[CONTENTID1]What A Boy Wants (Not Quite So Heaven Sent)[/CONTENTID1]

[CONTENTID2]Burn Me Once[/CONTENTID2]

[CONTENTID3]

Things at the dorm were tense. Our other two members had no idea why, all that had occurred between me, JR, and Minhyun. I hadn’t let on to knowing what had occurred between Minhyun and JR. And JR deigned not to speak to me afterwards. I had dashed out of that dorm as though the hounds of hell were at my heels. I had found the nearest empty park and sobbed myself out. Crying into my pale hands as though my best friend had died. He might as well have. I wallowed in my own misery and the chill of Autumn whipped through my hair, before I slowly became angry. Why would someone cheat on me? I’m perfect, there was absolutely nothing wrong with me. Still isn’t, even as I’m writing this. At the time I concluded that, therefore, there was something wrong with JR.

Not that I got the chance to act on this anger, I returned to the dorm, pretended to smile, claimed I was tired, and then cried myself to sleep over re-runs of Rooftop Prince. Gods, that story was the saddest thing in the world. Just…just thinking of it. *gentle sniff* I found myself wishing JR had died a tragic death instead of cheating. Then, I would at least have felt as though he still loved me even though we could never be together. I really was such a wimp back then. Tsk tsk.

I know he tried to come in, tried to crawl into my bed as though he hadn’t been in someone else’s only a few hours earlier. Probably trying to apologize while getting something he dearly wanted at the same time. I had, luckily, taken the precaution of locking my door. Of course, I’m sure that made my new roommate somewhat unhappy, that he couldn’t get into his room. But there was no way on this earth that I would be sharing a room with Minhyun. He could sleep on the couch until the world ended, and that was the end of that silent, and one-sided discussion.

So, clutching my ridiculously big eyed stuffed animal like a security blanket, I fell asleep.

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I woke to the sound of pounding on my door. Never anyone’s ideal ringtone to wake from peaceful sleep, surely. Ignoring it, I instead got up and went to the mirror, examining my face and gasping in fright. Those dark circles! There was no way I was going to make JR wish he’d never been born a cheater looking like this! Suffer with me, I am perfectly gorgeous in every way. Except for those circles *cries copious tears* The knocking had finally stopped and I went to town with the makeup. As I drew the perfect cattail eyeliner across my eyelids, I reviewed the plan that had formed in my dreams in the dead of the night. I’d start with looking gorgeous every moment of my life (as though I didn’t already, but this was just adding a little…glitter to the already perfection that was my face.). Then, I would make sure to steadily begin ignoring him, and the third stage of this plan would involve Baekho. I would pretend to be cheating on JR with him... That would be fun…I gave an evil chortle as I patted my cheeks.

Of course, it occurs to me only now the obvious flaws in this plan. Somewhat lucky I wound up going for something completely different. I just couldn’t seem to realize at the time that JR liked Minhyun more. I only learned this lesson after the fact, but if you are the public(ish) relationship, but he’s sleeping with someone else…well, he likes that hidden person more. Clearly. Either that or he wasn’t being fully satisfied by my ever so lovely self, and honey, we can’t even go there. Any claims of such are lies. Lies, I tell you >.>

As I opened the door, I caught JR placing a quick kiss on Minhyun’s cheek, causing the latter to blush furiously. It wasn’t in my face, blatant cheating. They were in a shadow in a corner, but it was painful enough anyways. It was then that I made the decision that every time I caught JR cheating, I would take something from him that was important. As JR was a rich boy, and now an idol, he had so far to fall, and so many things to take and break. I cou