Hanbin's POV

She looked happy.
She was smiling and often putting her hand on his arm.
They looked cute.

I was trying to feel happy.
Happy for her that she has possibly found someone.
But jealousy is a pain in the neck.
I didn't feel happy.
I couldn't explain it.
My blood boiled at the sight of their happiness.

I could be there making her smile.
I could be there looking at her.
But here I am pathetically watching from the table close by. 

It wasn't planned to be sitting next to her.
I just happened to be having a cup of coffee, and then before I knew it a couple sat somewhere close by.

I don't think she noticed me.
If she did, she would come over and say hello right?
Surely she would say hello to me.

But it wasn't a week ago, she wrote in her personal account of how she liked me.
She said she liked me.
How fast could her feelings change so dramatically.
Or maybe they are just friends,
Really good friends to the point where he would hold her hand. 

I shook my head to wash away the negative thoughts. 
I quickly paid and walked out of the store.
I didn't dare look back.
I just headed straight home.
But no matter how much I tried I couldn't forget about the image of her being happy with another man.
That image gnawed at me.
I didn't feel good about it but I couldn't do much.
She is someone that has drifted away from me.
And it would have been easy if she chose to drift apart but I was the person who cut the ties.
It will be harder for me to mend the gap.

I couldn't possibly tell her right now that I liked her.
And plus, I am not even sure about my own feelings.
Do I like her? 
Or has my mind been playing games with me?
And all of this longing and yearning is all because of my lack of social interaction with people.
Maybe.
Perhaps.

Maybe....
I don't like her I just miss the feeling of having someone there to support me.
To hold me when I need it most.
I just need someone, but all I find is nothing. 
No one.
Emptiness and desolation is all I see.