You tell me all your secrets I keep them but do you realise how much it pains me?

Every single time I see how she affects you. It hurts me too.

I tried hard. 
I tried hard to remain objective.
To not allow my feelings affect the advice I give to you.
But sometimes it is hard.
I am angry at her.
She hurt you bad.
Why did she do that?
Why did she just leave without saying anything
She does not know how lucky she is...

The days, night, months, years... You spent waiting for her. 
You gave so much but she is too blind to see it...

Is that why I like you, because you are loyal, you value the feelings you have for her. Your persistence your perseverance...

Hanbin. 
When will you see that I am here.
I will always be here like what I said.
I promise I will never ever leave your side.

Sigh, I feel numb. I don't know what I should do or feel anymore

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Today you announced that your heart belongs to someone.
Your heart belongs to Chae Young.
I couldn't finish the broadcast interview.
I turned the tv off.
I just sat there.
Thinking... Breathing... 
It is time to discard your feeling, lee Hayi.
He is taken.
He is no longer within your grasp
Give up 
You can't win against a girl he has feelings for over ten years
Stop lee Hayi. 
Stop

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Why do I still yearn for you?
You are with Chae Young. 
I should just forget about you. Discard my growing feelings for you.
But I can't.
I see you everyday, I talk to you everyday. You make effort to talk with me. 
Every day i am finding myself going deeper and deeper into the dark abyss of feelings.

Hanbin stop being so nice to me, it's making it harder for me to forget you.

Hanbin stop smiling at me, it's giving me butterflies
Hanbin stop please.

Hanbin- ah I like you a lot. 
But seeing you is killing me.
Forgive me.
I can't remain being your best friend.
It hurts too much.
I am going to take a break.

Give me time, space.
When I am ready I will return as your best friend but till then let me be.

mianhe...

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Hi sorry readers if you were lost or confused.
I might continue adding new chapters writing about Lee Hayi's feelings, emotions. Her progress on moving on...
I guess you could say that this could also be my journal on my journey in moving on...

Nevertheless if you like, comment below and vote :)