re-up/changed

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Kim Taeyeon, an ordinary girl, who fell head over heals for her best friend Jessica Jung at her freshmen year. At first, she was in denial like everyone does, thinking that her love for Jessica was just sisterxsister love, but as time went by, she knew she had truly fell in love.

She knew that society teaches us, girl x girl relationship is a big 'no no' so she hid her uality. Her life revolved around lying to people around her inluding herself.

Life was hard for her knowing that she has to put up a smile everyday. A fake smile at least.

Jessica was a dull girl. Whenever she sees Taeyeon, she just can't seem to notice Taeyeon's red and swollen eyes. Can't seem to notice that Taeyeon's body is getting skinnier each day.

And can't even see the bandage that Taeyeon had around her wrist.

(Flashback)

"Taeyeon!" Taeyeon turned around upon hearing her name and only to be greeted by her crush. She smiled. "You would not believe what happen."

"What happened?" Taeyeon asked. If only Taeyeon knew what Jessica was going to say, she wouldn't of said that.

"I..." Jessica was hyperventalating. "I--- got a boyfriend!"

Upon hearing the news, she couldn't help but to frown and have some tears around her eyes.

"Your not happy for me? And why are you crying?" Jessica asked with her head titled a little to the side.

"I..." Taeyeon couldn't say anything. "O-of c-course I'm happy. I'm just crying because your all grown up now." Taeyeon fake smiled.

"Aw...Taengoo." Jessica then gave Taeyeon a hug, hoping to cheer her up. Instead of why Jessica was trying to do, it only made Taeyeon cry harder. Although Jessica couldn't see it because she was hugging Taeyeon.

Taeyeon knew it was coming, but not this soon. That night she cried all night in her room. So much tears that it could fill buckets. So much tissues that it could be stuffed in an animal.

And so much blood on the floor that it could be donated to red cross organization.

Taeyeon POV

I started to gain conscious.

*BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP*

Am I in heaven?

"Is my daughter all right?"

"She should be. She didn't lose too much blood when she cut herself on the wrist." .... "Do you know why she decide to suicide?"

"I...I don't know."

"As a parent, you guys should be more aware of what she's doing. Talk to her sometimes."

"Thank you."

But before I get can fully conscious, my body decided it was best for me to past out. 

"Arggg..." Was the first thing I said when I tried moving my body. Felt like my body was made of stones, but before I can truly move my body, someone was holding me hand.

"Umma..." I said. I shook my mom a little. "Umma..."

"Huh?" My mom quickly woke up and saw me awake.

"Omo...Taeyeon-na." My mom quickly gave me hug. "I was so scared I lost you."

"I'm sorry umma. I shouldn't of made you worry." I returned the hug with one of my hand because my other hand had stuff attached to it.

"Please don't do that again." I could fell streams of tears already on my shoulder. "I lost your father. I can't loose you."

I gasped. It the first time my mom said something like that to me. I hug her tighter, knowing that my existence did matter.

School resumed and of course, Jessica was there...with her boyfriend. I grabbed my hood, put it in, hoping that Jessica won't notice me when I walk pass her.

She didn't. Of course. She's too dull to notice that.

It hurt seeing them together. It did, but there wasn't a single thing I could do. Not a single ing thing. I was thinking so much that I didn't even notice that I walk into the classroom. I took a seat in the corner where I usually sit. It wasn't before long until I heard the bell ring. I saw a lot of kids rushing in at the same time, finding seats. Most of them chatting with their friends or either playing with their cellphone. I was going to grab out my cellphone until I saw Jessica and her boyfriend walk to together into the classroom.

Yes, her boyfriend has the same classes as her and I hate to admit it but also the same as me. Everything was okay until she chose to sit by him instead of me.  I quickly adverted my gaze to something else, knowing that the longer I look at them it'll hurt more.

"Hi. Um. Can I sit here?" I heard something from my right ear. Maybe their talking to someone else. Who'll want to sit by me anyways.

"Excuse me?" I wasn't going to turn my head until I felt someone poking my shoulder.

I was shocked. "I---" What the ? She's...she's...absolutely gorgeous.

"Can I sit here?"

"O-of c-course." The girl then set her stuff down on the floor by the desk. I watched her ever move. To how she bend down to put her stuff down. To how her hair followed her movements. It was all just to perfect.

"So what's your name? My name is Tiffany Hwang." She introduced herself.

"Ah. Tippany. I'm Kim Taeyeon." She giggled after I said that. Her giggles were cute. Wait. Why is she giggling anyway?

"Its TiFFany. Not Tippany."

"That's what I said. Tippany." I'm saying it right aren't I? I mean, I hear no difference.

"It's TiFFany...you know what. It's okay. Its cute." She then poked at my cheeks. I couldn't help but to feel my cheeks heat up.

"How come I never noticed you?" Even though I was always by Jessica's side, I was a observant person.

"I just moved here from the states."

"Woah...Wait since you just moved, lemme see your schedule." Tiffany then pulled out her schedule. 

"Okay lets see." I checked her schedule. "Yes!" I did a fist pump. "We have the same schedule." I don't know why I'm so happy when I knew she had the same schedule as me. Maybe its the fact that I can have someone to talk too? Dunno.

"That means were friends right?" She innocently asked.

"Not friend. Best friends." I smiled and she followed also. Damn. That smile could kill anybody.

Jessica POV

Who's that girl sitting next to Taeyon? I don't recognize her. Taeyeon looks happy chatting with her. Those smiles she gave to her. I haven't seen those in ages.

Before I could look at them any longer, my boyfriend grabbed my hand and held it.

I gave him a smile before returing to my thoughts. I mean it's good to see Taeyeon smile so brightly again even though I wasn't the one to make her smile like that, but as long as she is happy, its okay right?

Right?

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Rewrote because I didn't like how I started it. Hope this is better?  

I'm planning to update ALL my stories tomorrow so be ready for it! At least, that's my plan.