That night was supposed to be a nice and friendly dinner. I repeat, it was supposed to be. But at the end, I had a heavy feeling in my heart. A frown replaced my smile, tears ruined my makeup and crinkles came between my eyes with worry. How could I have caused this much pain unintentionally? Why can't there be a way to fix it? Taeyeon had confessed to me. I never thought she had such feelings for me. But I wasn't offended or disgusted by her at all. I was angry at myself, frustrated at my heart, and guilty overall. Why couldn't I return her feelings? She's the perfect girlfriend material for me. She cares for me, understands me, comforts me, and so much more. She loves me. But I don't love her back and I can't force myself to. How could I break someone so innocent, so lovable? So I think that it's best if I leave this alone. Let Taeyeon move on. Let her heal and fly again. It's okay. Even if later on, I won't have to force any feelings for Taeyeon. Even if the feelings come naturally. Even if I won't be feeling guilt and more. I'll be feeling regret instead. I'll be feeling lost. And most of all, I'll be feeling love only for her.