Siwan woke up with a huge headache. " good morning sunshine!!" kwanghee sang in a sweet voice.

Kwanghee pov

Siwan look at me! Look only at me!

I love you and always will! Goddamit how I wish I could just say that to him. I wish I could feel his lips on mine. I wish I could have enough courage to say those three magical wordsTo him without being laughed at.

Siwan. I. Love. You. Maybe I should just avoid him.

Really how hard could it be? 

SIWAN POV       

Kwanghee. Kwanghee. Kwanghee.

He is all that's on my mind lately. His touches seem less frequent. He always hangs out more with the other members. Why should I care? Well maybe it's because I do love him, maybe more than I should.

But I definitely know that he means more than a friend to me. What I don't know is if he loves me back, I guess it's obvious due to him avoiding me that he doesn't love me. For the past few weeks my mind seemed clouded and my focus wasn't clear.

The only thing in my mind was him.

KWANGHEE POV           

I'm sorry siwan. I'm sorry.

I felt my eyes burning and ready for a river to flow out. It was night as I lay there on my bed. Missing so bad the things siwan did what felt like years ago. Due to the difference of both of us it really felt long.

Those rough kisses and touches siwan gave to me. As I thought back, I felt loved at the time, I felt really loved.

But now things were so different.

It was all my fault, am I too selfish to do this?

SIWAN POV           

You selfish bastard!!!

How can you do this to me? Can't you see me suffering? Why? Why kwanghee? Before you were so different.

So happy and made me feel loved all the time, even though it wasn't actual love. I think.

Before when? When did this different side of kwanghee appear? I thought long and hard that night and I couldn't remember since when he changed. All I Remember is going to a bar.

A bar? Why was I there?

KWANGHEE POV     

Avoiding siwan was harder than I thought.

It was only a week. If I could just get him out of my head. People are noticing my strange behavior these days. Usually I'm absent minded and always rely on my best friend siwan to do my work. Yes I still think of him as my best friend.

Ignoring him is just getting harder and harder.

The same question always in my head 'does siwan love me back'

SIWAN POV          

The bar!!! I can finally remember! But I still can't get past remembering being drunk as a drunk could be.

I faintly remember kwanghee being there...with tears. Maybe we were fighting?

Was it my fault he was crying? Dammit I think it was. That's why he's avoiding me! Maybe if I just apologize it will be back to normal.

What did I do to make him cry? He barely cries.

I'll apologize, I'll make our relationship work. I think I just said that out loud.

KWANGHEE  POV

I'll make our relationship work. Is that really what i heard?

Oh joy! He does love me!

He really does? I can't be any happier, I was about to quit my avoiding act soon enough.

We can both work it out. It will all be good.

Love love love.

  SIWAN POV           

Damn. Is that kwanghee behind me? Is that the old kwanghee back to himself?

Smiling widely to himself. What's he thinking about? Obviously not me.

Oh right, apologize. Better now than never.

I took a deep breath and looked straight at kwanghee. 

KWANGHEE POV

Yes yes. We will finally get married. I can see our whole future.

He'll say 'i love you' and I'll say 'I love you too' I'll buy a ring for him, get married. And have babies.

It's all planed out.

Now just say it baby! Please!

SIWAN POV         

Kwanghee looked at ne with pleading eyes and his smile as wide and big as could be. Gosh he really waited long just for me to say sorry? I felt really guilty now. But its time to say it. 

"kwanghee. I. Am. Sorry."

   KWANGHEE POV

O.O those were his three words