Kevin searched for himself in the bathroom mirror, but all that he saw were hollow, emotionless eyes. For the millionth time, he shut his eyes and willed himself to forget. 

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"Hurry up." The leader commanded. Nodding, Kevin quickly walked to his starting position for Am I Easy.

He placed his left arm on 's right shoulder, casting his gaze down like he always did, waiting for the music to start. As he remembered something, he looked up, wanting to share the joke. But the smile faltered when he realized in his place, was Hoon. 

Hoon gave him a look, but Kevin simply shook his head and returned to his original pose. 

"Stop it!" Kevin whispered, subtly squirming.

Kibum chuckled as he continued tickling Kevin, amused by how Kevin was trying his best to stay still. 

"It's ticklish!" Kevin couldn't hold out any longer and slapped Kibum once on the shoulder, smiling as he did. 

Now all Kevin feels is pain. 

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He stands on stage with a solemn expression, the music resounding in the background. With a mic in hand, he waits for his lines as he mouths the lyrics of the other member's parts.  

The lyrics tells him to move on, to put the past behind. But, what if he doesn't want to move on? What if he's tired and he just wants to drop to the floor?   

"I don't know what will happen without you, hyung." Kevin silently said, his head rested on Kibum's chest. 

"It wouldn't happen." Kibum gently his hair. "But you'll be alright anyway." 

"I'll die." Kevin uttered, but Kibum only smiled at his childish words. 

His eyes become watery, but everyone else believes that he's only putting his emotions into the song. 

Someday, maybe someday. 

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Note: Short emotional drabble written at 2am.