<" I sometimes scream at her because of all the problems I'm going through .. I just .. " he shrugged,bursted in tears and covered his face with his hands because he didn't want me to see him cry. Even when I layed my hand on shis shoulder to comfort him he shook it away. I told him I'd come back when he'd cool off. It's funny that I asked him to cool off while I'm the one who needed it most as flames bursted inside of me

I walked out of the room and collapsed where my friends were sitting. I couldn't tell them what was wrong .. I just stood there for a while then whiped my tears with the back of my hand and went back inside . >

SY - Then what happened ?! asked Sooyoung
- We laughed and called each other a baby and from that day on we talked and hang out almost everyday until one day I messed it up ... You see sometimes you can't tell your feelings apart so I told him that I loved him then ran away
SY - Why did you run away ?
- I think I was just affraid of rejection .. I was a typical nerd back then and he was the most wanted guy at school. He stopped talking to me after my silly confession. A week, two weeks passed and with each day I hated the way we avoided each other so I apologized and told him that I didn't really mean it

SY - Did he tell his girlfriend ? You said she was emotionally cold to him .. did they broke up?
- He didn't tell her I guess .. Hyuna was one of the problems he had to face. She was desperate for attention and what would be more convenient than hooking up with a popular guy in her first year there ? I told him that she was using him so many times but I guess Jongin loved her too much to see the truth behind her lies. I remember how he broke up with her .. Rumors had it that she was dating Hyung Seung and Jongin at the same time HyunSeung used to be called "The Player" since he's never single .. He and Jongin weren't exactly friends They had thier own issues and Hyuna's short term relationship became the biggest issue. Anyways, Jongin broke up with Hyuna after having a huge fight with her lover Hyunseung
SY - Were you happy that they broke up ? she asked while writting
- Of course I was ! I hated her and she hated me back . I guess she still thinks until this day that I'm jealous of her somehow but I stopped hating her and I don't know if she still does .. I mean it's been 4 years now .. Let's just hope for the best .. Jongin left to Milan Italy .. Remember the crying scene ? He was so stressed that he used to yell at his own mom overtime he's home plus he failed all of his tests because he was hurt .. I couldn't' do anything to help him .. He asked his multimillion father to send him abroad and he's there in a fine arts school
SY - Did he come back home yet ?
- No maybe next year Soo .. I have to go now .. I'll see ya at lunch alright ?
SY - Sure
- And this conversation remains a secret you really don't have to post it on line alright ?
Sooyoung held her notebook tight and shouted
- But no no no .. I only have like 3 followers ! I want to post it please
- you can't post my personal life online dude come on !
SY- pllllllllllllleeeeeeeeaaaaaaaassseeeeee
- Don't you give me that puppy look Choi Sooyoung
SY - please !!!
- fine .. Don't mention any names !
- No .. I'll make up some new ones who fit my drawings

* * *

As I was heading towards class I kept having these flashbacks about Jongin. I haven't really thought about him lately but I had to bring him up to Sooyoung as she's my best friend.
The funny things about flashbacks is that they get you caught up in them that you might just end up bumping into someone unintentionally just like I bumped into JY aka Jung Young Hwa aka my crush . It's true that I still like Jongin but it doesn't mean I can't have a crush

I mean seriously .. JY is like the cuttest guy ever. He smiles 24/7 that sometimes I wonder if his jaws hurt
"- So sorry are you ok ?
JY - He there *smiling* I'm fine
- Let me pick up these books
JY - I'll help .. so you're day dreaming as usual ?
- Kind of .. but what do you mean by "as usual" ?
JY - I .. I .. I don't .. uh I have to go.. see ya later Yoona
- Ok sorry again JY
JY - It's alright

Well, JY might be a sweetheart and a very smart person but his friends weren't as friendly as he is which made my hard work to get Young Hwa's attention very difficult . He mainly had 3 male friends and 1 female friend
They were his real friends since he's too popular. First there's Chanyeol .. Mr Know It All. Despite his fun personality he seems very judgemental and proud. You can tell from the way he walks or looks at other people that he pretty much kills everyone in his mind, which was Tao's favourite pastime. Tao is one of the tallest rich boys in our school . Let's just say that his hight made him look down on others but him and I we have one thing in common ; our Gucci love. You must have at least 2 Gucci items to be friends with Tao. Then comes Kris : The mysterious but wild one in the group
We used to study together back at primary school. He once locked me up in the toilette and I didn't manage to get out of there for more than two hours. And last but not least Jessica aka Ice Princess She was called that for two reasons a) she used to figure skate back when she was in the US and b) she's the school's meanest girl . I even heared her once making her friend break up with her boyfriend just because he didn't up to our Ice Princess.

So .. you see what I mean ? If they ever find out that he's my crush ..
they'll probably crush me and export my corps to the middle of
nowhere.
A lot of people wonder why would JY hang out with such a group but I guess it's because they grew up all together.

" - Day dreaming again in class ?
- No .. no .. sir