A Confession

     Hello, I am KTY the Adorkable Kid Leader... I am not childish, the reason why they call me Kid is maybe because of my petite figure and my baby looks. Next to my immediate family, my fans are my inspiration. They are the vitamins that keeps my energy high. They are the air that keeps me breathing. They are the water that keeps me hydrated. They are my life

      But to this point of time, two person became my life. 

     The very reason why I wrote this message is that, I want the people who look up to me know the real story behind this greatest secret that I know someday will be revealed. I don't want to leave them asking different question as to why I became like this. Why the funny and dorky Kid Leader became the cold Kid Leader. Why the smiling TY became the poker - faced KTY. Why the the famous girl band haven't had a come back after a year and a half. What Really Happened to KTY?... not the TY you see on the screen now... but the KTY who treasures my personal life but is willing to reveal soon to the public that I became a man's woman now. That I have given my vows already to the man I never imagined to fall in love with. The man who taught me the true meaning of responsibility, trust, loyalty, forgiveness and... true love. The man who taught me that being selfless all the time is not the right thing to do. The man who taught me to fight for my love. The man who taught me how to be strong. The man who taught me everything.
He was my first bestfriend. He was my first mentor. He was my first fan. He was my first holding hands, first piggy back ride, first date, first kiss, first intimacy.  

     Yeah, he was my first in everything, but we were never in love during those times. We treat each other like siblings. Nothing more than that.

 
     But one unfortunate night changed everything.

     I was in the middle of killing myself. 
     But there he was, always being my savior, my greatest influence. He save me from my death.
     He was willing to throw away everything for me, but what broke me was that he did everything not because he is in love with me.

     He was just being my goody old bestfriend, taking care of every mess I've made.

     During those times he was with me was full of bliss that eventually I fell into his genuine caring and responsible personality. I fell so hard that I don't know how to get up and knock myself out that everything was just for fame's sake.

 
     He was in love with another woman. 
     His first true love.
     He is my first love, but I wasn't his. 

     Until up to this point he doesn't know my feeling towards him. 
     He was too in love with her that he barely notice my facade treatment.

     Here I am now, still living with my pretend family for future public cristicism. One question still lingers in my head... 
     "Do you know I Love You, KJY?"

Comments:

Taeyeon_ssgg: A fraud.. a fan just being delusional! 

vip_gdtop: stupid soshi... leave my jiyong alone and pair your dorky leader to someone else.. gd is only for me.. if he is not for me i will give him away as long as it's top oppa.. just not your leader..

gtaexhipper: kyaaaaaaa! what if it's really tae tae? and what she's in love with uri gd? i ship gtae so hard.. who's the source?

soshibang657: is this a fanfic? can you post the link of the story.. pretty please?

taeyeonlover: WTF? taeyeon and gdragon.. never gonna happen.. taeng's only mine...

Reading the comments and the upcoming comments... although they won't believe this post.. at least I've let go some of my broken feelings.. I hope it doesn't go viral.. I hope netizens won't push it through and just think it's a bluff... I always hope.. 
but all my hopes often vanishes...

I just want to be with my baby..
I really miss my baby...my happy pill...
I also miss you, Kwon JiYong ssi...

By the way, my name is Kim Tae Yeon, and I am  THE SECRET WIFE...