His Love and My Guilt

I sense a love from afar
A love for me and only for me;
His love is so innocent and so pure
One might think it’s vaster than the sea

I feel his tender care as he caresses me with his hands filled with warmth
I feel his loving gaze even though he’s trying to be inconspicuous
I feel his devotion whenever he hands me gifts, looking at me with his anticipating eyes
I feel his adoration in a million ways
Yet I find myself not willing to give any love to him

I am guilty of my heartlessness
I thought of loving him back, but it wouldn’t be right
For I will torment his love so appallingly
For I will break his heart so painfully

I wish I could tell him without hurting his feelings
I wish my heart could learn how to love him without any restraints
I hope I could make him happy in some other ways
For I am a girl that doesn’t deserve his love