I felt the sun against my skin. I opened my eyes slowly and adjusted my sight. I saw your face in front of mine.

"Good morning." You greeted me with a very sweet smile on your face while your eyes stared straight to mine.

"Good morning." I shifted closer and buried my face in your neck.

"When you said good morning, you should have woken up." You chuckled.

"I don't want to wake up. I want to stay in bed with you." I pouted against your neck.

"I know." You warped your arms around my back and hugged me tight.

"This is so comfortable."

"I know." You kissed the crown of my head.

"I want us to stay like this forever."

"Hahaha..." I felt your body shaken because your laugh. "But, my stomach want to be filled." You caresses my hair gently with your fingers.

"Ishh... naughty tummy." I poked you stomach with my finger.

"Hahaha..." You laughed.

"I love your laugh so much." I whispered against your skin.

You pull away, you smiled and stared at me. "You are so cute."

"I know."

"You are so beautiful." You kept your smile.

“I know.” I smiled too.

We stayed in this staring contest for a moment until you say, "I love you, Tiffany."

"I love you too, Taeyeon."

...

 

I rested my hip in the kitchen counter and watched you cooking.

"Don't you want to give me a back hug." You pouted and furrowed your brows.

"Nope." I tried to hold my smile seeing how cute you look.

"Okay. Here, help me, please?" You handed the spatula to me and moved to give me the space.

"Okay..." Now, I was the one who cook and you were the one was watching me.

You walked, you stood behind me and hugged me.

"If you're not going to back hug me, then I will."

"Hahhaha..." I shook my head on your act.

"I love your smell." You buried your face in my neck.

"Ummm..."

"Do I make you uncomfortable?" You tilted your head to see my face.

"Not at all."

You smiled. "You like this, right?"

"Yeah." I nodded.

"Then, why did you refuse earlier?"

"I was just joking." I turned to see you face.

You narrowed your eyes and shook your head dramatically. "Bad girl."

"Ahaha... Sawry..." I pecked your lips quickly and turned back to the skillet.

"You're forgiven." You pull away and patted my head.

...

 

"You are so cute when your mouth full of foods like that.” You bloated your cheeks and made that chewing sound. "Nomnomnom."

"I am not like that." I whined.

"Yes, you are."

"No, I am not." I pouted.

"Now even cuter." You stared at me lovingly with that sweet smile on you face.

I stop and stared. I love it when you stare at me like that. I love it when you stare lovingly at me. I love that sweet smile of yours. I love it when you stay still, stare and smile sweetly at me.

"I love you, Taeyeon."

"I love you too, Tiffany."

...

 

"Ahhh... beach!" I exclaimed. I stepped out from the car and run to the shore. I took off my  footwear and run to the water.

"Come on, Taeyeon." I called you. I watched you walked toward me.

"Easy there, little girl!" You smiled at me and shook your head.

"Nope." I run to you and grabbed your hands. I jumped and run in circle and made you move with me.

"How old are you again, Miss Hwang?"

"I am little girl, you said." I kept spinning with you.

"Hahaha... Okay, you little girl that I love."

...

 

The sky started to redden while the sun slowly swallowed by the sea line. I sat between your legs and lean my back on your chest.

"Beautiful." You whispered.

I nodded. I love this moment. The beach. The sunset. Your embrace. You.

"I love this." I spoke my thought.

"Me too."

"The beach. The sunset. Your embrace. You." I continued.

"Thank you so much, Taeyeon."

"My pleasure. I can bring you here every weekend until you bored."

"I mean, thank you so much to come into my life."

You kissed the top of my head. "Thank you so much for letting me in, then."

I shifted a little bit and tilted my body to see you. "I am so happy. You make me so happy, Taeyeon" I touched your face with my palm.

"I am so happy to be with you too." You stared at me with your soft gaze and that sweet smile. Oh god, I love this person.

"You complete me, Taeyeon."

"You too, we complete each other, I guess."

"You make me feel full."

"Oh my, do I feed you too much." You joked.

"Ishh... babo, you ruin the mood."

"Ahaha sorry." You kissed the tip of my nose.

"You fill me. " I continued.

You nodded. "You are the cloud on my sky." You said after a moment.

"You are the moon on my night." I replied.

You chuckled. "You are the sun on my day."

"You're the apple to my pie."

"You're the straw to my berry."

"Baby me and you..."

"We're the perfect two."

“Hahahaha...” We both laughed over our cheesiness.

"You are all that I want." I whispered.

"And, I am fully yours." You replied.

"I love you, Taeyeon."

"I love you too, Tiffany."

We lean closer to each other and shared a gentle and loving kiss.

...

 

"Ready to go home?"

"Let's play for the last time before we go home." I pull away from your embrace.

"Play what?"

"Play this." I started to tickle you.

"Hey..." You jerked and stood abruptly.

"Not that one." You shook your head and walked backward.

"I want that one." I chased you.

"No no no." You run to the water. "Hey, come on. Stop it." You splashed the water to shoo me.

It's funny how you’re so ticklish. I only tickled you a little and you run like your life depend on it.

"Hahaha... you are so funny!" I walked dramatically to you and extended my arm while I pretended to tickle the air. "Come here~ Taeyeon~"

"Hey hey hey, don't walk any closer." You run into the deep water.

I stopped when the water reached my knees. "Hey, you run too far. Come back here, Taeyeon." The water reached your neck.

"So you can tickle me again? Nope, thank you." You stayed there.

"No, I wont. Come on, your whole body is in the water.”

You raised your brows and shook your head. 

“The wind starts to blowing hard. The waves are getting bigger. Come on, Taeyeon. I am ready to go home now." I warned you.

"Hahaha... nice try!" You kept standing there and playing with the water.

"I am serious, Taeyeon. Come on, let's go home. I won't tickle you. Promise!"

"Oh, really?"

Suddenly, a  big wave came with the wind that blew. It came to you.

"Taeyeon, the wave!" I screamed and pointed the waves behind you. You turned to see it and before you can do anything, it swept you.

"Oh my god!" I run to the water. "Taeyeon!"

I saw around. "Taeyeon!" I scream. I can't see you.

I observed the water to see the sign of your presence. But, none.

"Taeyeon!" I kept screaming. "Taeyeon!" I started crying.

I kept searching. I searched for hours and can't find you. I was scared. It was getting darker. I was getting tired.

“Taeyeon.” I kept calling your name berween my sobs.

"Taeyeon." I screamed. I hope you hear me.

"Taeyeon!" I screamed. I hope to find you.

“Taeyeon...!” 

Then, there, I saw someone on the shallow water. I run and saw you lay there.

"Taayeon!" I sat beside you.

"Taeyeon!" I shook your body but you didn't move. “Oh my god, Taeyeon.”

I checked your pulse in your wrist, nothing. I tried to hear your breath, nothing. I attached my ear on your chest, nothing. I searched the signs of life in you, but none.

"Taeyeon, wake up!" I smacked your chest.

 

"Taeyeon, come on." I tried to give you CPR when I knew your heart wasn't even beating.

"Taeyeon, come back to me, please! Please, Taeyeon, please!" I was frustrated.

“I need you, Taeyeon. Please, wake up!” I cried.

“I don’t want to live without you.” I kept crying while I shook your body.

"Taeyeon, don't leave me!"

“Taeyeon, please...” I sobbed beside you.

xxx

 

“Tiffany... Tiffany, wake up!”

I open my eyes.

“You need to get ready.” A middle aged women in all-white uniform wakes me up.

I move in my bed. “Arrhmm..?!” I groan.

“You have appointment with your therapist this morning, remember?" She walks out of the room to let me to get ready.

 

I sit on my bed. I rub my eyes. I sigh heavily. "Another night with the same dream of you."

 

 

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“Holding onto something that's gone only makes a sickness inside.”

― Nora Roberts

 

 

I’m sorry ._.v