I've been sleeping without him beside me more than one year.

I've been missing him whole year.

Even we just apart with a thick wall, but I really could feel you were changed since the day we were not a roommate anymore.

We were not the same as before.

I was looking through the random song list.

And found out this song that very dedicated to my feelings right now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ygC8pLefwg

"I know I shouldn’t cry already but why do I keep crying?
My heart toward you acts however it wants
So it keeps sending me to you

It hurts so much that I’m the only one who feels like this
That you aren’t looking at me
Though you are probably uncomfortable with me

I still love you, I love you
Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you
The more I try to approach you, the more I try to get closer,
You try to run away and that makes me lonely

My tears are not stopping
You can’t, can’t, can’t get farther away
Don’t run away, don’t turn away from me, please

Because our happy and good times keep passing me by,
Because I feel like I will regret this till I die,
I have something to tell you right now

I still love you, I love you
Though I don’t know anything else, I know I want you
The more I try to approach you, the more I try to get closer,
You try to run away and that makes me lonely

Whenever you want to come back, you can come back to me
Because I love you

I’m okay even if you don’t love me
If I can just see you, I’m fine with anything
The more I love you, the deeper this gets,
You get farther away and that scares me

My tears are not stopping
You can’t, can’t, can’t get farther away
Don’t run away, don’t turn away from me, please"

Lee Sungmin, Why were you changed? Can't we stay like in the past?