Jessica POV

I looked at my plate and, reluctantly, retired the carrots covering an underdone steak. I was on Donghae’s place; a luxurious penthouse located in Gangnam. He had arranged everything for a romantic dinner and cloying; flowers, exclusive service of the best chef in town, and soft lighting scented candles scattered throughout the room, which mixed with street lights.

It wasn’t there by choice and when I remembered how he had invited me, I twitched. Donghae managed to make my father to slap me in front of everyone because of my initial negative. Taeyeon tried to protect me, but it wasn’t avail. And there I was, sitting watching the meter table (decorated too) between us.

Donghae smiled as he recounted how the day had gone. Apparently he had approved a surprise math test —he was studying economics—. But I wasn’t listening. I could only think of... her.

She hadn’t gone to school, and neither would the rest of the week. It was all I had been able to get from Yuri when, before entering chemistry class, I grabbed her arm and pulled her away from the group.

Yuri knew what had happened and watched me in a respectful manner, as if asking forgiveness for Jadyn. She wasn’t to blame and I let her know.

When it was time to ask where Jadyn was, she refused to answer. According to her, she knew nothing, except for the days she would be out. That's all I could achieve and the worst news I could receive. I wasn’t sure I could endure a week away from Jadyn.

—You won’t eat? —Donghae asked, touching my hand.

—I'm not hungry. —I got up from the chair and walked to the windows.

God, I felt so guilty for causing the situation with Jadyn... Perhaps, if I hadn’t spoke to her that way, she wouldn’t have done it. Maybe then I wouldn’t be feeling this grief that oppressed my chest.

I had never felt anything like it. I hated just as much as I wanted, and that was killing me. It drove me crazy because I had always been mistress of my feelings. I had never feel regret of anything I’ve done. I didn’t care if it hurt or not, what it was done it was done, but Jadyn was different. My whole life changed from the moment I saw her for the first time. I changed.

I wasn’t comfortable, it wasn’t me who lived in my body. A bomb of emotions exploded constantly on my chest and made ​​me vibrate, but it also got me out of control. I didn’t know what I was feeling, but I was sure that it would mark me forever.

Donghae hugged my waist and made me look at him. I obeyed him without knowing he would kiss me again. But this time he retired before I could kick his . He watched me quiet with desire, and kissed me again with more intensity.

It wasn’t easy to escape. Donghae didn’t realized that my body rejected it; I rejected all. I don’t want him around, but thanks to his detestable touch, I discovered something. I wan