It has been 1 month since what happened between me, luhan oppa n baekhyun oppa. I'm glad that they are still friend n not fight anymore because of me but now i'm the one who do know what should i do. They really nice to me, protect me n do all what they can do for me. Sometimes i feel bad for them but i cant hurt one of them. Suho oppa n yoona always support me because they also cant do anything, this is all about my feeling, my heart n my love to luhan oppa n baekhyun oppa. I can see how they show how much they love me, their sacrifice.

i also know it's not fair for luhan oppa, he should saw his girlfriend hold hand or go out with another guy. I cant always do this but i also confuse with my feeling, i can see what baekhyun oppa had done to me. I kept said sorry to them but they said it's ok even though i know it's not ok for them. I feel like i want to end all of this. Honestly, i can feel that i love luhan oppa more than baekhyun oppa but if i say like this that means i will hurt baekhyun oppa. I also had called suzy many times n she said that she also not baekhyun oppa anymore because she knew that baekhyun oppa love me.

today me n luhan oppa go for walk around the park. He interwined his hand with me. Along the walk, none of us talk but i dont feel any awkwardness. 

'Baby?' 

'Ne oppa?' I look at luhan oppa

'are u still cant decide?'

'mianhae oppa, i really want to end this but u know that i cant hurt one of u oppa'