Okay this is not an update but i just want some one to read this its okay if you font want read this.this is my life story

it all started when i first enroll at my school. I was a freshmen. My apperance is not that good, i was tan and have short hair. Everyone judge me by my apperance. Everytime i go inside my classroom i feel like trash. My friends always war me, i try to be quiet so they will not war me again. It happen like 10 or 14 times. Everytime i came home i feel like they can't hurt me, i feel alone in school, and at home.

Last year i was a sophomore, my hair is now long and i have white skin. I always tie my hair because my hair is so tick. I try to not tie my hair but end up being bullied again. I have friends but they are also close to the one that bullied me. I try to take interes in what they are intrested in. One day before everything happen there is this girl she was a kpoper and she bought a exok pin. After 4 weeks i realize that one of the guys in exok is cute (d.o.) i took my own interest in exo. Then after some time they start to bullie me again and called a jeje fan in my country (phil.) i lways ignore them but they always have this way o bullie me

this year im a junior, everyone that bullie me in the past was not in my class. I try to be calm and try not to make enemies

my parents always judge me because my fandom is exo. They don't support me. Only my uncle support me. Today im envey my friend because she attended a event where you can but two exo overose album and they will give you 12 photo cards. My parents came by me and started to tease me because i didn't have enough money. I always try not to eat at my school because of that but its still not enough

They say that i don't study even though i really try alot but they still dont see it. They called me stupid, dumb, and i always end up crying in my room. Im not rich im poor but i still hide this pain inside me. When they see me smile, they dont see me in pain deep inside me. My friends dosen't know my story i end up make a story that is happy and not the real one. You guys know that im always happy here cause when im here i feel like my life is no where to be seen.

so i told you guys what i keep deep inside me for 3 years. 3years of sadness, pain and i always feel an outcast. I hope this dosent change they way you guys look or think of me. When i receive a comment that my english needs improvement or some of my sentence if understanble, it always stab me in the heart but i always say that i will do it because this place is the nly place they can't hurt or bullie me

so thank you for reading this i hope you guys will be by my side and i don't call you sub. I call family. Sorty for not updating today, i wad just hurt when i saw a pic. That my friend have supportive parents, while mine not so much. I dont adk for money cause i know they on't have enough money for my 2nd older sister who is now graduting but i dont blame them, i just want there support that alls. You know what else i feel, i feel like no one loved me when i try they will get irrtated. I always stare at my cousin who have a mother ho always hug her and kiss her, i envey her but i always keep what's inside of me.

So i will try to update tommorow 

Annyeong