Have you ever felt like you want to turn back the time? Not to win yesterday’s lottery and be a billionaire today, not to re-take the exam you took last week so you’d be number one in class, not for your own selfish reason, but instead, for a pure and sincere one.

                The last time I walked these hallways felt like ages ago. I forgot what it was like in here. I forgot what it was like to face the world… to face the world alone. I forgot what it was like to be all by myself. But now I remember. And I don’t know how I’m gonna handle things now, but one way or another I have to keep moving. I’m not sure where I’m going but somehow, it just feels like this is the right way.

                Eunjung would’ve known what to do. If he was here, I wouldn’t even be thinking right now. If he was here, I wouldn’t have to feel so alone. We would’ve walked the hallways together, fooling around with each other.

                I hated it when he used to play with my hair and when he steals my things and have me running after him before he gives it back. I hated his evil laugh every time he succeeds to pull up a prank on me. But now the thought of him makes me smile. Because every time he comes into my mind, it all comes back to me, how happy I was when I was with him.

                But at the same time, all the pain comes back too.

                For the last few years of my life I’ve spent my days with the only person I considered my friend. It took me a long, long time before I got used to his playful, irritating, annoyingly cute actions towards me. I wasn’t really that kind of person. I’m still not, but he changed something in me. For these last few years, I’ve spent pretty much all my time with my best friend, Ham Eunjung.

               He was a new kid in school back then, and me… I don’t really remember. I remember nothing before I met Eunjung. It feels like, the moment he came into my life was the only moment I started living in the world, the only moment that I started keeping memories.

                I remember asking him why he kept following me around when I don’t even know him. And all he kept saying is that I’m so beautiful, that I’m the prettiest girl he’s ever seen in his life. He said he’d protect me from anything, and won’t let any being touch me. He said he’d marry me.

                He didn’t even know what my name was, but he said those words to me. I thought he was crazy, of course. And maybe he was… maybe he was that crazy about me. And right now, I don’t think it was a bad thing. Because now, like the way he was for me, I’m crazy for him too. Crazy… to the point that I’ll do anything just to have him back here by my side.

                I fell in love with him. I fell for him, and he never got the chance to know. He confessed to me countless of times. But all I gave him was laughter. I said he doesn’t have a chance on me. I said he wasn’t my type. I said I’d rather date a Shrek than to make vows with him. I told him… to just stop dreaming.

                He used to call me every night, before he sleeps just to say sweet dreams. And when we fight, he’d call me all night because he didn’t want the day to end with us being mad at each other. Every year, Eunjung used to celebrate the day we met. He said it’s our anniversary. Even though I wasn’t, he kept calling me his girlfriend. I hated him for it. I heard him say how much he loves me every single day. And how come I never got to give him the proper reply?

                How hard was it for me to say those four short words? Would’ve it cost me so much saliva that I had to make him wait for so long? Would’ve it killed me to say it? Why? Why couldn’t I tell him? It was just those simple words, “I Love You Too.” How hard was it to say that?

                Just three weeks ago, we had a big fight. I can’t even remember what we fought about. All I know is that I was so mad at him. That night, I knew he’d call to apologize like he usually did when I’m mad. I didn’t dare to pick up the phone. Three… Eight… Fourteen missed calls and I still wasn’t answering the phone.

                As usual I began to feel guilty, and when the phone rang again, I picked it up. “Jiyeon-ah…”, he said. His voice was faint, very weak. I knew something was wrong. I knew something wasn’t right. I knew he was in pain… physically…

                “Eunjung-ah? What’s wrong? Why do you sound like that?”, asked him with all worries.

                I kept waiting… it took a little while before he answered. And all he could say was “I Love you…”

                Like always, I never gave him a proper reply. Those three words were the last ones I ever heard him say. That same night, they found his body on the street. Eunjung told me that road wasn’t well known. Only a few cars drive there. He said it was a short cut to his house. He walks there every day when he goes home.

                A bunch of drunken kids were joy-riding, according to the police. Eunjung was a hit-and-run victim. But he was able to make several phone calls on his last moments. When they showed me his phone, my heart broke as my name appeared on the call history. Fifteen calls, only one was answered. When he was trying to keep his breath, the person he thought of calling was me.

                He was calling not to apologize. He called me because he wanted to tell me that he loves me. Even on the last minutes of his life, his love to me was all that mattered to him. Why couldn’t I answer his first call? Maybe if I did, I might have even saved his life. Why couldn’t I tell him that I loved him too? Why even that small thing, I still couldn’t do for him?

                On his funeral, everybody was trying to hold me back. I was going crazy. I kept yelling at his coffin, over and over. “I love you! I love you! I love you! I’m so sorry! I love you Ham Eunjung!”, I kept saying it, and I didn’t want to stop. I kept yelling even to the sky. But he just couldn’t hear me anymore. No matter how much I try he just couldn’t hear me.

                Have you ever felt like you want to turn back the time? Me? Yes. I want to turn back time not to win yesterday’s lottery and be a billionaire today, not to re-take the exam I took last week so I’d be number one in class, not for my own selfish reason, but instead, for a pure and sincere one.

                I just want to tell him that I love him too. I just want to answer that fifteenth call he made and when I hear him say his feeling for me, I want to let him know mine. I didn’t know things would turn out like the way it is now. I didn’t know that was the last time I’d hear his voice. Because I didn’t know that the world was that cruel. But now you do.

                I know I won’t be able to go back in time. I know, no matter what I do, I can’t bring Eunjung back. But if you ever be on that situation where I’ve been, please don’t make my mistake. It’s just those simple words of sincere reply. How hard can it be to say it?

                Wherever my love maybe, if he hears me right now, I want him to know how much love him. So don’t waste your opportunity that I wish I still have.

A/N: This was requested by a friend of mine in Diadem Forums, @IHeartT_ara.. My readers there seemed to like it.. so I thought maybe you guys would love it too.. I hope you enjoyed it and don't forget to leave your comments and tell me what you think.. ;)