I don't want to sit around thinking and regretting everything that happen. I will fight for my feelings and force him to listen.  I don't care if he will believe me or not as long as I told him my real feelings- but I'm still hoping that he would give me a chance and believe everything that I'm going to say

Now I'm standing outside in front of a mansion- the bully's house. I rang the door bell. Hoping that someone's around and hoping that he's there

"my I know who is it?" ask the reciever

"Seohyun I'm here for Luhan" I said to the receiver

I'm really nervous I hope my voice didn't sound so shaky

"My I know your relationship with the young master?" The nosy receiver ask

Lover I'm the lover of your young monster

"I'm the young mons- I mean master's friend"

"May I know the purpose of your visitation? " what is this interrogation?

"May I speak to him it's very urgent and personal" please let me in my life and happiness depend on this

The gate open and I enter without hearing the receiver. A maid was standing on the door "may I know where the young master is?" Calling him young master is very uncomfortable

"I'm sorry Madame but the young master will not entertain any guest as he order us" she give me an apologetic look "and I'm afraid he lock himself in his room ever since he got home"

"Please I really need to talk to him" I pleaded, the middle age maid took a long sigh

"This way but I won't assure you Madame that he would open his door no matter how much we knock" the maid led me to his young master's room

"Can I have the key to his room please I really need to talk to him" I ask. I don't care if I sound desperate all I want from this moment is to talk and clear things out

The maid look at me from head to toe "you seemed trust worthy enough,  let me remind you no one here can talk to him in his state" she hand me the key "good luck Madame"

I was standing in front of his door. Contemplating whether to open his door and barge in, but I need to tell him my feelings. It's now or never and of course I will choose now

I enter the key and unlock his door. I saw him laying on his bed with his arm covering his eyes- he looks depress and most especially hurt. I never saw him like this before

I slowly took my step "Luhan-ah" I called him by his name. It's my first time addressing him by his name

He removes his arm and opens his eyes, tilting his head to my direction "what are you doing here?" He got up-giving me a glare that only him could ever pulled "who allow you to enter my house and who let you enter my room?" He bomber me with questions and he's mad just by the tone and look on his face

"I was interrogated when I reach your gate and you also want to interrogate me what are you, police?" I didn't keep my mouth shut did I? Way to ruin my chance

He's brows furrowed more to my remark.

I inhale deeply, I need to control myself

"I read this earlier and it says 'If the day would come when you need to pour all of your emotions and feeling, you don't need to bother yourself on what the others would think of you. Don't be ashamed to let all your feelings to explode, it's better to be honest rather than blaming you