~Yunho~

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I didn't know what to expect. I didn't know if I should be frightened, scared or worried. All I knew that the stuff.. that they were going to tell me.. It was something beyond the human power.. Something more powerful..

Stuff I didn't .. know existed..
Stuff.. that I would probably never believe in..

I looked at them, observing all their reactions, anything that might would give me a sign ..
I shouldn't be nervous.. cause.. in the end, everything that actually matters.. is that.. I'm still here.. My friends.. and of course.. Selina

"Yunho.. First of all.. do you know how.. awful you looked when you.. lost Selina?" Junsu asked

I didn't answer

"You were.. totally.. devastated.. blinded by the love and the regret.. You thought it was your fault" Yoochun continued

I stayed silent. I could remember that very well. It was like someone was giving me, throwing me to the sharks as the memories came back.. giving me flashbacks inside my head

"You see.. You have to think beyond everything now.. Everything that we're able to do and possess.. Cause.. even though it might sound ridiculous to you.. There is something called.. Supernatural in this world.." JaeJoong said softly

I nodded slowly

"You and Selina.. are meant to be together" Changmin said

"I know that.." I said and looked up

Changmin shook his head

"No you don't. In your head, you're meant to be together.. For the rest of your lives.. But according to the higher power, called 'Faith' , you're meant to be together.. several lifetimes.. thousands of years.. even though your body might die here on earth, your soul won't" Yoochun said

I was at the verge of choking. WHAT?!

"Do you understand Hyung? You're basically, Entwined. Your souls are entwined together.. Plaited.. You're like Ying and Yang" Junsu said

"Wow.." I breathed

"Anyways, Selina was given a second chance to be reborn into Yuki's body. She.. came back to earth and had a mission" Junsu said

"A mission?" I asked

THey all nodded

"What mission?" I asked

"She was given 100 days in order to save you.. from committing suicide. And in order to do that, you could only be saved if she was alive. So she just had to make you realize that it's her.." JaeJoong said

My entire body froze. I was at loss

"It was hard at first cause you weren't reachable. You .. kind of shut the world outside and lived in your own world of memories of Selina. I didn't trust her at first either.. Frankly speaking, I hated her.." JaeJoong said

I looked at him

"I hated her cause.. it felt like she was resembling Selina. As if she was.. trying to take Selina's place in our hearts and I wasn't fine with that.. Although the other guys.. were kind of.. friendly to her. Too friendly and that bothered me. Annoyed the heck out of me.." JaeJoong said

"But we started to hang out with her and became really close to her.." Yoochun said

"And so did you" JaeJoong said and looked at me

I remembered that I did spend a few times with her

"It was scary cause slowly I started to see all the resemblances, the signs.. and everything that Selina did.. Yuki did it too.. and sometimes.. I always got a spooky.. awkward feeling that.. something wasn't right.. Like I was missing something" Changmin said

"Eventually I got over the hate towards her as I felt that she kind of knew me better than I thought.. and that scared me.. I started to see the resemblances as well.. and sometimes, if I didn't look at her, I could almost swear that I could feel Selina's presence" JaeJoong said

"No wonder I had strange dreams and was feeling so calm and comfortable around her.." I mumbled

"Dreams?" Yoochun asked

I nodded

"You see.. sometimes.. when she was around me.. she was always making me feel loved.. even though she didn't do anything.. and at night.. I always dreamed about Yuki.. I mean Selina.. but it was Yuki's face.. on Selina's body" I said

"OH MY GOD YUNHO!! YOU SHOULD'VE FIGURED IT OUT THEN!!" Yoochun groaned

I rolled my eyes

"I was blind.. blinded by the hate.. towards myself.." I mumbled

No one said anything

"Anyways.. Slowly everything started to fall on their right place.. and Changmin.. and I figured it out first.." JaeJoong looked at Changmin who was smiling widely

"Hey.. I thought her mission was to make ME realize and not you guys" I said

They all rolled their eyes

"Well .. When you were busy with mourning and such, your eyes weren't quite.. open.. and you didn't see all the signs.. At first we were pretty blind as well but the more she started to resemble Selina, the more we started to realize that there might be a possibility that it was her" JAeJoong said

"But how in the world did you understand? I mean.. this is.. supernatural... stuff like wizards.. and.. movies.. and dramas.. and yeah you get it.." I said

"I read her favourite book.." CHangmin said

"I saw a movie.. and it was quite similar to all the stuff we had been through. The signs.. everything.. Everything just fell on it's right place.."

I couldn't believe my ears..

"We then found out.. and confirmed it by asking her questions that only SELINA knows.. and soon we knew it was her.." Changmin said

"How come you didn't tell me?!" I said furious

They all groaned

"WE COULDN'T !! THERE ARE RULES YOU PABO!!" Yoochun said

I quieten

"I found out by eavesdropping" Junsu smiled proudly

Everyone started to laugh. Including me.. So typical Junsu..

"And I found out by Junsu telling me. We didn't believe it first so we visited a fortuneteller.. And she kind of gave us clues.. and such.. and in the end.. we realized it was her" Yoochun said

I started to feel a bit betrayed. And disappointed. Disappointed cause they didn't tell me.. and also.. disappointed at myself for being so .. busy with mourning and blaming myself..

"But how come you could tell Yoochun and not me?" I asked and looked at Junsu

Junsu sighed

"Her mission was to TELL YOU!! YOU!!" Junsu said

"Okay.. I get it.." I said a bit angry.. not with them but angry with myself

"Don't.. blame yourself.."

"How.. What.. happened then?" I asked

"Well we tried to talk to Selina about her mission but she refused to tell us. We kind of started to investigate, searching on the net, reading books.. everything.. You see.. We were giving her a hard time when we were cold and not so open minded about meeting her.. but she never gave up.." JaeJoong said

"I know.. She's determined.." I mumbled

"She's a fighter.. and that's why she was able to make us realize in the end" Junsu said

"But.. it was hard for her.. she must have been.. so hurt and devastated.." I mumbled

"She was.. she was.. at the verge of giving up several times.. You were the hardest one to approach. You see, she was suppose to get close to you and make you realize first but instead.. we were the ones who realized it before you.." JaeJoong said

I sighed

"And.. then?" I asked

"Everything started to become a lot worse when the time was running out.." Junsu said

"You remember our so called school trip?" Changmin asked

I nodded

"We flew to America in order to talk to a person we found on a fanatic site. That girl had gone through the same thing as Selina.." Yoochun said

"Oh my god.. I can't believe this.. People has actually been through these stuff?" I said

They all nodded

I quieten. Unbelievable..

"You see, we had to help her somehow.. and when we got there, we were lost and didn't know where to begin. Several times we came to a dead end but we never gave up. Or Yoochun didn't.. and in the end we found out the best information.." JaeJoong said

"And then what?" I asked

"You weren't reachable.. and so was Selina. It was impossible to get in touch with you.. and then.. we followed you guys to the Ski resort.. where you..." JaeJoong quieten

No one said anything. They really must think I'm crazy

"Why.. Hyung?" Changmin asked

I looked at them

"Na.. I.. Mol la yo.."

"What do you mean by you don't know?" Junsu asked.. nearly audible

I sighed and took a deep breath

"It felt like.. someone was making em suffer for the death of Selina. That I was the one to blame.. That it was my fault. My head was getting filled with all these.. wounds and the blame.. That I was the one who KILLED her.. and the more I saw .. Yuki.. I mean Selina.. the more I started to think that I've gone crazy.. That someone.. was haunting me.. Cause sometimes it felt like I had seen.. Selina's ghost.. as if she was haunting me.. And I knew that I couldn't live .. That I wasn't meant to live anymore.. That I had to end my life somehow so that it would be equal. A voice inside my head kept telling me that I was the murderer.. and I thought that if I ended my life, I might would escape all this madness.. but never in my life.. I thought..."

I couldn't even finish the sentence

JaeJoong sighed and put a reassuring hand on my shoulder

"It was never your fault.. Just like 'Faith' said.. Something came up.. and prevented you and Selina from being together.." JaeJoong said

"So in the end.. we did manage.. to make you realize that.. Yuki was Selina.. and here we are.. brought back to the day 3 months earlier.. when you and Selina were in that car accident.." Changmin said

I sighed

"I'm stupid.. aren't I?" I mumbled

No one said anything

"I'm really.. selfish.. self centered and blind. Stupid and blind.. Blind Blind Blind" I kept saying

"Ok Ok.. We get the part that you are blind but you're not self centered or selfish" CHangmin said

I looked at them
They all looked at me softly

"You were just hurt.. and was trying to understand that she was gone.." Yoochun said

"But how come you guys didn't.. grieve .. and.." I quieten

"Cause we were busy with trying to stay strong in order to take care of you " Junsu laughed

I couldn't help but laugh as well

"I was that horrible?" I asked

"Horrible is not even close to what you were.. you were wrecked.. Out of your mind.. Horrible is just one of 1000 words" Junsu teased

I threw the pillow at him

"But it makes me happy that you're smiling again.. We've missed that a lot" JaeJoong said

I looked at JaeJoong and smiled at him. I had everything here with me now.. My friends and my Selina.. What could I ask for more?

"It all makes sense now.. I just understand everything now" I smiled

"I don't" Yoochun said

Everyone looked at him

HIs eyes were soon on JaeJoong

"You died Hyung..." Yoochun said

All of us froze as Yoochun said that sentence.

"You risked your life in order to save Yunho. You fell.. all of us saw it.." Yoochun said

I looked at JaeJoong but his face was like a statue. He didn't say anything

The silence was awkward..

"What happened? How were you able.. to come back.. fully.. alive.. and.." Yoochun couldn't even finish the sentence..

JaeJoong sighed

"I can't tell you"