PAIRING: SEKAI (Sehun x Kai)
Genre: Angst (but with a happy ending)
Length: 2,188
Description: Jongin's hands and heart were empty the day Sehun left.

Because I was feeling angsty but I dont like sad endings so I gave them a happy one. Unbetaed so expect mistakes. I will read through tomorrow (prolly. maybe) and edit.

Jonginnie
Is this a joke?

Sehunnie

no its not

Jonginnie
You’re breaking up with me?!

Sehunnie

im sorry jongin

Jonginnie
But, why?

Sehunnie

i dont know what to say

Jonginnie
Don’t you think I deserve an explanation?

Sehunnie

you do

i just dont think i can give it to you

Jonginnie
Sehunnie, please

Sehunnie

you deserve better

Jonginnie
Don’t tell me what I deserve

I just want you

I need you

Please

Sehunnie

dont do this jongin

Jonginnie
What?

What am I doing?

Sehunnie

this

stop trying

Jonginnie
You want me to stop?

Sehunnie

yes

Jonginnie
After three years of being together

Of being in love

Because that’s what this is

It’s love

Sehunnie

was love

Jonginnie
How can you say this to me right now?

Sehunnie

im sorry

Jonginnie
Don’t be sorry

Just take it back

Just come back

Sehunnie

im not coming back jongin

Jonginnie
What did I do wrong?

Where did we go wrong?

Sehunnie

its not you

it me

Jonginnie
Don’t give me that, Sehunnie

I still love you

I will always love you

Sehunnie

dont make this any harder than it already is

Jonginnie
Is it though?

Is it hard for you when you’re making it seem like it’s the easiest thing to do

To walk away from me

From us

And everything that we had together

How do you just wake up one morning and decide that you’re no longer in love?

Sehunnie

jongin

Jonginnie
Please, explain to me

I need to know

Sehunnie

i dont think we should keep texting anymore

Jonginnie
Fine

If you won’t tell me how you can just end our relationship

And just give up on us

Just answer me this

Is there someone else?

Sehunnie

goodbye jongin

Jonginnie
Answer me

I deserve this much

Sehunnie

take care of yourself

Jonginnie
Just tell me

Did you meet someone else?

Is that why you’re leaving me?

Is that why you’re breaking my heart?

Sehunnie?!

Please

Don’t leave me

I love you

So much

I don’t know how to go on without you

Please

Just tell me how to fix it

Sehunnie

--

Jonginnie
So you haven’t been picking up my phone calls

I’ve missed you

I know it sounds silly because it’s only been a few days

But I’ve never felt this kind of pain before, Sehunnie

I feel empty

How are you?

Are you just living life as usual, as if the past three years didn’t mean anything to you?

--

Jonginnie
Please come back to me, Sehunnie

It’s been a month and it’s not getting any better

It hurts to breathe without you in my life

--

Jonginnie
Do you remember when you said that we’d be together, forever?

Were they all lies?

Were the promises we made to each other, meaningless?

Did I ever mean anything to you?

--

Jonginnie
I don’t think I can wear gloves anymore

Because the only thing I want wrapped around my hands are your hands

I’d rather they be cold than feel something that isn’t you

God, Sehunnie

I miss you so much

--

Jonginnie
I still love you

--

Jonginnie
I hope that wherever you are, you’re happy

--

Jonginnie
I hope you’re doing alright

I’m doing better

It still hurts but I think I can get through this

But for me to be able to get over you

Really get over you

I know I’ll have to stop texting you

I mean, you’ve probably changed your number

And yet, here I am

Still texting you like a muppet

But there were just so many things that I wanted to say to you

Before you left

I didn’t even get a chance to thank you

For everything that you’ve done

I don’t regret anything

Even if things didn’t work out

I don’t regret one moment with you

Because even if I don’t have your love anymore

I’ll still have our memories, always

And it’s enough knowing that I had your love, even if it didn’t last forever

That’s not to say that I’ll stop loving you

Because I won’t

I just know that you’ve moved on

And I need to as well

So this will be my last message to you, Sehunnie

These empty hands that once held yours

This empty heart which once felt your love

We’ll be letting you go now

Goodbye, Sehunnie

--

Unknown Number

jongin?

Jonginnie
Who is this?

Unknown Number
its me

Jonginnie
Sehun?

Unknown Number
hi

Jonginnie
Hey?

Sehun
how have you been?

Jonginnie
Don’t take this the wrong way, but why are you texting me?

Sehun
i dont know

Jonginnie
It’s been a whole year, Sehun

Sehun
thirteen months and eleven days

Jonginnie
You kept count?!

Sehun
yeah

Jonginnie
What do you want?

Sehun
i just wanted to see how you were

Jonginnie
Why?

Sehun
jongin please

Jonginnie
What do you mean, “Jongin, please?”

No, you can’t do this to me

Not now

It’s too late

Sehun
im sorry jongin

Jonginnie
No

Sorry just isn’t going to cut it

Not this time

You can take your apology and do one

Sehun
jongin please

just let me explain

Jonginnie
Oh, now you want to explain?

After I asked for an explanation?

No, begged you, in fact

And you just walked away

No rhyme or reason

I just came home one day

To find a note

“I can’t do this anymore. I’m sorry, Jongin.”

Three years and you couldn’t even break up with me in person?

Not even a phone call?!

Sehun
there were some things that were happening and i just couldnt deal

Jonginnie
So you just ran away?

Sehun
yeah

i was scared

but im not anymore

Jonginnie
And what?

You thought I would just be here waiting for you?

Sehun
well i was hoping that we could talk

Jonginnie
You should’ve just stayed away

I was doing just fine without you

Sehun
jongin

please let me explain

apologise

and try my best to make it up to you

Jonginnie
THERE’S NOTHING YOU CAN SAY OR DO TO FIX THIS

YOU BROKE MY HEART, SEHUNNIE

Sehun
i still love you jonginnie

Jonginnie
Well, good for you

Sehun
do you still love me?

Jonginnie
No, I don’t

I stopped loving you the moment I decided to let you go

Sehun
but you said

you said that youll never stop loving me

Jonginnie
Well, guess I lied

Just like you did when you said we’d be together forever

Sehun
just please let me explain

Jonginnie
I don’t need your explanation anymore

I moved on

Like how you need to now

Please don’t contact me again

Sehun
jonginnie

please

--

Kyungsoo
You’re a .

Jongin
Me?

What did I do?

Kyungsoo
You know what you did.

Jongin
Are you really taking HIS side?

Who’s best friend are you supposed to be?

Kyungsoo
Yours.

But I’ll still tell you how I see it.

And the way I see it, you’re a .

Jongin
What do you even know about it?

Kyungsoo
I know more than you think.

Jongin
How?

Kyungsoo
He told me.

Jongin
What do you mean, he told you?

Kyungsoo
We spoke.

Jongin
What, when?

Have you been in contact with him all this time and you didn’t say anything?

How could you do this to me, Kyungsoo?

Kyungsoo
Calm down.

He came by my house yesterday.

Jongin
Oh

Kyungsoo
Yeah.

He’s not doing well, Jongin.

You really need to talk to him.

Jongin
Well, if you can recall

I wasn’t well, either

Not for a long time

Kyungsoo
I know.

I was there.

Jongin
Then you of all people should understand why I can’t let him back in your life.

Kyungsoo
Who was there every single night, listening to you cry about him?

Who was there to make sure you didn’t starve to death?

Who was there to take your sorry arse home everytime you tried to drown your sorrows?

Jongin
You were.

Kyungsoo
Exactly.

I know how much he hurt you.

I was there, Jongin.

Jongin
So what’s your point?

Kyungsoo
Don’t you think there’s a reason why I’m saying that you need to speak to him, even after everything’s that’s happened?

Jongin
I don’t know if I can do it

Kyungsoo
You can.

Just give him a chance.

--

Jonginnie
Sehun?

Sehun
jonginnie

Jonginnie
Let’s talk

Sehun
ok

when?

Jonginnie
You can come by our place

I mean, my place

Sehun
can i come over now?

Jonginnie
Yeah

Sehun
ok

ill make my way there now

see you in a bit

Jonginnie
Okay

--

Kyungsoo
So, how is he doing?
You guys should’ve received the results by now?

Jongin
Yeah, doctor’s are positive he’s going to make a full recovery

Thanks for asking

Kyungsoo
I’m glad.

And the two of you?

Jongin
Yeah, we’re good

Stronger than ever

I just want to be there for him, you know?

Kyungsoo
I’m sure that you will be, and that he appreciates it.

Jongin
I can’t believe that he was going through all of it alone

Kyungsoo
He just didn’t want you to suffer.

You know, in case something happened to him.

But that’s all in the past.

You two are together now.

Jongin
Yes

He knows that I’m not going anywhere

Ever

Kyungsoo
I’m really happy for you, Jongin.
You deserve it, the both of you do.

Jongin
Thanks, hyung

Really

If it weren’t for you, then Sehunnie would still be alone

And I never would’ve been able to forgiven myself if something had happened, and I didn’t know about it

Kyungsoo
Better late than never.

Jongin
Indeed

--

Sehunnie
jonginnie?

Jonginnie
Yes, Sehunnie?

Sehunnie
i just wanted to tell you something

Jonginnie
And you couldn’t just tell me?

You had to text me, even though I’m sitting right beside you?

Sehunnie
yeah well

im just shy

Jonginnie
Okay, fine

I’m all ears

Or eyes should I say

Sehunnie
i love you jonginnie

i love you so much

ive never stopped loving you

i read all the messages that you sent

and you dont know how hard it was for me to not reply to them

there could never have been anyone else

youre the only one for me

i could meet every single person on this planet

and id still choose you

and i felt empty too

as did my hands

and my heart

i wasnt ok without you

i was hurting so much

but i thought it was the best thing to do

and of course i remember the time i said wed be together

i meant it and i still do

i have never once lied to you and never will

i swear to you jongin that i promise that i will never leave you again

no matter what happens i know that where i belong is with you

you mean the world to me

you are my love

you are my life

i missed you so much

there wasnt a single second

awake or asleep

that i wasnt thinking about you

there was no way i could be happy without you

and jonginnie?

Jonginnie
Yeah?

Sehunnie
thanks

Jonginnie
For?

Sehunnie
for forgiving me

for letting me back in your life

for loving me

and letting me love you back

even after everything that happened

Jonginnie
I just don’t know why you didn’t just tell me

Sehunnie
because i knew that if i did

you would never leave

Jonginnie
You’re damn right, I wouldn’t have

Sehunnie
but what if things turned out differently?

what if the operation wasn’t a success?

what would you have done if i got worse

and i started to lose all my memories

of you

of us

Jonginnie
I still would’ve wanted to be there for you

Sehunnie
the thought of not remembering how much i loved you

to not ever remember who the hell you were

to not feel the way i do whenever you hold my hand

to not feel the love i have for you with all of my heart

i couldnt do that to you jonginnie

it wouldve destroyed you

Jonginnie
What destroyed me was the thought that you stopped loving me

Sehunnie
you know i could never

not unless i wasnt me

Jonginnie
I know

I know that now

Besides, we don’t have to worry about that anymore

The doctors just gave you a clean bill of health

Wait, are you crying?

Sehunnie
shut up

Jonginnie
Aww, you ARE crying

My baby is really a baby

Sehunnie
i just really love you ok?

Jonginnie
I love you, too

And no matter what

Through sickness and in health

I want to grow old with you

Sehunnie
even when im like eighty and my balls are saggy and dragging across the floor?

Jonginnie
Yes, Sehunnie

Even then

Sehunnie
wow thats real love right thurr

Jonginnie
You know how you can show me how much you love me?

Sehunnie
how?

Jonginnie
Let’s take this to the bedroom

Now

Sehunnie
brown chicken brown cow

Jonginnie
Don’t kill the mood, Sehunnie

Sehunnie
youre the one who wanted to have after the mention of sagging balls

Jonginnie
Sehunnie, please

Sehunnie
jonginnie please

me now