Title: Kissing Your Worries Goodbye
Author: scarlet003
Pairing: YunJae
Genre: Fluff
Disclaimer: YunJae does not belong to me because they belong to each other.
Beta: Unbeta
Author's notes: Repost from my LJ account (3/4/2010)

The reason why Yunho couldn't sleep the night before the kissing scene.


Oneshot


The day Yunho received his drama script for "Heading to the Ground" was the same day he notice the beginning of Jaejoong's somewhat strange actions.


As the balcony door remains open, the early morning breeze had made its way inside the living room . The morning sunshine sips in from the windows while the cchirping birds gave the calmness of the day.

Indeed, this is how a morning should start.

Jung Yunho was siting comfortably in the living room sofa, his feet crossed on top of the coffee table as he browsed the pages of the newly arrived movie script. As he was enjoying what the day has to offer, his body suddenly turns rigid and the hairs on his arms stood erect as he felt a strange presence lurking around him.

He felt a presence behind him, its eyes piercing throughout his body creating a chill running down his spine.

Yunho immediately turns his head around searching the room for the source of his discomfort. In failure to discover the culprit, he turns his attention back towards his reading materials, continuing to browse the pages.

Upon reading halfway, he felt the same presence again; and from the corner of his eye he saw a masculine yet slender built of a man, skin as fair as a woman, hair black as night and lips like mushed red paint. But it was in the man's eyes that made Yunho cringe. He knew what it meant, he had seen that kind of look before and he promised he wouldn't dare to cross its way again.

Jealousy is what any man would stay away from, especially if those kind of look belonged to a man and a possessive lover called, Kim Jaejoong.

"Boo...??" was the only word Yunho could utter as the other man walked passed him towards the territory of their youngest member, the kitchen. Then and there, all hell broke loose.

Today's breakfast wouldn't be served with a hot, perfect round shape pancakes with butter and sweet syrup on top or a hot, well dressed beef and noodle soup, instead, the meal would present itself as a cold, dairy, bland and crunchy morning breakfast called cereal.

Now, Shim Changmin is going to have his morning fit.

~~~

Yunho's day didn't change after the unfulfilled breakfast they all ate, he remained indifferent to everything else that goes within the house especially his lover's mood swings and took into account his set goal--to perfect and portray is dramatic character well.

The members of TVXQ were miraculously complete on their day of rest; each member has his own space in the living room. The youngest sat comfortably in a single couch reading a magazine, that could and in some way fulfill the deprived morning breakfast he should have eaten, entitled "Food fit for the Gods".

Yoochun on the other hand sat on the wooden floor between the television and the coffee table where all of his music sheets were scattered, while Junsu occupied the couch across Changmin, and he too was engrossed with reading but every now and then his lashes would fall tand he would end up in a peaceful slumber.

The lead singer and leader of the band were the ones who were occupying the sofa. Each one took their place on each end, resting either their arms on the side or using it as a back support; it was Jaejoong who took the former while Yunho took the latter absorb into his reading.

This was also the same moment when Yunho was speaking his lines out aloud but the members were very patient and supportive that they didn't mind Yunho's dramatic reading. It  was Jaejoong who even gave a helping hand to his lover; an act that which you can call...normal, ordinary, friendship or deep love.

But that simple action would change as Jaejoong's eyes read Oh Yeon Yi's name on the sheet.

Gone was the cool voice of Jang Seung Woo...

Gone was the ladylike impersonation of Kang Hae Bin's voice...

What remains for Oh Yeon Yi charcter was a bored, bitter and poor acting of Kim Jaejoong.

Every now and then Yunho would raise his eyes from the sheet he was reading and look across his lover with amusement. He could see the man's eyebrows meet, his lips speaking with a frown and his eyes without spirit. He made a conclusion that Jaejoong was definitely pissed off.

Yunho decided to let him do what he wants, let him calm down on his own and he wouldn't meddle his lover's worries because to say it simply, he was afraid.

As they finished from one page to another Jaejoong suddenly stops in a scene where Yunho really needs to practice his lines because of the tension that would rise on the production set. This was the part where he needs guidance for he had never done this scene before; not in front of so many people, not for the sake of entertainment and especially not to woman who is not his girlfriend, and who is the opposite of his lover's gender.

"Oh Yeon Yi's character is such a bore, her character gives no life to this drama and Lee Yoon Ji noona will only worn herself in portraying such ridiculous character!" Jaejoong said irritatedly as he immediately stood up and threw the sheets on the coffee table scattering it on top of Yoochun's music sheets.

"Jaejoong-hyung!" Yoochun whined as he moved the scripts aside. Changmin on the other hand looked up from his magazine and watched Jaejoong's distraught outburst, and without a second thought, he too stood up and walked towards the kitchen as if he knew what's to happen next while Junsu, well, let's say he was awake and confused.

Without waiting for Yunho's reply Jaejoong stomped towards the kitchen and seconds after the sound of utensils clashing Jaejoong strode out while literally dragging Changmin who had a despair look written on his face.

When Jaejoong was in front of Yunho, he suddenly shoved the dragged man on the seat beside their leader. Yoochun on the other hand somewhat predicted the event thus he had the scripts out-stretched towards Jaejoong, and just in sync, when the angry lead singer turns around he immediately grabs the papers and gave it to Changmin.

"I think Changmin would be a better partner to practice your lines with, and in this way, he could also prepare himself for his upcoming drama" Jaejoong said calmly but his raised eyebrow said something else. With that, he stormed out the living room into God's know where in the part of the Dong Bang house; leaving a dumbfounded Changmin, a speechless Yunho, a satisfied Yoochun and well....Junsu was still in his confused state.

"Looks like were having cereal for lunch," Yoochun suddenly blunted out grinning.

And like a ticking bomb, Changmin had thrown his second fit for the day.

"Now what did you do?!"

~~~

The night when Yunho finds himself unable to sleep

Yunho found himself sleeping on a not so comfortable cushion on the sofa in the living room.

It was simple to know what he had been doing there at the middle of the night with a pillow under his head and a blanket to keep him warm.

Jung Yunho, the most outstanding leader of a band was deprived of a comfortable sleep.

Like a pregnant woman, his lover had been experiencing his days of mood swings but for U-know Yunho it seemed like it had been happening for months now and tomorrow would be the day that Jaejoong would give birth and swearing in pain.

He was not dense, ignorant or oblivious towards Jaejoong worries but what you can call his current state was the usual but momentary blind side of human being.

Once in a while people experience moments when they could not see clearly what's in front of them. An image they could not picture, a problem they could not solve and a word they could not utter.

But who could not blame him. Days of experiencing Jaejoong's mood swings was a disaster.

After days of unfulfilled meals, like a tensai that he is, Changmin gave up on having a promising meal in the future.

Junsu had kept his low profile around Jaejoong because he was the guinea pig of the other two members, and ever since  the very beginning,he didn't know what was the start of Jaejoong's terrible disposition.

Yoochun's case was different and a more problematic one. Being the "soulmate," he carries the heavy burden to catch Jaejoong's despair. A chauffeur whenever Jaejoong decides to go out and get drunk. A partner who would be there when he starts to get mushy and sweet talk nameless men, and a bodyguard that make sure that Jaejoong would not get hit on by someone other than his boyfriend.  For Yoochun, the life of a best buddy is hard, especially if you have an image that you have to protect.

For the time being Yunho would make the best out of his current state since tomorrow would be a hard and nerve-racking day on the Heading to the Ground set.
~~~

Yunho gains knowledge on love from a friend on the day of the kissing scene.

The sun had not yet risen, and hours before the clock on the bedside table strikes five, Yunho slowly awakes from his slumber. 

As he opened his eyes to wakefulness what greeted him was something he would like to experience  for the rest of his life. Even in the dimness of the room he could see his lover's ivory nape and feel his slim figure fitted perfectly in his arms.

Each morning, whenever Yunho decided to wake up earlier than his lover he would at least try to lessen the creaking sound of the bed as he moves out of it. Everytime Yunho moves out  Jaejoong would reach out, half asleep, towards Yunho's side feeling the warm empty space his lover left behind and soon Yunho would find Jaejoong also awake.

This was to show that Jaejoong was a light sleeper whenever he gets a chance to sleep in the same bed with his lover. But Yunho learned that this was one of those days that would prove that theory wrong. It took two hours of bathing and thirty minutes of getting dressed until he learns about it.

The sun was slowly rising when Yunho finished dressing in his own room. He walks towards Jaejoong room to check if his lover had already awaken, but before he could even hold the door knob he heard Yoochun calling him from the corner of the hallway.

Yunho decided to check upon Jaejoong later and moved towards Yoochun who seemed to have, based on his leader-ish instinct, something important to say.

"I can't keep it any longer," Yoochun started as he scratched his hair in distress. "You know that I'll be spending my time with Jaejoong-hyung in Japan starting next day and you or the other two won't be there, so it's best if you talk with Jaejoong-hyung to lessen even a little bit of his worries. By doing that, you're saving me an extra weight off my shoulders."

"I don't get you." Yunho said plainly, plain as the thoughts in his head.

"Hyung, should I spell it out or do you need me to make drawings too? I'm not the love guru in this household you know." Yoochun said as he heaved a heavy sigh. "Anyway, I'm going to say this to you but don't tell me later that  you're thinking the same thing, because if you do I'm going to...."

~~~~

Yunho was standing in the doorway as he stared at Jaejoong's lying body on the bed, his lover's back turned towards him. He subtly know what Jaejoong was feeling but he had to admit he was too busy even to appease that.

Minutes before he leaves he was unsure and doubtful if this was the right time to even talk about the problem. He didn't know if their conversation would stop with a peaceful closure or in the middle of an argument before their manager drags him out the door and into the HTTG set. But Yoochun was right, they need to talk about it and he couldn't burden Yoochun with their love problems.

Yunho sitted himself beside Jaejoong's hips and stared at the sleeping man beside him. He placed his hand on Jaejoong's other side and hovered at the man below. He stared and stared until he saw a sign of movement from his lover; the pursing of his red lips was the sign Yunho needed to come down and kiss him to wakefulness. But Yunho was given a crushing letdown when Jaejoong moved from his side to his back giving the other man a full view of an image of the sleeping man. Yunho could only chuckle a laugh when Jaejoong gave off that painful expression he makes whenever he sleeps. He couldn't  help but smile even more when he remembered that episode when they need to talk about it in Come to Play.

He found Jaejoong beautiful as he blushes with embarrassment and still find him beautiful even now when he makes that same painful expression.

"Jaejoongie," Yunho called his name repeatedly as he brushed away the hair on his lover's forehead.

"Boo, hear my words" Yunho whispered.

"You'll be the only man and lover I would gladly go over a series of retakes just to taste your sweet lips and feel you warm body close to mine..."

Yunho started to leave kisses on Jaejoong's lips, on his jawline down towards the man's collarbone while his hands made contact to his captive's waist feeling the warm skin underneath the cotton shirt.

"Haven't you noticed Jaejoongie. Each day, our kissing scene is a whole set of retakes but each retake is something new."

Yunho was not surprised when Jaejoong opened his eyes with a look of amusement.

"Don't sweet talk me Jung Yunho," Jaejoong said and made his adorable pout for his defense.

The lover on top gave nothing but a contented smile as he lower his head and drown himself with kisses. But their sweet moment didn't last when Changmin cried out from the closed door. "Yunho-hyung, manager-hyung is here!"

Yunho stared down at his lover and the other man did too. They both wished that they would not have to be apart. But it was something they had accepted before, this was their daily routine. This is their life. And even though this life could be tough, they still treasure it because they are together.

"See you in three days Joongie"

"See you in three days Yunnie"

"Have a safe trip and good luck with you and Yoochun's soul mate promotional"

Jaejoong lifted both his hands to capture Yunho's small face in his palm and said:

"don't flirt, don't take too many retakes and imagine its me who you are kissing"

"That's what I will try to do but I think I would rather not," that being said Jaejoong's smile turned into a frown but Yunho didn't stop smiling down at him.

"Boo, if I did that, the kiss would only end awkwardly and very stiff because it's not you. No one can replace the real you, not even in my imagination".

And just like magic Jaejoong was back to his usual smile and whether or not do men giggle, Jaejoong giggled a laugh as he wrapped his arms around Yunho's neck.

"Then don't smile too much she might fall in love with you. And that same goes to you; don't fall in love with her or anybody else while I'm gone."

Though Jaejoong gave off that beautiful and contented smile Yunho knew that jealousy was eating Jaejoong's heart out.

Like what Yoochun confirmed to Yunho's unconscious inclination; from the arrival of the drama script or maybe even before the confirmation of his appearance for the drama, Jaejoong was keeping his anxiety from him.

Anxious that Yunho might wake up one morning and discover that he really likes women than having a controversial, unacceptable and difficult relationship with a man like him.

Jaejoong was not a gifted actor when it comes to relationships and he knew Yunho knows it.

Trying to save himself from a repressed emotion and an explanation for his teary eyes, Jaejoong decided to move out of the bed, using all his force to push Yunho aside while wearing a mask of laughter on his face. But Yunho wouldn't give in. As Jaejoong sat on the bed trying to break free, Yunho straddled Jaejoong's legs underneath him to refrain the other man from moving.

"Boo, look at me" Yunho captured Jaejoong's shoulders with his hands restraining him.

Jaejoong wouldn't look at him directly; his head turn towards the side looking elsewhere while trying to hold back the painful tears that was ready to fall. 

"I love you." Yunho said with all honesty.

"Kim Jaejoong I love you..."

Like a remedy to an illness Jaejoong suddenly burst out into tears covering his face with his hand. Yunho drew his lover in his arms and let him cry on his chest where his heart is located, because true enough, that is where Jaejoong was placed from the very beginning....in his heart.


I love you

Those were the three words Yunho could say that would consume Jaejoong 's worries and fear...

and those were the three concrete words that Jaejoong can hold on to until the day their hearts decided to stop.



Owari