A kinda special chapter for the people that is curious about their past don't hurt me when I leave cliffhangers....Just scream at me

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That night while everyone was sleeping Haena was still awake it was hard for her to sleep and she didn't know why suddenly it felt like her feet were standing up by its self and went to the place she despite the most....the memory box on top of her closet 

Why am I suddenly getting this? She thoughted while sitting down on her bed again

She slowly opened it and looked inside tears were starting to form just one look at the box 

Presents from before the fight and drama were in there,Pictures,and a diary that she never wrote in after that day

Taking a deep breath she slowly took the 34 most important presents out of the box 

The first one was the cross necklace leeteuk gave her before he went to the military 

Flashback

"Inyoung!!" Leeteuk went into Inyoung's room

"Huh? Oh oppa! Aren't you suppose to get ready? Tomorrow is the day"Inyoung tried to greet him with a smile since she already said goodbye to kangin and heechul once

"Ya ya our maknae want me to go that much?" He rubbed her shoulder

"No! It's not like that....." She looked down

"Hehe look what I bought you!" She looked at him holding the necklace up so it was spining

"WAH!!" She grabbed it and admired it

"Oppa gomawo!!" She eyesmiled him and he smile back

"Do you know why I gave you this?" He said taking the necklace from her and putting it on her 

"No why?" He chuckled and ruffled her hair

"Because I want you to be the goddess who help me guide everyone when I'm gone" He tapped her nose lightly

"Huh?" 

"You know how our members are right? Childish and big kids...they wont listen unless someone tells them too and they only listens to you and me" She nodded to his answer

"Don't forget manager oppa! He is scary sometimes" Leeteuk chuckled

"Yeah so your job is to keep them safe from manager hyung ok?" She nodded 

"Promise" they pinkie promise but that promise couldn't be complete

She smiled at the memory and held the necklace close to her heart...another memory flashed through her mind

It was the night she was going to go, no one cared about her or what she would do she was hurt and now she was going to leave....for good until she got the text messages

Yah Inyoung are you really going to leave?

-Angel Teukie oppa 3:41 A.M

Maknae don't ignore oppa please

-Angel Teukie oppa 3:48 A.M

Baby please just answer please

-Angel Teukie oppa 4:00 A.M

Remember our promise please..just try once more....for oppa..please...Inyoung..

-Angel Teukie oppa 4:10 A.M

Inyoung please don't go we need you

-Angel Teukie oppa 4:15 A.M

Mianhae oppa....I have to...Farewell

-Cutie maknae Inyoungie

A tear slowly fell out of her eyes as she thoughted back about the texts how much leeteuk told her to give them another chance she rejected it and ignored him

She went to the next present

She chuckled and held it up remembering the time that it was the 10th birthday of her

"Inyoung!!" Heechul came to her when no one was around to congratulate her

"Neh?" He scratched his neck while holding something behind his back

"Um.....Here you can have it" He showed the doll to her face

"Ah you must gave me this to remember you right? Of course thank you oppa" She gaved her a eyesmile and admired the doll while he secretly smiled

He was one of the people that wanted her to go.Scared to remember the memory she tried to keep it in

"LEE INYOUNG!!!" A voice screamed out

"What?" She said half-heartedly while sitting on her bed

"YOU COME OUT HERE" taking a deep breath she knew he was going to do something to her 

"Neh?" A slap came to her face

"WHY DID YOU SLAP HYENA HUH?!?!?" she smirked

"I never did and this hand will never reach anyone face to do a-" Another slap came across her face

"...Huh...You actually slapped me without the real reason..." She half-heartedly smiled as tears were falling

"We did have a reason,you slapped hyena" Donghae said while hugging Hyena protectively just making tears fall more

"Why do you never asked me or a reason? Huh? Kim heechul..." She called heechul name dangerously

"Don't you call me by my full name like that lee inyoung" He spat back without a care

"Have you guys ever thought how I felt? huh?" I looked at 34 faces in the room and the last one I looked at dangerously

"Hyena-ssi please if you want them just tell me I don't want to fight you" haena litterally begged her

"Don't talk to her" Everyone standed around hyena

"fine then" She stormed to my room and locked it sliding down the door tears were streaming on her face that was the moment she decided to leave

He was so rude and talked without thinking it sadden her a lot deciding to forget it she put it away and got the next one

A present from hangeng when he was moving out of the dorm that was the day she never want to remember and can never forget

"Inyoung" She finally looked up the first time in days at him tears were still flowing on her face

"Don't cry" He squated down to her height and wiped the tears away

"You'll get it when you grow up arraso? Here keep this for oppa" He said and rubbed her head

"Gege..I'll miss you" He chuckled and gave her a kiss on the head

"I'll miss you too maknae remember call me often ok? Keep the members together for oppa ok? Don't let any of them go you're our guardian angel"

Guardian angel? Oppa I gave up really easily right? Mianhae oppa 

Having enough of looking at all the gifts she looked at the diary which was covered in flowers hears ot13 ot15 ot7 and ot12 and pictures of the 3 groups she slowly opened it

Dear Diary,May 28,2012

It's a really tiring day today having to go one schedule to another I wonder when will I get a rest huh?

-Lee Inyoung ^-^

Dear diary,June 18,2012

We meet an unnie today...she looked really scary and mean I had an bad aura around her too but oppas greet her really well

-Lee Inyoung ^-^

Dear Diary,September 5,2012

I haven't wrote on you for a long time right? Oppas.....they don't love me anymore

-Lee Inyoung

Dear diary, November 30,2012

Today..Heechul oppa slapped me....I'm hurt,I decided, I'll leave tomorrow

-Lee Inyoung

Dear Diary,December 1,2012

You know what's sad? I have to leave on my birthday....Morning was so quiet no suprises like normal...but after this is a new life...I'l go to california and live there starting a new life bye bye forever

-Lee Inyoung

She picked up a pen and wrote neatly on the paper than wasn't touched for 2 years 

Dear diary,May 28,2014

it has been 2 years since I have last writen on this diary...I came back but as Lee Haena, a cold girl with no heart. They were all doing well but donghae was very rude. I know one day the secret is going to get out somehow but I'm prepared because they lied to me...I can lie to them also

-Lee Haena