A/N : This is my second time to write about diary thingy. But I hope this is a little bit better than my first one. Yeah, yeah, yeah, a lot stories hadn’t done yet but suddenly I miss my diary and... HIM. And also Myungyeol. And I want to try to write angst story. It was still unfinished just like my other story. I don’t promise anything just feel like to write it. Hehe. And I will update my story randomly ^^

Every Diary has a Secret

May 18, 2020

Sungyeol's Residence

A man with silver tuxedo was walking among the guest. His eyes scan each space, sees looking for someone. He then approaching a guy who was talking with his friend.

"Gyu, do you know where's Yeollie?" the man asked.

"Aigoo, he just engaged to you an hour ago and know You're already lost him. What a careless fiance you are, Mr. Nam Woohyun." a hamster face man teased.

Woohyun groaned. "Aish, that's not it. I was busy with my colegues before while Yeollie was talking with his friends."

The hamster face man chuckles. "I know, I know, I was kidding, you annoying tree. Why didn't you go to his room. Maybe he was hiding from the crowd."

"Ah, You're right. Sungyeol doesn't like crowd. Okay thank you, please enjoy the party guys." Woohyun smiles to Sunggyu and his friend before walked away.

Sungyeol was standing on the rooftop by himself. His eyes were shut with his head up facing the sky. The rain drizzling, wetting his black tuxedo. Cold breeze blowing around giving relief from sun's heat.. and the fragrance of wet mud.. just a perfect weather in the romantic monsoon.

Yeah, Sungyeol loves rainy season.. because he loves to get drenched in the rain.. and feel every droplets falling on him… standing under the open sky with his arms stretched out.. and the wet winds touching him. Suddenly he felt a pair of warm arms wrapping on his slender waist.

"Gotcha." A man whispers lovingly on his ears.

Sungyeol smiled, letting the man tighten his hug on him. "You will catch cold if You're standing too long here, Yeollie."

"I want to enjoy the rain." Sungyeol said without opened his eyes. Woohyun releases the hug and turns Sungyeol's body to face him.

"How dare you leave me alone with the guest while you're enjoying the rain by yourself here." Woohyun pouted.

"You know I don't like crowd, Hyunnie." Sungyeol said softly.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah, I knew it, my angel. You don't like crowded, you don't like dark, you don't like milk, I knew a lot about you, baby." Woohyun said as he leaned closer and was about to kiss him but Sungyeol slowly move away.

"Do you know that I don't like Geography when I was in high school?"

Woohyun furrows his brows. "Really?"

"Nah, that's mean that you're still don't know me completely, Hyunnie." Sungyeol smiled, Woohyun's cheek.

"What happen to you, Yeollie?" Woohyun asked him, a bit confused.

Sungyeol chuckles. "It's nothing. Sorry, the rain makes me feeling blue. Come on, people are waiting for us." Sungyeol said, grabbing Woohyun's hand. Woohyun smiles, letting his fiance do what he likes. He was love him too much to think anything else.

Another day

Woohyun stops his yellow McLaren in front of Sungyeol's mansion. That day he promises Sungyeol to accompany him to the bridal. Yeah, their wedding ceremony will be held three months later. And they had decided to prepare everything without using a wedding organizer. Gay marriage was slowly accepted in Korea. Even though there is still no legal law but the society seems had fully accepted. Even they make gay wedding organiser to help the gay people to prepare their wedding ceremony. But Woohyun and Sungyeol prefer to prepare everything by themselves.

Woohyun walks into the house. In the living room, Daeyol was sitting leisurely in front of the TV.

"Hi, Daeyol-ah. What are you watching?" Woohyun approaches Daeyol.

"Oh, hyung. Guardian Galaxy. Wanna join me?" Daeyol smiled.

"No, thanks.  Where's the other?"

"Oh, omma was in the dining room."

"Okay, thank you." Woohyun said, walking to the dining room. Mrs. Lee was seen preparing breakfast.

"Annyeong, omuni." Woohyun greets, kissing Sungyeol's mother's cheek.

"Hi, son. When did you come?"

"I just came. Where's Sungyeol? Today we had appointment with the bridal."

Mrs. Lee smiles. "That sleeping beauty maybe still sleeping on his room. Just go find him."

Woohyun chukles. "Prince Woohyun will come to kiss him and makes the sleeping beauty to wake up."

Mrs. Lee laughed softly. "Go ahead, Prince Woohyun."

Woohyun walks upstairs. He walks straight to Sungyeol's room. He carefully opens the door and sneaks in. He smiles silently at the sleeping man in front of him. Afraid to wake him up, Woohyun crept closer to Sungyeol's bed. He bends his body a bit to see Sungyeol's face closely.

"Even while sleeping, you still looks cute, Yeollie." Woohyun whispers. He ran his finger to touch Sungyeol's nose.

"Hey, baby, wake up."

Sungyeol didn't response. Woohyun then kisses his cheek. "Hey, Mrs. Soon to be Nam Yeollie. Open your eyes. Prince Woohyun is coming."

Sungyeol still didn't budge a bit.

"Aish, this stubborn sleeping princess. Don't make me attack you and tickle you until you cry, Princess." Woohyun threated playfully. Doesn't get any response, Woohyun then throws his body on the top of Sungyeol. But he was so surprised when he felt Sungyeol's body so cold.

"Yeol, why are you so cold?" Woohyun raised voice a bit. Woohyun checks on Sungyeol's body. His whole body was as cold as ice.

"Yeol, wake up. Yeol... YEOLLL...!!!"

Seoul Center Hospital

"He got Celebral venous hemorraghic."

"What's that mean, doc?" Woohyun asked, his face was covered with worry.

"The loss of brain function caused by bleeding of blood vessels of the brain."

"Please tell me with the simpler words, doc." Woohyun said impatiently.

"I'm afraid that Sungyeol-ssi will stay comma forever."

Sungyeol's parents were shocked at the statement. Sungyeol's mother can't hold back her tears.

"Is there any way to cure him, Doc?" Mr. Lee asked, hugging his wife. The doctor sighed, shooking his head weakly. "Just pray for a miracle."

Mr. and Mrs. Lee couldn't help but hugging each other, Woohyun froze at his place, too shock to find any words.  He blankly left the room. He walks along the corridor and sat on the corner.

"Why? Why is this happen to us? Why?" Woohyun clutches his hair desperately. Just yesterday they were happily celebreated their engagement party. Just yeaterday he felt Sungyeol's warmth. And now they all gone.

"Please stay strong, Hyun." Suddenly someone touches his shoulder gently.

Woohyun looked up, wipping his silent tears.

"Why did Sungyeol hide this from me? Why, Gyu? Why he never told me about his ill. Why?" Woohyun shooks Sunggyu's body frustatingly. Sunggyu looked at him sadly then turned away.

"I'm not good enough as a boyfriend, Gyu. I'm bad for allowing him going through this by himself."

"No, Hyun. You're good, even too good and I'm happy that Sungyeol choose you in the end."

"But why I'm the last person who know about his ill? Why? It should be me the one who know it first. It should be me to help him gone through this.  But what? I just knew it when he was on this state."

"But none of us are know about his ill. Even his parents. He used to tell me about his headache but everytime I asked him to check to the doctor, he told me that it was just anemia."

Woohyun remains silent at the statement.

"We also shock about this,  Hyun. It's not important who know first. The most important thing is Sungyeol need us to be his side. Pray for him, accompany him, and take care of him. Maybe there will be a miracle take him back to us."

Woohyun looked at Sunggyu with sad eyes. "I hope so."

The next day Woohyun came again to visit Sungyeol. But nothing was changed. Sungyeol was still lying with the life support on his body. Couldn't stand to see him like that, Woohyun left the room and sat outside the room. He was crying alone there. This situation was killing him slowly. "I missed you so much, Yeollie."

Woohyun then decided to visit Sungyeol's parents. Mr. Lee was gone to work. Daeyol had been leaving to drama shooting since morning. Mrs. Lee was sitting alone in the livingroom.

"Omuni." Woohyun called softly. Wipping her tears, Mrs. Lee turned around. "Oh, Hyunnie. You come."

"Ne." Woohyun said, sitying next to her.

"Have you had lunch, son?" Woohyun nods.

"Omuni, have you had lunch? I bet you must be skip your meal again."

"I'm not hungry."

"Lie. Omuni, you will sick if you like this. Sungyeol will be mad if I'm not taking a good care of you. Come."

"But..."

"No but." Woohyun insisted as he dragged her to the dining table. Woohyun then takes the plate and the food and put them in front of her. "Omuni, please eat."

Mrs. Lee looked down hesitantly. But slowly she takes the spoon and eat. Woohyun smiles bitterly, looking at her. He tried his best to hide his tears.

"Um, omuni. May I check Sungyeol's room for a while? I want to bring his favourite things to the hospital. Maybe it would help him to recover."

Mrs. Lee looked up. "Go ahead, Hyun. Just take whatever you need."

Woohyun smiles, leaving her alone. Mrs. Lee glanced at him as he walked to the stairs. 'You must be miss him so much, Hyun.'

Woohyun walked to Sungyeol's room and opened the door. He stood there, glancing around the sky blue and pink room before him in silent. He could feel Sungyeol's scent remained inside the room. He walkes to the bed and sat there. Woohyun touches the bedsheets. He still remember when Daeyol caught them making out in this room. He also remember when he spent the night in his room, taking care of Sungyeol when he got measles. Woohyun smiles at the thought. Many sweet memories between them happened in this room. Woohyun turned to his side. There's a small white drawer next to the bed. There's a photo frame next to the standing lamp. That was their photo when they were in Hongkong Disneyland last year. Woohyun smiled bitterly, looking at the photo. His eyes landed on the drawer. He moved his body and opened the first drawer. There's a photo album inside there. Woohyun takes the album and opens it. That was their photo in various occasion. From Sungyeol's graduation day, their vacation and many candid camera of Woohyun. It's been so long Woohyun knew that Sungyeol had interest at photography. But he never took it seriously. It was just my longtime hobby, that was Sungyeol's answer whenever Woohyun asked him. To support him, Woohyun gave him a luxury camera on his birthday, two years ago. And looks like he was so happy at the present. And he was getting excited to take many photos. Woohyun put the album down. He then opens the second drawer. There's a big drawing book complete with the pencil and drawing stuff. Woohyun picks up the book. That's was his other hobby, drawing and painting. He often spent his time on his rooftop, drawing something. Woohyun still remember that he often disturbed his drawing time by tickling him or kissing him here and there and it would end with Sungyeol's  y voice scolding at him. Woohyun chuckles at the memories, flipping the page one by one. Sungyeol was quite talented. His drawing was beautiful. The first page was his mother's face, holding a flower. The second page was his father, reading a newspaper. The next page was Daeyol, Sunggyu, himself, Woohyun, and ... Woohyun creased his forehead. Who is this man? A man with sharp eagle eyes, gorgeous face and sharp jaws. Woohyun never seen him before. It's strange coz Woohyun always know each of Sungyeol's friends, colegues, and relatives. But he couldn't recognize this strange guy at all. "I'm going to ask omuni." Woohyun closed the drawing book and moved back to the last drawer. Nothing was there except a black box with a key. Woohyun picked up the book sized box. "What's this? It looks like a jewellery box." Woohyun scanned the box and took the key. He slowly opens the box. There's a book inside the box. There's a big "Sungyeol's Diary" written on it. Woohyun couldn't help but laugh lightly at the book.

"Oh my, my baby choding used to write a diary. What a cute boyfriend you're, my love. If you were here, I must have teased you for this." Woohyun smiles, opening the first page.

This is my first diary. Actually I want to use this book as my agenda but I don't know what has got into me until I decided to write a diary. It was weird to write a diary at the first time. Especially because I'm a man. But never mind, afterall no one knows except me. I won't tell anybody even my bestfriend, Kim Sunggyu. So I think that's okay. Hehehe. Today I turn 17. People said life starts in 17. From now on, I have a freedom to choose my own life. And how is my life today, tomorrow, will fulfill this book. I love my high school time now. The time when everyone was always looked happy and free. There's a lot friends who will always beside me. And... There's him, the one who became my reason to go to school everyday. His name is... Kim Myungsoo.

Woohyun stops reading. "Kim Myungsoo? Who is him? His schoolmate? Is he the man that Sungyeol draw?" Woohyun looks curious about this man. Even though Woohyun met Sungyeol at the first time when they were in college but he knew all of Sungyeol's high school friend. But this name was strange for him. And he could feel the jealousy was started to grow inside him.

"Um, should I read the next page? It's a bit rude reading someone's diary without permission. B..but I want to know. And I'm his fiance afterall. I deserve to know everything about Yeollie. Even his little tiny secret." Woohyun convinced himself as he opened the book.

Kim Myungsoo, this name really caught my attention these lately. Yeah, he had caught my eyes at the first sight I saw him. A new loner student. A cool gorgeous student. Yeah, he is a boy. I'm talking about a boy and I think I'm falling for a boy. I don't know what happen to me but I like him. I mean I like him more than I like Sunggyu and my other friends. It doesn't mean that I don't like girl. I like them too. But in different way. In different way when I look at Kim Myungsoo. I don't know how to explain this complicated feeling. So that's why I will keep this as a secret. I won't tell anybody until I'm sure about my strange feeling.

"So, Kim Myungsoo is his high school's crush." Woohyun clutches the book tightly. The jelaousy was getting big inside him. He turns back to the book.

I met Myungsoo for the first time at the rooftop a month ago. I was on the duty to clean the room that day. I then walked to the rooftop to take the cleaning stuff because our rooftop was also became the storage room. When I went up to take the broom, I saw something or for exact someone moving at the corner. But I can't see what's that 'thing'. Curious is my middle name. Hehe. So I decided to check on it. I moved closer slowly, not wanting to scare that 'thing'. I was a bit suprised when I saw a man was sleeping at the corner.

Flashback

"Ey, I never seen him. Who is him? And his uniform was different with us." Sungyeol mumbled, scanning on the stranger. He leaned down to see the sleeping boy closely.

'He is so handsome.' Sungyeol thought but quickly pulled back his body. "What am I thinking?" Sungyeol mumbles, touching his blushing face.

The stranger was  stirred from his sleep and slowly opens his eyes. He yawned widely as he stretched out his hands. Sungyeol chuckled silently at his action. 'He looks cute.'

The stranger looks up and their eyes met. Sungyeol stops chuckle and looks at him.

"Who are you?" the stranger asked.

Sungyeol couldn't help but laugh. The stranger raises his brows. "What are you laughing at?"

"It should be me to ask you like that. Who are you? What are you doing in our school?"

"Oh, I'm a new student here. I don't know what time the school start so I decided to come early, preventing to be late on my first day." he explained expressionlessly but still in polite manner.

'What a cool attitude. But... He is so handsome.' Sungyeol thought as he stared at him.

"So you're new here. I'm Lee Sungyeol from class 3-B." Sungyeol held out his hand. The stranger looks at Sungyeol and then his hand before reaches it. "I'm Kim Myungsoo. I'm also in class 3-B. It means we will at the same class."

"Really? Woah, welcome then, chinggu." Sungyeol smiles widely at him. Myungsoo looked at him weirdly. "We are just met, how could you call me friend that easy?"

"Because you're my friend. Everything always has beginning. And also our friendship. Our meeting here is our beginning to become friends." Sungyeol smiles innocently at him. "Come with me, I will show you the class."

Myungsoo was looking at him cluelessly.

"Come on, class will start soon and I still have to clean the class."

Myungsoo then follows him out.

End of Flashback

Woohyun stops for a while. His curiosity about this Kim Myungsoo is getting stronger. How was their relationship going?

I saw him standing in front of the class as he introduced his name cooly. I smiled silently looking at him. He has a really special personality. And it really caught my attention to always look at him. From that day I started to stare at him secretly. Yeah, I have to do it secretly because I don't want anybody to think I'm weird because I Iike a boy. But looks like Kim Sunggyu, my cute hamster bestfriend started to feel suspicious at me. He always has a sharp instinct. Hehe.

"I have to find Gyu. He must be know something about this Kim Myungsoo." He took the diary and the drawing book with him then leave the room.

"Son, where are you going?" Mrs. Lee's voice called him. Woohyun turned around.

"Omuni, I have something to do."

"What are you holding? Isn't that Sungyeol's favourite drawing book?" Mrs. Lee asked, looking at Woohyun's hand.

"O... Oh, yes. I want to take this to Yeollie. He likes drawing. Maybe this would help him." Woohyun said, trying to hide another book.

"I hope so." Mrs. Lee said sadly.

"Omuni, I have to go. Please take care of yourself. Don't skip meal anymore. Promise me?"

Mrs. Lee looked up and smiles bitterly. "Promise."

Woohyun smiles at her then left the room.

He glances at the book once more before drove his car in speed to Sunggyu's studio room.

Malibu Studio Room

"What? Why are you suddenly mention about Kim Myungsoo? Where did you know him?" Sunggyu asked in surprise.

"So, that's mean you know something.”

Sunggyu turns away, avoiding Woohyun’s stare. “I don’t know much.”

"You're his friend, Gyu. You must know how big his love for Myungsoo. Please tell me. I deserve to know. I want to know how far his relationship with that man named Kim Myungsoo." Woohyun looked at him deeply.

Sunggyu sighed. “That’s a long time ago.”

“I don’t care. Even it has been hundred years ago, as long as it’s about Yeol, I want to know. Everything.”

“He’s just his... friend.” Sunggyu said softly, there’s something odd the way Sunggyu said that word.

“No, you’re lying. He is more that friend to Sungyeol. He wrote it in his diary.” Woohyun said, opening a book and read it.

True Love,

Does it trully exist?

I become meaningful not when the love come to me

But I already became meaningful when I hope that love come to me

Because what’s more meaningful in this life than hope?

“He wrote it to Myungsoo, right? Most of all that he wrote is about him. And this. This is Kim Myungsoo’s face, right? Tell me. Tell me, Gyu.” Woohyun forced him.

“You shouldn’t read his book.” Sunggyu said in annoying tone.

“But I deserve to know. Even a little tiny dust on his body, I deserve to know.” Woohyun raised his voice. “Look at this.”

June 28, 2006

Aish, what a tiring day. There’s so many things to do during the exam preparation. And what’s make it worse, I had to face Geography on the last class. I hate Geography. It’s ridiculous to learn about places and land structure. We are not living in Columbus era. It’s 21st century for God’s sake. So I choose to ditch the class. Hehe. And my favourite place is rooftop. You know why? Because I could see him. ^___^

I often caught him sitting alone at the rooftop, painting or drawing. And then, that’s become my favourite spot to stalk him :-P

Like I guest, today he was sitting alone again with his eyes peering on his canvas. But today, I’m not hiding anymore. I greet him bravely.

Flashback

“Hi, what are you doing here?” Sungyeol asked him.

“Can’t you see what am I doing now?” Myungsoo answers without turn around. His hand was still busy dancing on the canvas.

Sungyeol pursed his lips, annoyed. Myungsoo was known as a cold boy. But it was also became his charm.

“Class is about to start. You maybe late if you don’t hurry up.”

“I skip Geography.”

"Why?"

“Because I don’t like it. Why do you tell me to hurry when you are still standing here?" Myungsoo asked back.

"I skip Geography too." Sungyeol answers, taking a seat nearby him.

"Why?"

"Just like you. I hate Geography."

"Why do you hate it?"

"Because my memory isn't that good."

"You don't need to memorize it. You just need to understand it. So you won't easy to forget."

"Really? How about you? Why do you hate Geography?"

"I don’t hate it. I just not in my mood to study. Because it's so boring. Furthermore, I had learned more that they taught at school."

"Cocky jerk." Sungyeol frowns.

"I'm serious. Next time I will teach you Geography."

"Really?" Sungyeol turns bright.

Myungsoo stops his action and turns to Sungyeol. "Ne."

"Yeay...Thank you." Sungyeol cheers.

Myungsoo chuckled at his cuteness. "Weirdo."

"I'm not." Sungyeol sticks out his tongue. "What do you paint?" Sungyeol asked as he turned to the canvas in front of him.

"Sky."

"Ey, but the sky is cloudy."

"Um, that's why I like it. I like black. I like dark. I like rain."

Sungyeol furrows his brows. "You're the weird one. What's the good side from those things? Dark and black are represent sadness and mourning. I don't like dark. It makes me dizzy. And rain makes me wet. I can't go anywhere if the rain come."

Myungsoo smiles at him. "Everyone has their own reason to like something. Rain is romantic. And black is a strong color. Black never affected by any color. That's why I like them."

"Really?" Sungyeol tilted his head.

A moment later, an awkward silence was surrounding them. Myungsoo was kept painting and Sungyeol was watching on him. Without his realize, Sungyeol was fell asleep.

But not long after he was awoke by something wet fell on his face. Sungyeol opens his eyes in surprise.

"It's raining." he quickly gets up from his seat and runs to the gazebo nearby him.

But Myungsoo even didn't budge from his place.

"Ya, you will get wet if you stay there. Come here." but Myungsoo didn't response him.

"Aish, that weirdo. What is he gonna do standing under the rain like that?" Sungyeol mumbles. He then looking at his side to find something and finally he finds an old umbrella among the pile of woods. Sungyeol picks the umbrella up.

"It's still useful." Sungyeol smiles, opening that old umbrella. He then runs toward Myungsoo with the umbrella.

“Hey, you will catch cold.” Sungyeol said as he covered Myungsoo with the umbrella. Myungsoo turned around, smiling at him then grabs the umbrella from him. He throws the umbrella away.

“Ya, what are you doing? I will get wet too.” Sungyeol frowns.

“Drizzle rain won’t hurt you. Come, enjoy the rain.” Myungsoo said, grabbing Sungyeol’s hand tightly.

THUMP!

Sungyeol could feel his heartbeat was faster than before when Myungsoo held his hand. In the other side, Myungsoo lifted his face up, enjoying every droplet. Sungyeol glances at him before copying what he did. For a moment, the two of them are standing there enjoying their time with their hands entwined.

End of Flashback

“If you had his diary then why do you need to ask me?”

“Not every part of him written on it. After mid semester, he rarely wrote a diary. Maybe because of this."

This heachache is started torturing me. What happen to me? Suddenly my fear of death is getting stronger. I don't want to die. Not after I find the meaning of true love.

"After that he rarely write a diary. Is this because his ill? Why he never told me about his headache? What happen to them? Did he still meet Myungsoo? Where is him now? Why Sungyeol never tell me about this? Tell me, Gyu."

"Stop it, Hyun. It's been a long time ago."

"You said a long time ago? Look, even on our engagement day, he still couldn't forget that Myungsoo."

It's been a long time since I wrote a diary again. Today is my engagement day. I'm so happy. Woohyun is the right person for me. I was so lucky to have him. And what's make me so happy, our relationship was accepted. I don't need to hide my feeling anymore. I don't need to live in denial anymore. I don't need to pretending anymore. I'm so happy for that, really. If only this happen more earlier maybe.... Just maybe...

But.... Even though that space was fulfilled with Woohyun but still there's another space that I keep for him. Yeah, my Myungsoo. I suddenly miss him. No matter where is he now, I wish him happy. Just like me. Let us reach our own happiness. Even in different way.

"How can you ask me to just forget it when your fiance is still couldn't forget his first love. He likes rain because of him, he likes photograph because of him, he likes drawing also because of him. This is killing me, Gyu." Woohyun clutches his hair desperately, throwing his body on the sofa.

"That's not the main priority right now. Yeollie is the one who need your attention, our attention. You better spend more time to be his side instead investigating about his past. Let the past stay in the past, Hyun." Sunggyu pats Woohyun's back.

"But I'm afraid, Gyu. I'm afraid that Sungyeol would never wake up again. And maybe right now he is waiting for Myungsoo, waiting for their unfinish love." Woohyun's voice was lower and lower.

Sunggyu sighed heavily. There's a long silence between them until Sunggyu speaks. "So do you want to meet Myungsoo?"

Woohyun turns to him. "Do you know where is him?"

Sunggyu shooks his head. "But I can ask my friend to search information about him."

"Okay, I will be waiting. I hope I will get the information soon."

"Got it, I will inform you once I get the information."

Woohyun POV

Next week is my engagement day. Woohyun is one of my best friend and lover that I ever had. I'm so lucky to have him by my side. But is this lucky that I need now? Then why I still thinking about him who used to fill my day?

I feel as if I lost something

Without knowing what I've found

I feel as if I found something

Without knowing what I'm searching

And I feel as if I'm still searching

Without knowing what is actually missing.

Everyone has their own dream

Some people decided to reach their dream

Some other decided to step back from their dream

And some other choose to stand and keep it for the rest of their life

And me is the one who will choose the last choice

I closed the diary as I sat back on the chair next Sungyeol's bed and stares at him deeply. He looks as if he was sleeping. Someone whom I think that he is mine

Indeed, he is not. I have his heart, his body and his love. But I would never had his memories. The memories between him and Myungsoo, I would never could bring it to you. Only him, only Myungsoo could do that. I've decided, Yeol. I've decided for you, to bring back your memories, bring back your first love, bring back your unfinish love. Please, give me time. Don't give up because I will fight for you. If that will make you happy, then I will bring back Myungsoo for you. I took Sungyeol's hand and kiss it gently. The drizzle rain outside had became heavy rain.