Today we filmed the third ep of Showtime. Ended up shopping alone again but it was okay. I needed alone time today, especially after last night when Chanyeol randomly told the group he was Kai's fanboy. Everyone laughed about it but I wasn't really on the inside... Besides it was Chanyeol's birthday coming up so I forgive him kekeke just kidding. It's okay I know he's just joking (I really hope so).

Ah but, Chanyeol also said he would even tell our fans about it in today's ep which I heard he ended up doing.

Speaking of Chanyeol, I felt really bad for him. They didn't have to with the presents like that. I hope he's okay.

Never mind. I just heard Kai went to comfort him. What are they doing so late at night... Well, I don't care. Dumb dumb pabo giraffe Chanyeol and Kim Freaking Jongin they can do whatever the hell they want.

....Is it because I'm short. Mianhe, there's.... not much I can do about that.

BUT I CAN'T BELIEVE CHANYEOL GOT KAI A PRESENT. IT'S NOT FAIR. I SHOULD'VE GOT HIM A PRESENT. CHANYEOL DIDN'T GIVE ABOUT KAI BEFORE WTF HAPPENED.

Oh but today, I got to dress Kai so thanks Chanyeol for buying him that scarf but... did Kai even notice I put it on him... It didn't seem like he noticed. His hat fell off too and I even caught it and put it back on... did he notice that too?

But... He seemed kind of annoyed when the hat was back on because he was about to put on a different hat. I should... apologise to him later but, what if he feels burdensome...

I don't... know what to do anymore.

Love Kyungsoo.