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He can make me smile with his smile, make me laugh with his laugh, make me cry with his tears, and make me fall in love again and again.

I wasn't the kind of person that was easily made to smile or laugh. I wasn't the kind of person who cried in front of others. But obviously, that all changed after Tao came in my life. Everyone noticed how Tao changed me. I remember one time after dance practice, I stayed behind to practice the dance more (the choreographer already scolded me for being such a clutz on the dance floor) but to my surprise shy Zitao stayed with me.

"Gege, I should keep you company"

I think that was the first time someone made me smile. All sweaty and all tired, Huang Zitao made me smile. 

There was also this one time when Tao sat next to me on the plane when we had to split into M and K. 

"Gege, should i call you Duizhang now?" He asked me that with his curious eyes and pouty lips and at that very moment, with his curios eyes and pouty lips was the first time someone made me laugh.

"Duizhang! Why are you laughing at me?!" I laughed some more.
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You see, Tao was a cry baby, he still is, but when we finally debuted, many people's eyes were on us. Many people were judging our every move. Zitao, being the curious being he is, decided to look his name up. 

The comments were hurtful and it was his first time encountering that kind of situation. He came into my shared bedroom with Yixing and climbed on my bed. Yixing got up and left us alone to talk.

Zitao told me about all the hardships, the homesickness, the nights he cried in bed because he missed his parents, those nights when he injured himself in dance practice and the time he lost his voice for days because of singing lessons. He cried a lot that night. So I cried with him too, remembering my own sufferings. 

That was the first time I cried in front of someone.
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It would've been a lie if I told myself that what I felt for Zitao was just love for a brother. It was way more than that. The way my heart beats too fast for my liking whenever he's around, or whenever I lay on my bed and think of him until I drift into dreamland didn't help in lessening my feeling for him. So why even try to stop it when you know you can't, what's the point? 
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I took Luhan's advice and planned to confess. I had a big event planned and everything, but a few days before the said confession, Zitao came up to me and did something I never thought he'd do.

"Duizhang, I love you." and he kissed me and one thing led to another. But the point was I fell in love with him deeper and deeper after that night. And I would gladly do that over and over again until I die. Because I love him and he changed me to someone I wasn't ashamed of. 

It was still hard for people to make me smile. It was harder to make me laugh. I still didn't cry in front of others. But Tao isn't just someone. 

He smiles, and I smile
He laughs, and I laugh
He cries, I cry with him and wipe away the tears.

All because he loves me and because I love him, I was able to be myself in front of someone that counted as my everything.

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