Where’s Byungie, I need him now. I’m in mood of hugs and cuddles. That stupid jerkjoe! How he dares to speak like that? My heart hurts really bad. I have never been offended by someone whom I liked. Why is my heart so fragile, I should replace it with NOKIA so no one could break it. I really want to hug someone right now. But lizzy’s sleeping and my pillow’s already wet, from my tears. I hate this day. First the kiss, then me and chunji, then my wasted dancing, then l.joes words. I can’t even sleep, how am I suppose to learn tomorrow.

Finally I fell asleep. I barely got 4 hours of sleep. On breakfast (all trainees have breakfast together). Andy walked in and I thought that he would thank us for yesterday but, he said the words I wanted to hear the least:

-You did very good job yesterday. So you’re going to assist them on Music Bank also.-please leave the couples, don’t change them please-and I’ll change the couples, so you would be able to know every member well.-NO. wae? What have I done so bad? Was I narcodealer in my past life or what? Please don’t choose l.joe for me. I’m begging you! Please.-lastly… um… let’s see… Sunhye and… l.joe.-I literally facepalmed myself.  THANK YOU. I see this day isn’t going to get any better.

Please god let me spend this day in peace. We arrived early there and prepared the room. When TeenTop entered the room my heart skipped a beat. I looked away straight away. I was still hurt from his words. He almost called me . I can’t forgive things like these easily. I knew that there was one hour before their performance. I don’t know why they came here so early for their make-up stailists need only half an hour. Well I was avoiding his eyes, every time I felt his stare my heart was starting to go insane. Suddenly he asked for water and I found that his bottle of water was already empty, and I went outside to get it. When I got outside the room. I thought I was dreaming. Like this can never happen to me. It can’t be happening. I must be dreaming. It’s too good to be true. OMG SHINee! I CAN’T BELIEVE MY EYES. Fangirl overload. My head’s going to blow up. I don’t know how I stopped myself from running after them. They walked past me. MIND SHUTDOWN. Like seriously I couldn’t think of anything except them. I was standing there like an idiot about one minute then I remembered. Water. When I