A person once told me that one day I will grow up and everything I knew could disappear just with a simple glance at reality . REALITY- a not so long word yet so hard to understand. Why so ? People cannot find happiness in this harsh life because they do not see the right path that is just in front of them. 

There are days when I find myself lost in a big forest of images and crucial memories. Walking slowly in the cold snow, trying not to bump into the tree of life. No matter what I do though I can't run away from it , I just keep walking with those heavy steps still knowing where I'm going. Each time I go into that state of mind it gets darker and darker as if I won't feel the sweet touch of the sun on my skin ever again. 

The human being is a strange creature. It always surprises me how one can adapt to a certain situation so fast . Those dreams continued for years and now nor the cold nor strange noises could scare me anymore. I was getting closer to my worst nightmare and the tiny voices kept whispering and saying all the things that hurt me the most . I soon realized that those were the voices of my past. The ones that had torn my heart into pieces that I later collected and glued together hoping it won't ever hurt like that if I don't let anyone touch or see it. 

Behind the crowd of dark figures , there it was, a big old tree with two leaves on it. The rest were killed by the freezing breath of winter. I reached for one and looked at it from up close. The lines on it reminded me of something . I sat down on the ground and closed my eyes. I could hear my grandmothers words echoing in my head. I touched the palm of my hand and sighed . People used to believe stories that one could find out his future just by looking at the ''life lines'' on his hands. I just thought they were just silly . 

Now that I knew what actually caught my attention about the leaf I did not want to bring any other memories of the past I hated. The reality I used to live in but forgot. What was really the reason I hated it for ? I do not remember.

Like that person said once i open my eyes and see what is around me , everything could be totally different from before.

Snow...

...just snow.... nothing less ... nothing more..

except a girl.

A little girl with a cute blue bow on her black shoulder-length hair.

"Want to play with me Ms?'' the girl asked looking at me and holding a few snowballs behind her back while smiling innocently.
"I would love to but I think your friends are waiting for you.'' I answered kneeling slightly to be on the same eye level.
"My friends ? I have only two and they are playing together without me '' the child pouted and crossed her arms. 
''I'm sure they want you to join them. But before you go promise me something...''
The little girl looked curiously at me and nodded. Though I had a feeling she wouldn't understand much of it I knew it would be handy in a few years and it could have really changed everything if i had done it years ago.
'' Don't ever stop believing in yourself because of what happens around you or what others say. Never forget the child in you like i did.'' i couldn't help not to hug the child leaving it slightly confused before walking away.
The snow storm was getting stronger but i still made it to the tree again.
"If that was my past then this should be my present... I think I've been stuck here for too long and it's time for me to fix what I've been breaking myself for years '' I pulled the last leaf off the tree and smiled, letting a small tear slide down as the snowflakes kept kissing my cold cheeks and reminding me what feeling something was like . 

Running , soon I had reached a big house covered with snow. I brushed off the snow from the window and peeked to see inside. There was this small fireplace and a tall familiar figure. My heartbeat became faster the moment my eyes met his even though i was on the other side of the window, the cold and quiet one. I knocked on the door and waited for the person to open it.

With that door a new chapter of my life would be opened. The chapter of my future.
A boy two years older than me was now looking at me in disbelief.
I was trying to read his mind because I really did know him like the palm of my hand but the truth was that i was afraid to find out what was hiding behind those hazel eyes.
"Chanyeol...''

A cold winter day and there we were two young souls just standing in front of a door with a few Christmas lights around them.
''I have one and only question. Can I stay with you?'' I said after gaining enough courage to finally say something.

''I have one too.'' Chanyeol smiled and took a snowflake off my cheek. His hand was as warm as I imagined but then again I was as cold as ice. The ice princess you could say. Doesn't the cold seem scary to everyone ...wouldn't he run away as if he got burned by my cold and broken heart. My hands were shaking but not from the weather or the fact that I would be probably sick by tomorrow ...no...it was because of my worse fear.

'' Can you never leave ? '' he smirked and took my hands, pulling me inside '' Come on let's get you something hot to drink. I don't want you to get sick we have a lot of things to do tomorrow.....'' 

That house was really warm and Christmasy. I could see all kinds of decorations and a big Christmas tree. I went to see the tree from up-close.

'' I haven't had a Christmas tree at home for years...nor any decoration .'' All my life i loved art and all the colors attracted me but the last few years my life lacked of them. Every day was rather grey until that one. ''I missed it..''

''And I missed you. Now you are home.'' He came out of a room carrying a blanket and hugged me with it. '' Look.'' Chanyeol pointed at a small tree that looked young and had a lot of leaves. '' I found it outside. It was a part of a big old tree that was almost dead but i managed to save it and now I guess it has a chance for a new life. Don't you think ?''
It looked exactly the same as the tree of life. The tree of my life. This really was a new beginning.
People do say for a reason that to achieve happiness we have to be in peace with ourselves. We have to accept our past and live in the present to achieve our future.
   I was a happy child 
                                  ............................ I am happy
                                                                     .......................I will be happy in the future