"Minnie-ah..." I said as I stretch my arm to hug the person beside me. It's only a dream, right? That you left, that
we've broken up...

I opened my eyes and smile but not for long...It is not a dream, if it is... I should have smell the sweet scent of
his hair and I will hear him giggling with just me touching his waist or kissing his shoulder... I am
holding a pillow not Sungmin. I sighed heavily. He is really gone.

Now all I can think is how to get him back. This house is not only mine... its Kyuhyun AND Sungmin's and without him,
this house will mean nothing at all. I mean nothing at all.

I gather the cleaning tools and started cleaning the way he did before... taking off every dust that I can see in the
smallest corner. I realised... Minnie is not a clean freak, this house is just too special that every corner has a
memory and he doesn't want the dusts and dirt to ruin it. That's what I feel while I was so engross in sweeping and
mopping. I checked every small corner of our house every now and then
to see whether there is any dust or anything... somehow I feel like I am being a clean freak myself.

I didn't take off the duct tapes though. I will only take it off when he comes back to me. The next thing I did was
probably one of the saddest decision which I will not regret, I uninstall my Starcraft in my laptop. Starcraft over
Sungmin? that is so typically evilKyu... not anymore. I failed to tell him that he's the most important thing I have
in my life. And no Starcraft mission would replace him... it's just that I've taken him for granted and hurt him... and
I've became a lonely damn bastard now.

It's been 3 weeks after Sungmin has moved out. It was the slowest, lifeless weeks I had in my life, although, I
haven't make any move to talk to him. I have at least some time to make my life right before asking him to come back.

I resigned in the computer company that I've been working at and become the permanent vocalist to the band that I've
been singing with. I've decided to ask them to arrange the songs that I've been writing since and they all are willing
to help me.

I may seem to be living comfortably now that he is gone... I am not. Every night before I sleep, I look at the mural
of our pictures, honestly... since when did I last see Minnie smiling this sweetly at me? It seems like I've been
seeing him pouting and being angry more before he move out... ah I remember, he was smiling that night after the party
when I was holding him.
In the middle of most night, I have to turn my pillow to the other side because I've wet the current side with tears.
At first I thought, it was the rain again... but...those are tears. I am crying for him. I will always cry for him.
At times, I will wake up thinking he's back when actually, I just dreamed of him holding me again, with those small
slender fingers, smiling at me like he always did... telling me that he's back.

Minnie-ah...how have you been? Has it been tough on you too? I miss you...so much.

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It's been 3 weeks since I moved out from the house, it is lonely. I still cannot stop thinking about him, after all
the pain that I felt on that day, he's still the one that can make me smile. A simple memory of him smiling makes me
smile as well.

How has he been? Probably starting anew with ZhouMi by his side.

I've manage to keep my moving out a secret from my boss, I rented a small apartment near my workplace and I'm still
trying to pull through. I realised the first night that I've moved out that... it's not about the house that made me
sad. I can live anywhere...even in the streets as long as he is with me.

I can't turn back time though... I can just look forward and maybe in time move on. Will I ever meet someone like him?
I've entered a dangerous relationship and whether to continue with this path or not is not a problem... its more of...
meeting someone as loveable, and probably as perfect as Kyuhyun. Wait, will there be any other lover, more perfect
than him? I don't think so... I'll probably grow old alone.

Damn it! I told myself today not to think about him and look what I've been spitting...its still about him.

Anyway, after work, I went straight to my apartment but saw someone whom I wish to see me the least.

"Sungmin sshi..." Zhou Mi called. Its not that I hate him...well, maybe a little, after all he stole my Kyuhyun,
wait, he stole MY Kyuhyun that wont be a little hate... I hate him big time as in BIG time. I don't want to see his
effing face much more his awfully irritating voice, but here I am... sitting in front of him in a plastic tent,
with a bottle of soju.

"I didn't know that you and Kyuhyun sshi move out of your old house." he said.

Did- did I hear him right? Me and...who? What the hell... is he playing with me?!

"What do you mean me and Kyuhyunnie? Aren't you supposed to be together?" I asked with a little of bit bitterness
in my voice.

"Huh?" he looked confused, if this is just a show he wants to pull, I swear I'll have one of my high kicks land on
his face.

"Sungmin sshi... the last time I saw Kyuhyun sshi, he said he's going to make up with you." he said in a bit defensive
 tone. What the hell...

"Well the last day I saw him was when you were kissing by the corner block." I said with a sarcastic smile.

He smiled at me and does remember everything, this damn tall gay, I am so giving you a high kick before I go back.

"Sungmin sshi... Did you see us that's why you move out?" he asked and chuckled which irritated me instantly.
"You have no idea what happened back then."

"Yeah?" I asked... "well I don't want to know either... have a good night." I said as I started making my leave.

This irritating gigantic girly and flirtious bastard... I am so-

"I really, really like you..." he chanted, I continue walking... if he wanted to tell me exactly how Kyuhyun confessed
to him, well I don't give a ing damn about it-

"But I love Sungmin more than anyone else in the world." he said which immediately made me stop and looked back at
him, sharply... wanting to believe what I am hearing or am I hearing correctly?

Zhou Mi is still sitting there, not looking at me as he continued... "He's the reason...and will always be the reason
for my existence in this world."

Nobody can hear my heartbeat... but it deafens me the moment he finished his sentence and looked at me with a gentle
smile.

"You see... Sungmin sshi, you should have stayed a bit longer at that time. I did kiss Kyuhyun sshi...and he accepted
it as well, only, we shared different thoughts about it. For me, its all about my fondness of him but for him... he
said it will be a farewell to me. nothing is going on between us."

I widened my eyes a bit and looked down... If that's the case... why didn't Kyuhyun tell me? Why did-

"Sungmin sshi... Im sorry I caused a misunderstanding..." he said showing a lot of concern. It is the first time I
find him nice but I still want to kick his face for causing me to cry and leave my Kyuhyun for 3 weeks now.

"If there's anything I can do...to help you get back with him. I'd be glad to..."

"You've caused enough problems...telling me the truth is enough for me."

I showed him a shaky smile and turned my back on him and walk away. I didn't kick him, I realised that he was still
nice enough to tell me the truth, if it so happened that he didn't...and I find out in any other way... I might spend
a lifetime in jail for gutting his neck.

Kyuhyunnie... he still loves me. Damn! Why did I ever doubt it? How am I suppose to get him back
after saying those words? I-

This stupid Lee Sungmin... I hate you for doubting Kyuhyun.

But he never contacted me from the time I left... maybe...maybe... he really doesn't want me anymore, he just used me
as an excuse to kick Zhou Mi out of his life. Maybe, he needs more time to clear his mind. Maybe...I'm really going crazy,
Maybe...

I'll just leave it to fate...

...if there is such a thing.