“ji....... it’s the first time you were in such a broken down state because of a girl , ji , i can tell she’s your true love , am i guessing it right?” top came closer to him and give him a glass of mineral water try to soothe him down ,

“no you’re wrong , she deserve better than a trash like me” jiyong spoke with a tears on his cheek

“chaerin babe..... remember when the first time we met? Haha...... it was just embarassing , i’m being a really rascal riding my new car with high speed , bump on your BIG exam in a festifal , and it’s almost your turn to be examined ,the judges were on their way to examine your works, but i bump on your tabble and broke all the things on it , thankfully you mad at me and we met it’s just so amazing thanks to you for all the happy moments in my life it’s just you just you, remeber when everytime we wandering around the town in midnight with my cool ride and you will scream your hearts out and we cry to let our heavy feelings go , you said that you can only do that if you were with me, and that time i feel no pain , it feels like i’m finally become a usefull thing not just a crap not just a useless man just like what my parents say , it’s just you ,i’m sorry for the fact that i did no good,i’m sorry for the wrong thing that i’ve done, i’m sorry for all the things that i did not see, i know it from the start that you’re the best thing in my world but now i loose that best thing, guess that my life will become as messy as it used to be before i met you . Chaeriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnn please i need you” he now feeling useless all over again all he want to do is just die , and he know that she is now gone and will never coming back and that fact is killing him

“hyung, drive me home, and burn this fckin hell , i won’t remember this painfull moment ever again”

“but ji....” “no but hyung, just burn this down, now let’s go”

‘it’s weird he is weird i know him like forever but never before he gone rambling about his feeling like that, he usually expresing his eeling by doing something bad, i’m glad that he has change little by little but without chaerin......... i’m not that sure’

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i find myself laying on my bed in our house no not anymore... it’s now only mine ... i woke up frantically just to check up on her stuff .... i’m afraid she’s really leaving me, i don’t find my head hurt... that’s a good moring up till now because i know that i’m not get drunk last night , then suddenly a smile crept up my face “chae will like it” and when i see no rilakkuma bear in this room my tears came out to rplace those smile in my face then i realize the fight yesterday it was all disaster... i open chae’s wardobe abruptly and find only a letter , all her fashion collection is nowhere in sight i pick up the letter and read it painfully , ‘i’m taking all my stuff, bye’ my eyes blink several times just to make sure whether if this true or not but as much as i re-read those simple five word my heart just so hurtfull

“bye”

“bye”

“bye”

"bye”

“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO” i scream as loud as i can , wait... no that coudn’t be........

Our couple leather jacket , our couple bracelet that we bought from a granny in manhattan , our couple sneakers , our couple HBA, our couple cap ....... no freaking way no hell way no!! Why does she need to bring all her stuff out but this all ....... no way!!! I can’t believe they are still here, she didn’t care about our stuff anymore, I look up for my phone , i remember that i put it on my pocket but it’s not there then i look at the coffeetable and it’s laying there ... i try to find her contact but it was gone all the way..... i notice a note beside me

“ji ..” i read it loudly ... what the heck even this ‘ji’ she write is hurting me

“i erase all our photo in all your gadget,and my number too, don’t contact me i need my time alone”  NO! Chaeriiiiiiin you’re not sorrryyyyyyyy!!! god enough that’s enough no more painfull day please no more!!!!!! Now i’m just like a mad man living on his own and soon i think i need to burn this home too , too much sweet moment to remember........ but i need to remember those if i want a happiness......

“chaeriiiiin please come back!!!!!!” i’m so weak i collasped to the floor and cry again, she is crazy to make me gone mad.

                         -3 days later  -

“chaerin please focus! You burn our assignment ohgawdd the egg is the main point goshhh faith! What’s wrong with you damnit!??” molly looks so mad , chaerin is so sorry ,she don’t know why she just can’t focus on anything  yesterday she is not focusing on the way and she knock the asphalt , looks, there’s a cut in her knee , oh god why! She her temple

“mollyy i’m so so so so sorry , i... i will fix our assignment , i promise” she plead and looks like molly totally mad at her

“no! I will do OUR assignment myself , you’re just not in the mood to do anything yet, you need to calming yourself down , i’ll let you rest for a while , just hand me our assignment, i’ll do it myself this time, don’t mind me, you go rest now, bye i love you!” and molly shoo her away from her kitchen

“so ... now i... i get kicked out from team?” chaerin’s voice trembling because she really don’t know what to do if molly dump her

“no sweetheart , you’re still with me , no worries i can do it alone, now go home i know you’re sick right? You look terribly pale, or should i call you a cab , i’ll take care of your car, i don’t think you can drive” moly always be a talkactive girl everywhere everytime, she sigh and hug her

“thanks sweetheart, bye”she let go of her and say goodbye ,  give molly the car key and chaerin walk alone try to find a cab , she had jiyong filling her empty head it’s jiyong jiyong and jiyong , she just want to explode ,it’s always him who fetch her whenever she need him , it’s always him to soothe her down but this time he isn’t there everytime she need him , even he’s the one who makes her like this, it’s impossible when someone got you mad and that person is the one who soothe you down. It’s just ridiculous , she sighed and try to call for a cab

“waiting for someone miss?” a deep husky voice filling her ear

“oppa!!” chaerin eyes went wide

“can i get a ride home? She ask fankly , the guy just nodded and open up the door for her ,

“i was try to call a cab when you find me” she said all of sudden

“ah it must be fate chae , well...... why do you look so messy” the guy ask with concern in his eyes

“top oppa...... i... i’m... i don’t know things just didn’t go right it goes no easy” she sigh and close her eyes he just nodded and told her to calm down , why is everyone told her to calm down!

“ah i think i should just call jiyong oppa and ask him for a wild race to downtown it’s always helping me out of trouble” she open her bag and find her phone she just about to call her jiyong oppa when top stop her skeptically “n...no ... chae .... you might driving him even crazier if you call.......”

“oh god! I foget ! we’ve broken up , thanks top oppa..... i thought that he’s still here.....” she once again close her eyes trying so hard not to cry in front of his ex’s bestfriend

“don’t tell jiyong about this” she said sobbing

“oh come on chae...... you two still love each other” top said optimiistically

“no! I mean yeah but....... no oppa no we couldn’t .... i am punishing him now, let’s just see it i want him to feel the same way as i am , i just want make him realize and change... “

“he destroy his club and bar he also make you guys’s home as messy as an abandoned house just in three days , he is such a fool”

“let him be, but oppa.... i... i think i couldn’t live a normal life without him , what to do???”

“come back to him then”

                                                                                           ~~~~~

Now it’s been a month since i dump him, i’m so alone eventhough i know my friend is always here whenever i need them but still it’s not the same without ji... oh no don’t mention it chae don’t! You’re making this so hard , you will never ever moving on with your life if you keep on thinking that guy every fkn day that’s no good , well the hardest thing living a life with no him is i can’t be as crazy as i am with him , man he is so insane that driving me real crazy and dumb , he is the one i need with all my trouble , but i had no him no more and i don’t know whether if i like it or not , i know that it’s not easy but this is the fact it’s been a month but i still couldn’t get over him dang it! Even right now i was looking straight at our photo together , i miss you...

*RINGRINGRINGRING*

Who’s that could be? Could it be jiyong oppa?

“ TOP oppa is calling”

Oh no it’s his besties

“halo”i said lazyly

“CHAE! HELP! HELP! HELP!” it seems that he was running around chasing a mad rat , he is a bit panting i could tell by his breathe

“what’s up?”

“ji...” “woo woo woo stop it right there i had nothing to do wit—“

“it’s critical really!!!!” he cut me off before i could finish my line

“okay talk to me later when you calming down oppa” i rolled my eyes i hate to talk on the phone in this situation

“WAIT! I now cooling down , just listen first........” he scream over the phone it almost make me shut the phone off

I humming and then he start to explain

“jiyong , he try to be his old-self,you know how annoying it is! And now he bullying a friend real hard , he just .... it’s like he try to kill him , and it could kill jiyong himself too ....