who can really do nothing better than to hurt the person she loves so much. She knew she had her reasons. She has to free him before he finds out, so nothing would come out of this, so they would be alright in the end, but why does doing the right thing, feel so painful? Why does she have to be so messed up, and in turn, she hurt someone else?

Because of the existence of love,
Sacrifice is born as well as hate,
And when one comprehends, one knows pain.

“I will never come back to you because I hate you. I hate your existence. So why don’t you just die already?” –Kim Jongin-

 “I just want to see your smile oppa, for the last time… before I sleep.” –Jung Soo Jung-