Kissing me senseless, torridly and just expressing his loneliness in me. Due to our kiss, we manage to slide down the cold pavement, breathing harshly.

     "I love you Jinki-hyung." He said, before kissing me again.

      We made our way to my room, still kissing. Knocking down a few things which I don't really mind. How could you when there is someone trying to eat your face?

     So when we managed to arrive on the bed with mobruise, hu pushed me gently, taking my clothes off, then my pants bringing my undergarments along. Having a hard time on doing so because my thighs just get in the way.

        He lean close to my ear, hands on my thighs. "As much as I live your thighs, it just get on the way." Minho whispers seductively.

      I love how he tend to be informal whenever were this intimate.

       Minho started trailing kisses on my face, down my neck, to my collarbone and into my chest. He started nibbling my right bud giving it a soft and a nip. His left hand, is busy with my left bud, squeezing it softly making me arch my back in pleasure. I miss this. For the whole one year, I haven't been touched. Simply because, I like a random hooker get his way on me or maybe because I want it to be just Minho. 

     His touch trailing feather light down my back and into my bottom. He gently pushes his middle finger in my hole, just to prepare me, then I feel a second cold finger enter me. It hurts. Being on a break for a year made me as tight as I can be.

    To ease my pain, Minho my length. Kissing the tip and it. I can feel pain and pleasure at the same time and damn! How I love it! 

       "Hyung, I want to put it in now. I can't wait any longer." Minho said hoarsely.

        I nod. I want him to put it in now!

      He pulls my ankles to make me come near him. He lift my buttocks and lined his on my hole. Twitching hole. He enter me so carefully, so careful but I still can't help the pain as he slide inside me.

      "Aaaah!" I moan in pain.

       Damn! How painful! Aish!

      "I'm sorry hyung but please relax for a while to deduce the pain. You know that it will feel good later." He whisper.

      Damn! I wish its as easy as it sounds!

      After a while of torture, Minho is now fully settled inside me. Damn! I love the feeling of his inside me.

     "I'm going to move now hyung. I'll go slow then go fast the way you like." He said.

     I want to tell him to quit the but I like it. I just miss everything about him. His touch, his kiss and his warmth.

      Then, Minho started moving. Slow. Painfully slow and when he got tired of the boring pace he fasten it. Harder. Rocking me into oblivion.

      Damn! I love it!

      "M--minh--" I moan. 

      ! He feels wonderful.

     He hook my legs on his shoulder to change the angle, to go deeper in me. And he hit it. That bundle of nerves that made my eyes roll back my head and my teos to curl.

    "Hyung, I'm close." He said panting. 

    I pant. "So am I." 

    And we came at the same time.

--

    We just barely came down from our high. Just laying on the bed, bodies close.

"I missed this hyung. I missed you." He said, hugging me close.

I do too.

I want to tell him but I can't.

"You know, next time, leave a message." I said.

Minho look at me confusedly. "Leave a message?" 

"Yeah. Leave a message if your leaving. That's a formal way of saying goodbye when you're leaving." I said.

Minho kiss him. "I'm sorry." He said.

"Just don't forget a note next time when you leave." I said.

He nod. "I'm sorry hyung." He said before kissing him tenderly.

"And also I became an assistant professor while your gone." He said before going to sleep.

--

When I wake up the next day, Minho is already gone along with his baggage. He left me again. But this time he left a note. A useless note.

"I'm going out

                                                   -Minho"

I crumple the paper with my bare hand. Damn it! How stupid can he be?

He left again, for I don't know how long and where.

"He is going out? Where to?" I said out loud.

--

"Hey! Yeobo! I missed you!" 

Here we go again. That somewhat annoying professor that I am working with.

"Stop it Joongki-ssi. Stop calling me yeobo." I said walking to my desk.

"What a cold hearted guy you are Jinki. Call me yeobo for once please." He said.

"I'm not cold hearted Joongki-ssi, I just don't flirt around in time of work." I answer.

"Hey! I'm not a flirt!" He said pouting.

Seriously! Is he even older than me? 

"Then, why exactly did your wife filed a divorce?" I ask.

He pouts. What a childish person! Aish!

I felt a vibrate on my pocket. Must be my phone. Oh wait! It is my phone! Stupid me. 

I finger my pocket searching for my phone when I touch a crumpled paper. I frown as I take it out of my pocket and oh! Its Minho's note. His useless note.

I toss it somewhere far, not even minding where it landed. I just want to get rid of it. But if I really do want to, I should've thrown it in the trash bin on my way. Stupid Jinki! 

"You know, you should stop frowning."

I'm startle to hear Joongki-ssi speak just beside me.

I jump out. "Y-yah! Stop it Joongki-ssi! Why don't you just do your job?" I said.

He shrug. "Because you're always frowning, the students call you devil Jinki. You're a strict person. Loosen up a bit, will you?" He said.

I roll my eyes. "They call me a devil just because I scold them for texting and chatting in my class? How pitiful." I said.

"Well, that is if you 'only' scold them. It also turns out that you 'tends, to throw random things too." Joongki-ssi said.

I shrug. "Well, its not my fault that they don't take my classes seriously." I answer.

And in an instant, Joongki-ssi is beside me, hugging the life out of me. Man! I can't breathe!

"If you don't let go now Joongki-ssi, I'm going to report you for harassment." I said.

That does it. He quickly retreated to his chair.

Omo! How did a famous and responsible proffesor became like this? 

I sigh. "I'm going to my class now Joongki-ssi. Why don't you do the same too?" 

He just smile at me. What a childish professor.

Sigh. Frowning.

Why am I frowning everyday? Because I want to be tough? Or because of Minho? Maybe both.

Minho. 

Is he getting tired of me? Did he realize that I'm too boring and too old for him? Or that he prefer a girl now?

Do I really want to know the answer to that? Would I be able to handle that? Would my heart be able to take it and accept it? 

They say, once you don't know how something will work out then don't force it. Well, I believe its something along the lines.

What can I do now? I'm getting insecure and less confident and vulnerable. I'm turning out to be weak and fragile. I don't want this. I guess, I have to do something.