It started with the troubled glances when he couldn’t hit his high notes like he usually could during vocal practice. It slowly escalated into the members not letting him speak for more than an hour and Himchan constantly making tea and other inedible remedies for him to consume every hour of the day. The worst had to be Junhong & Jongup’s constant worried looks. They were constantly looking at him like he was some terminally ill patient. He couldn’t help but feel guilty for making them worried too. They were so young, they didn’t need such trivial things bothering them. 

His throat had only gotten worse with the preparations for the end-of-year shows. He couldn’t even eat properly nowadays. He always felt like he had something lodged in his throat and he really wanted it gone. He tried to avoid the hospital as much as possible because to be honest with himself, he was terrified of hearing the diagnosis. He really didn’t need to hear he had some weird condition. He was stressed enough with their comeback preparations and he really didn’t want to add his throat to the list of problems he was carrying.