“Fany ah” Taeyeon called, bringing Tiffany out of her thoughts. “Let’s practice one more time”

Tiffany nodded and flashed the older girl a smile. The three members of Girls’ Generation who made up TaeTiSeo had been practicing all day for their comeback. Alongside their title song they were practicing ‘Whisper’ for their comeback stage. It had struck her as she recorded this song how much it fit her and Nichkhun. Her thoughts kept slipping to her boyfriend. Getting into position she got ready for their manager to restart the song.

My shy trembling, My racing heart for you, I can’t hide it, no no no, Now I’ll confess Yeah Yeah Yeah

She hadn’t expected to feel anything more for Nichkhun, they had been best friends for so long it felt like that would be all they would be. She hadn’t expected her feelings to change but they seemed to do just that overnight. It had seemed to happen all of a sudden. Her heart would beat faster when she was around him. Her palms got clammy when he would hug her.

But even with the change in feelings, for the both of them, Tiffany hadn’t wanted to date him. She loved Khun, a lot. She didn’t want to mess that strong bond they had by dating him. It was if she could predict their future relationship. They would date something would go wrong and then they would break up. And it was the idea of the break up was the hardest thing to overcome and it hadn’t even happened. When they broke up they would feel to awkward to see each other and she couldn’t bear the thought of not seeing him.

So she fought. Her feelings, his suggestions, for such a long time. Nichkhun had always thought it had been her that had eventually broke her down but in fact it had been Taeyeon. Tiffany had turned to her for advice and it had been Taeyeon who told Tiffany to just confess her feelings and start dating him. So that is what she had done. And now she couldn’t believe how stupid she had been in the beginning. Nothing would tear them apart. Their relationship was just too strong.

Softly touching lips, A kiss that sweetly melts like cotton candy, I’ll close my eyes for you, So I can only hear you, ooh

Their first kiss was one that remained permanently seared in her mind. It had been on their first real date.

Tiffany had been so nervous she couldn’t wait to be alone with him. She had spent the better part of the afternoon getting ready for their date with the help of Taeyeon and Sunny. She had gone through lots of different outfits before she finally decided with one she was going to wear. And only that was done because her two best friends had told her she had to finally pick something or risk having to go in her pyjamas. She had managed to sit there while Taeyeon and Sunny pulled and prodded at her, her hair was finally pulled into submission and her hair was pulled into place and before she knew it, Khun had come to pick her up for their date.  

“You look amazing”

Tiffany couldn’t help but blush. She couldn’t get over the butterflies she got when Nichkhun complemented her. Their date was amazing. Even though they only drove around, only stopping for Khun to run into McDonald’s to get them some foods. The date was nothing special but to them it had been the best thing in the world.

The date ended with Nichkhun taking Tiffany home. They hadn’t wanted it to end. Staying in the car for longer and longer until they had no choice but to part. After a thousand goodnights, Khun grabbed her hand and pulled her to him. Their lips touching lightly. It had been a kiss that neither had never forgot. It had been a kiss that wasn’t as passionate as the ones they had shared since but one that meant more than all of them combined. It had been the kiss that started everything.

Gently come closer to me, My favourite moment, I’ll tell you, I’ll secretly tell you, In your dreamy and warm embrace I’m held tonight

When Tiffany had found out that Khun had been caught drunk driving shock didn’t begin to cover what she felt. She knew he knew better, she couldn’t believe this was something that he would do but yet he had admitted it and it felt like everything she knew was wrong. She wanted to comfort him, wanted to be there for him but then that was easier said than done.

She couldn’t get close to his dorm, everywhere seemed to be media circus. She struggled to convince her manager to take her anywhere let alone where she actually needed to go. He knew her better then she had anticipated, knew as soon as she got the chance she would rush to be by her boyfriend’s side.

It had taken a plea of desperation to Taeyeon to manage to finally get the means to subdue her manager and go and see the love of her life. Taeyeon, alongside Seohyun, Yuri and Sooyoung, were going to distract their manager. She didn’t know how and to be honest the Korean American didn’t really care, what she did care about was that while there game of charades was underway Hyoyeon would be taking her to 2pms dorm. The plan had been amazingly put together, if she did say so herself, and she couldn’t help but allow pride to mix with her nervousness.

“I’ll come back to pick you up tomorrow” Hyoyeon winked, teasing the nervous girl. “Don’t worry about manager Oppa by the time he brings the other members back he will be so tired I don’t think he will even notice you’re not there”

Tiffany thanked the girl again before sneaking out the car. Keeping her head down she managed to, somehow, make it into the building and pass the apartments overly zealous security guard. Moving up the stairs anxiety began to fill Tiffany. Nichkhun hadn’t even been answering her texts so what if he didn’t want to see her?

Moving to the door Tiffany took a deep breath before pressing the bell, butterflies storming her stomach.

“Tiff?” Taecyeon asked, surprised to see his female best friend waiting the other side of the door.

“Can I see him?”

Taecyeon hadn’t said anything else, just moved aside and pointed her in the direction of the Thai man’s room.

She didn’t say anything as she entered his room, didn’t say anything as he looked at her with pained filled eyes. But then neither had he. Removing her coat she climbed into the bed next to him, her nerves leaving her immediately when he wraps his arms around her.

It wasn’t till the morning she realised she had lay in his arms all night. Looking on his face as he slept peacefully Tiffany couldn’t help want to wake up in his arms every day.

I’ve never felt this before, My body is shaken up with this new feeling, My heartbeat I feel like I’ve become a little girl

They rarely got to see each other. It was a consequence of having a job that put you so forward in the limelight. Being stood on stage with him in Thailand as they hosted Music bank together for the second time Tiffany had to fight to keep her hands of him. Between the screams of the fans, and the looks Taeyeon kept shooting her, Tiffany knew now wasn’t the time to hold her boyfriend.

She had never felt like this before. Never felt the constant need to touch someone, to be in the same space as them, before. It was a new and surprising feeling but a feeling she embraced none the less.

She tried to keep the giddy look off her face, tried to stop herself from smiling so painfully it hurt when he looked at her but she couldn’t. She had never expected to feel like this. Never expected for fall so madly and deeply in love with someone that there were times she forgot everything else but him. But it wasn’t a feeling she didn’t like. She loved the fact she got butterflies every time he looked her way. She loved the fact she felt like a little girl discovering life all over again. She loved the fact he was hers, and she was his. Even with the signs that littered the audience. The ones that paired them up with practically anyone else but each other. Her mood refused to be dampened.