"Himchan!" a voice calling my name. It was high pitch so I though it was from a girl's voice. I turned around and I saw a girl whose wearing a white dress and curly hair swaying in the midst of air. I observe the environment and it seems like I was in the park or near in the Han River. Wait.. what am I doing here? And who is this girl standing in my front?

"Who are you?" I asked. Her smiling face changed into a sad one. I saw her eyes, full of sadness "Don't you remember me?" she asked.

I just shake my head. I have no idea who the hell she is. She smiled sheepishly "You'll remember me. Someday" she turned her back and ran away. I tried to chase her but she was very fast, as she was running away a light struck on my face. It almost blind me up until someone whispering on me "Open your eyes" I followed the voice and I saw a white paintings on the wall, a dazzling light and a crucifix on the center in my front.

Then a middle aged woman came up with me with a joy on her face "Himchan! Oh thank goodness you wake up. Just wait a second and the doctor will come" eh?

"W-who are you? and where am I? What happened?" I asked her so many question and yet she gave me a confussed look "What?! Don't you remember anything?" I noded as an answer.

Our conversation suddenly been cut because of a man white dressed in a white coat has arrived. He check my body and vitals if I have something, then the woman says that I don't remember anything.

"You don't remember anything?" the doctor asked. I stared at the woman in my side, "H-himchan. I think my name is Himchan".

"I see. Mrs. Kim, Your son are having an amnesia. You're aware of that right?" then the middle aged lady noded "It isn't curable nor I am not capable to cure his lost memories. The best way I can say is, just tell him about things and time will only tell. That's all" then the doctor left. The woman and I are the one who left in this room.

"Ahh.. Mrs. Kim right? Are you.. are you my mother?" I asked. She nods her head. 

"What happened? Why am I in this place?"

"Because, you've been into an accident. You're driving drunk that day and you hit with another car. The doctor said that you hit your head in your window's car and the impact was great so you've fallen into commatose" I see. But why am I drunk while driving that day?

"How many days am I here?"

"Not days but months. 2 Months to be exact" ohh! I've been commatose for two months?! Wow. Just wow.

My mom hold my hands "Himchan, I'll help you to remember the things you needed to remember" I smiled at her, "Thanks mom".

 

It's been 6 months since I was discharged in the hospital. Thanks to my family and friends, they help me to remember everything. I quite remember everything except for this girl. I've always dreamed about her and my dreams are the one from my first memory, the day I wake up in commatose. I've always asked my family or my friends if they know the girl am I dreaming of but it seems they didn't know or maybe they were not trying to say it because I notice everytime I asked her, they were avoiding it or they will shrug and say 'I don't know her'.

Today I am cleaning my room because my cousin will visit in our house and my mother orders me to do it. As I am cleaning my cabinet, there's a box that caught my attention. It was a blue box. I open it and I saw a picture, photo albums, letters and a silver ring. I check the ring and  I saw there was a name engraved on it. 'Y&H' What was that mean?

Then I check the photo album and I saw a girl. A beautiful lady. She had a heart shaped face, small but pointy nose, cute eyes, kissable lips and a brown curly hair. She's cute especially when I saw she does aegyo. I can't help but laugh at her. I don't know why am I always in the picture along with her, and some of the picture are intimate. Like I am kissing her at the lips. Then I put the picture, next is I read the letters. Some of the letters are love letters and I guessed that this Yumi is my girlfriend. I pick the only picture. I think it was a stolen shot and I check the back and there was a name written on it 'Son Yu Mi'.

I immediately go downstairs and I saw my mom vacuuming the floor "Himchan, what's the matter?"

"Mom, do you know Son Yu Mi?" she stop vacuuming and she look at me, as If I said an unappropriciate word. "N-no. I don't know her" then she continue cleaning the house. Why do I always feel that they were hiding a secret from me. 

I go back in my room and look at the picture of Son Yu Mi. She looks familiar. I tried to remember if I have a memories of her but I can't. But I feel my heart beats fast when I look at her. A heart beat fast and a pain in my chest. What's wrong with me?

I decided to call my friend, Yong Guk. I think he can answer my question, but I do hope he's not busy today. So I dialed his number and "Yeoboseyo"

"Yo!"

"Oh Himchan, why did you call me?"

"Yong, can I asked you?"

"Sure"

"Do you know, Son Yu Mi?" he didn't answer me. I thought there was a problem on the line or something "Yong are you still there?"

"Ahh yes, may I ask you. Did you're family say anything about Yumi?"

"Nope. They said that they didn't know Yumi but I feel that they actually know her". I heard him sigh on the line "Listen, let's meet up at our usual place. I think it's time for me to tell you"

"Okay" I get dressed down and go to our usual place. When I arrived, I saw Yong Guk sipping an Americano Coffee. 

"So What do you wanna tell to me?" I asked.

I heard him sigh and he look straight in my eyes “Son Yu Mi is your girlfriend.” Girlfriend? But there’s no one coming in my house and proclaiming as my girlfriend. Nor my family mentions that I do have a girlfriend.

“Girlfriend?”

He noded “Yes. Girlfriend”

“But why didn’t I see her, or my family mention—“ he cut me off “Because Yu Mi, is already dead” dead? When he mention that Yu Mi is dead, I felt my heart pierced in a million times. As If I am gonna burst out.

“Do you want to know what happened before you got in an accident?”

“Yes”

“Yu Mi died that day because of lung cancer—“

“Wait she’s smoking?!”

“No. She inherit it from her dad who died also in the same disease. That day, you asked me to accompany you drinking beers and soju then you babble on me that you didn’t accept the fact that she died. That she’s gone in your life. You really love Yu Mi. You’ve drank  all night as I listen to your story but my brother called me because of an emergency. My mother was been rushed into the hospital. So I told you that I am going and don’t forget to called someone to fetch you up because you’re really drunk that day until you’ve been hit.” That’s why.

Then a silence wrap around us. “Why my mother didn’t mention it?”

“She doesn’t want you to remember her. Because she thinks that it will affect your life and she doesn’t want to hurt you. That’s why. She told me to hide it as a secret but I can’t bear watching you being clueless on her. I am sorry” Now I understand why my family didn’t mention her.

“It’s okay. Yong, do you know where her tomb is?”

“Yeah. I’ll take you to her”

We left our usual place and visit Yu Mi’s tomb. I want to visit her. As we’ve drive along I can’t help but to think what Yong Guk said. It really hurt me as the truth become clearer.

“Here we are” he said as we standing in a tomb where her name is written. I read it and it says:

Son Yu Mi

Date of Birth: July 3, 19XX

Date of Death: September 12, 20XX

In the memory of family, friends, and her love ones especially Kim Himchan.

The sky becomes darker until the rain poured on us as my tears roll down to my cheeks. I don’t know, I felt my heart is in pain. She really love me and I don’t even remember her. I wished I could remember her, as the one written on her tomb.

 

3 years have been passed and I am working at music school. Teaching traditional music to the one whose interested. My memories have been clearer as well as for Yu Mi. I remember, when she was alive. I used to be a bad guy, who likes to drink, smoke, fight, and play all the girls. I met Yu Mi at my school because she was always bullied by the queenkas of my school. I defend on her and because of that we’ve became friends.

She was the sunshine in my dark world. She was warm and gentle. Her smile, her laugh, and everything about her. She was my strength whenever I am weak. She accept me for who I am. She taught me about life and especially love. She make my heart beats fast and give butterflies on my stomach.

She’s my everything.

I love you and I miss you so much, Son Yu Mi.

Now that I’ve remember you.