Dongwoo pants heavily as he arrived at the hospital. He asks the receptionist

“lee howon. Where is he?”

“room 243. But sir—“

he doesn’t wait for another words and rushes to the room

and as soon as he the opens the door, he’s just on time

or maybe late

because howon is physically there, but he stayed still and pale and not moving a finger. Dongwoo grabs his hand, tears streaming down his cheeks “hey, wake up. You’re still there, right? Don’t be like this. I’m here now so wake up” “please” he sobs.

Just then, a doctor came in and pats his shoulder “Mr Jang?”

Dongwoo just nods and still sobbing

“here, he said it’s for you” he gives him an envelope then excuses himself

He opened it slowly and there’s some small papers that scribbled

Dongwoo-hyung,

Where are you? It’s been a week since you visited me

Come soon, I missed you

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Dongwoo-hyung,

Please come, you know i hate it to do the theraphy alone

I can’t do this without you, hyung

I need you

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Dongwoo-hyung,

It’s my birthday and you still didn’t come?

Are you really that really busy?

Please, hyung.

I just want you to be here, nothing more

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Dongwoo-hyung

The nurses always said you’ll never come

But i know it’s nonsense

You’ll come, right?

I’ll just wait until you have time and visited me

I believe you

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Dongwoo-hyung

Happy birthday

I hope we can meet soon

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Dongwoo-hyung

There’s no much time left, what should i do

What if i can’t meet you anymore?

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Dongwoo-hyung

Maybe this is the last time i wrote this for you

I just wanna say

Thankyou

Thankyou for letting me love

Thankyou for showing me love

Thankyou for being my only one.

Even though it’s not sweet until the end,

at least you’ve onced there for me.

Live happily, I wished you the best

Thankyou for everything

I love you

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“i’m sorry, howon. I’m so sorry” Dongwoo cired and cried until it’s hard to breath.

If only he got time for howon, if only he understanded him, if only he’s not selfish. Dongwoo wants to fixed everything, but it’s just now too late. Because howon is gone, he’s not there anymore.

He caresses his cheeks and kissed his lips for the last time

“i love you”

 

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a/n

i'm sorry--- /ugly sobs/T_T