It had been four years… FOUR YEARS!! It had been four years that Choi Siwon left you. Siwon got involved in stupid car crash, your world became upside-down. God took him so early. Why? All of your dreams and your happiness were gone with his car crash. Four years sound makes people to think it’s an enough time to forget someone... But you still feel like all had happened yesterday. Everything is just happened too fast and it didn’t give enough time for your brain to accept the data and your heart to absorb the fact.

You can still feel his scent, his breath, his touches, his embracement, his kisses, his voice, and his smiles which create dimples on his cheeks, his scent and his nagging are still fresh to you. You can feel he is near beside you somewhere. You didn’t throw away his stuffs, still keep it in you apartment. His clothes, his books and almost his belongings are still at your place. These are the only things that you have left of him. In the other way, it’s the only connection left between you and him. Living without him is impossible and losing him is a nightmare, but now you are having that impossible nightmare.

Siwon and you known each other since childhood, both of yours parents are best friends so what more can I say. He confessed his feelings on graduation day. And you of course accepted his confessions as you also had a crush on him long time ago. You two planned to get married as soon as you finished collage but the fate didn’t let it happen like you both planned. It’s a cruel world.