Title : With All My Heart

Author : randomcassie
Characters : Jung Yunho, Kim Jaejoong, Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu, Shim Changmin
Pairings : YunJae [slight]
Length : One-Shot
Genre : Mostly brotherhood, a bit bittersweet, a slight
Rating : G

Spanish Version [translated by Najaeri] : http://yunjaeholiccl.wordpress.com/2013/12/29/with-all-my-heart/

DISCLAIMER : There’s no way that I would own the characters. Because if I do, I’d definitely not going to let them splitted years ago. The plots are fully mine... and the slight OC [Minhyo] as well.

WARNING : Might be unclear, boring, and too long. In short, not good at all.

This fanfiction is dedicated for my one and only FIVE stars;
Kim Jaejoong, Jung Yunho, Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu, and also Shim Changmin.

Please be reminded that this is purely a FICTION, which means that nothing was real here. Well, some events were taken from the real occurrences, but the truth behind those is still remained unknown until now.

If you just want to read the fanfiction and not rambling (about me&fic and the words for my stars), please do skip this chapter and go to chapter 2 : With All My Heart [Fanfiction]

I've warned you. ^^

To : Kim Jaejoong. Jung Yunho. Park Yoochun. Kim Junsu. Shim Changmin.

Happy 10th year anniversary, my dear.

Time was surely passed very quickly, as it’s already your tenth anniversary already.

You’ve been through so many things for the past ten years. You’ve been through the unfairness of entertainment industry. You’ve been through the harshness of the so-called fans, haters, antis, and sasaengs. You’ve been through the fights, the different thoughts, and the misunderstandings with each other. Even after everything, you’re still standing on the stage.

There were no words to describe on how thankful I am towards your existence. Even after those hurt you felt inside your heart; even after you shed tears so many times on and off the stage, you’re still willing to cheer your fans up. You always showed your smile, no matter how tired you are. You always said that you’re okay, no matter how painful your bodies and hearts are.

I might not there ten years ago, when you just take the first step towards the industry. I might not there even some years after that, when you were on the peak of your success. And I even not there when you need us the most; when you’re facing the hardest problem.

Disappointed. Sad. Regret.

That was what I thought, when I just knew you. I wish... that I would have known your existence since the start. I wish that I wouldn’t just let it passed by, when someone mentioned your group’s name to me. But, the damage has been done. I couldn’t change the past. It's still the fact, that I started to fall for you just since two years ago. But, I believe that I’ll be able to decide my future; at least, in this field.

I promise that I will stand by your side. Since two years ago, up until now, and (I hope) forever... I will always support you with everything I could. I might be not able to do it directly; just like what the other Cassiopeias did, since we’re living in the different part of the world. But, trust me when I said that my heart will always have you inside. Because you’re the first, and also the last one for me until this day.

With this, I wish for your happiness. You’ve been through everything. You’ve thought about the fans a lot enough. This time, it’s your turn to think over about yourself. Tell me, you’re happy with your life now. Tell me that you don’t feel sad anymore, since it was your choice of paths already. Don’t waste your sacrifice. You’ve sacrificed your closeness and togetherness with the others (at least in front of media). You've suffered a lot. So, please don’t waste it and be happy. If there’s anything that I wanted you to do, then it’s just that one certain thing. Be happy.

For us... No. For your friends, members, family, and mostly... for yourself. Please be happy and show us your best and truthful smile.

I love you, my five stars. Not the way how I love a boyfriend, but I do love you as much; with my own way.

Regards,
randomcassie

Hello, randomcassie here~!

Have you heard the "With All My Heart ~ Kimi Ga Odoru, Natsu" already?
If not, then I’d like to suggest you to hear the song. For me, the song was rather nice and beautiful; sad at the some parts, yet still beautiful. One of the main reason why I used the song was because lately I’m getting addicted as well. Here’s the link : With All My Heart~ Kimi Ga Odoru, Natsu @youtube.

At first, the fanfiction consists of around 3.600 words. (lol) And with all the editing, I’ve managed to reduce it into around 3.100 words. Of course, honestly I wanted to do more editing and so. (It was so long no matter how I see it. ._____.) But well, because I don’t have enough time and I’m not good at writing this, I wasn’t able to do so. I’m sorry~

Another thing is, I’ve changed the order of the With All My Heart lyrics. Nothing really special as the reason, but I wanted to make it flows better somehow (not because of the order of the lyrics). I’m not sure if that’s fine or... *shrugs* I’m sorry for doing that and making it kinda unclear somehow.

One last thing is that I was so busy! Well I got not much works, but I can’t write properly in my office. At 24 until 25 I was outside (staying over with the whole family for a family reunion). I just came back some hours before 26 00:00 KST. I feel ashamed, really. I think that I should spend more time to write at least this special fanfiction... yet I couldn’t. I just spent 3-4 days for this. (and I feel more ashamed because I still have the courage to post it. Lol D:)

But one thing for sure; despite the lack of this fanfiction, it’s still filled with my sincerity and love for them. I’m not sure if you could feel it as well, but at least I was trying for that; with the poster, banner, these words, and... well, everything. Even though I know it’s not that good, but I’m trying to do it with my everything.

I hope you enjoy the fanfiction.
Merry Christmas and Happy 10th year Anniversary for all the Cassiopeia and the stars!