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~JaeJoong~

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"Yunho?"

I knocked on Yunho's door, dressed and ready . Everyone was ready to go but Yunho hasn't even been out of his room for the past few days and today's was already Selina's funeral.

Junsu was staying away from Yunho since he couldn't take it, seeing his Hyung being all messed up. Actually, the same goes for everyone

Ever since he was discharged, he never left the room. Not even once. He never ate.. We tried to talk to him, he never answered.. We put a tray outside his door with food, but it remained untouched.

I guess he was just drinking water from the bathroom of his

"Yunho ah~~"

"Hyung.. is he coming?" Changmin asked while wiping away the tears

I shook my head

"He refuse to open the door" I sighed

"We can't let him miss her funeral.." Yoochun said

Suddenly Junsu came towards us

"Move guys" He sobbed

he took out a key and opened the door

I looked around in the room along with the members and I saw Yunho sitting on his bed, staring at the picture of him and Selina hugging each other when they had went to the amusement park on her birthday a couple of months earlier.

He was wearing the black tuxedo that was sent to him from a Wedding store at the mall, not far away from the car incident

I stepped carefully into his room along with the members

Yunho didn't utter a sound and since he hasn't been eating, He had amazingly lost some weight, as well as his skin has gotten more tired

He was just staring at the picture and after 3 minutes.. We heard him say the first sentence to us ever since he got discharged 5 days ago

"She's.. beautiful.. isn't she?" His voice cracked

The members were sobbing as I tried to control my feelings . I walked towards him and looked at the picture.

Both of them looked happier than ever and the smile of theirs, you could tell that they were happy

"She really is.." I whispered

Yunho sobbed

He stood up and walked towards the picture as he touched it slightly

"I never.. got the chance.. to.. take her to .. the mountains.." He said quietly while wiping away his tears

"Mountains?" Changmin asked

He laughed sadly

"I.. promised her to take her to the ski resort.. since the season is right now.." He mumbled

I looked back at the members who was looking sadly at their Hyung. Seeing Yunho like this was heartbreaking..

"Yunho.. We have to go.. We.."

"You guys go first.. I need to.. stop somewhere.." Yunho said

"But Hyung.. We're.. suppose.." Yoochun tried to persuade but Yunho shook his head

"I have to.. Please.."

The begging voice of his, it was hard to resist. We decided to not persuade him and went outside

"Don't be late.. Yunho.. This.. will be the.. last time.. you get.."

"SHUT UP JAE!"

I shut up as yunho said that. I knew it was hurting him.. but seriously, I can't let him miss to see her one last time..

I shook my head as I went outside. The flowers were already prepared and inside the van. I looked up at the building and started the van

"You.. think he'll come?" Junsu whispered sadly

I sighed

"He has too.. Or else.. he'll regret it.." I mumbled

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~Yunho~

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I looked sadly at the picture as I tried to hold back the tears

I took a hold of the necklace that she had given me for christmas present last year. I held onto it tightly as I closed my eyes

Our couple necklaces...

On the picture, both of us were wearing it..

I kissed the necklace as I grabbed Yoochun's carkeys and went downstairs to find his car.

As I was driving I started to get flashbacks of the accident and I told myself to stop think about it
Her blood.. her last breath.. her.. injuries.. My car

"STOP!!!!!!!!!!"

I stopped the whole car, making the cars around me shout and curse at me but I didn't care. I leaned onto the wheel and started to cry

I needed her to come back.. i need...

Suddenly a knock on the window made me look up and I saw an old woman

I wiped away my tears and opened the door

"Young man. Drive carefully.. You cannot drive like this. It's very dangerous" She said

"Nae~~ Mian hamneeda" I bowed

I closed the door again and hurried to the flowerstore to get the flowers I ordered

The big flower plant, shaped as a heart with two flowers entwined inside of it, made me stare. It certainly looked like the plant that she had given me

I paid for the plant and walked slowly out to the car with the plant in my hands

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~JaeJoong~

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"Where is he?!" I asked the members quietly

The ceremony had already started and there was still no sign of him

"Hyung.. it's almost our turn to.. sing.." Junsu said

I looked around in the hall as the people were crying, wiping away their tears as some of the people were showing a straight face, not showing any emotions at all..

Suddenly our names were introduced and the members stood up and looked around

"Hyung.. We have to go.." Junsu whispered behind me

I looked around, searching for Yunho but there was seriously no sign of him

I walked up slowly to the small stage as I saw the coffin covered with purple, white flowers, roses and lilacs.

I looked at the members and we tried to look over the crowd to see if Yunho was anywhere

"OTooke?" CHangmin asked

I shook my head

"We have to do it without him.." I sighed

Suddenly the doors opened and Yunho entered with a big purple, white heart shaped plant.

Everyone spun around to see who entered and I saw him staring at the coffin as he was walking towards us

He saw our bench and put down the plant as he took a deep breath and looked at us

No one said anything and the priest handed him a mic
Slowly he walked up to the small stage and took the place right next to Changmin

He didn't look at us and was closing his eyes. He wasn't far away from the tears

The first tunes of the song Proud came out and I started to sing as I kept my gaze locked at Yunho

He managed to sing his part but I could hear that it was hard. During the 2nd Verse, Yoochun couldn't hold it back and was letting all of his tears out and didn't manage to sing
Junsu broke down as well and so did Changmin.

Near the end I closed my eyes and sand the last line as I heard Yunho cry out now

The music faded away as we heard the echoing sound of 'Proud of your love'

As I cried, I walked over to Yunho and hugged him tightly
Changmin, Yoochun and Junsu soon joined us and we were having a group hug as we all were crying.

When the song ended and the priest came back up, He clapped gently on Yunho's shoulders. Seems like everyone knew how much he cherished her.. and loved her

We walked down as Yunho were covering his eyes, hiding his tears

Soon the ceremony came to an end and the pianist was playing the piano sadly as I saw some relatives of Selina carrying her coffin out

We started to follow them carrying our flowers and Yunho, his tears were streaming down but he didn't show a face neither did he talk.

The members were holding their roses as they were wiping their tears away

We eventually came to her graveyard, with the blank white stone, with her initials on it

The coffin was soon put down there and people started to gather around to throw their roses down in the yard before the men were going to bury her

Selina's family was crying and unknowingly my tears were streaming down like an ocean but I didn't sob neither did I talk. The members were just crying as they were holding each other

After 20 minutes, we were told to leave to go to the chamber, to talk about memories of Selina, talk to people that Selina knew.. and to share something in common

I followed the crowd but as we started to walk towards the chamber, further and further away from the graveyard, I noticed that something was wrong.

I looked around in the crowd but I couldn't see Yunho anywhere..

"Hyung.. You're not going inside?" Junsu sobbed

"Where's.. Yunho?"

Junsu looked around and Changmin as well

"I didn't see him earlier at the graveyard" Yoochun coughed as he was crying

"But he walked out.. with us" I whispered

With the members I started to walk back into the church but it was completely quiet

I walked around in the church hall but still, there was no sight of him.

"Where is he?" I whispered

"Let's go to her graveyard" Junsu suggested

We started to walk towards the graveyard and as soon as we rounded the corner, we saw the most heartbreaking picture ever

"Oh my..." Yoochun stuttered as I heard him cry harder

"Hyung..." Junsu started to cry

Changmin didn't say anything but by his sobbing, I could tell that he was crying hard as well

So was I..

My heart was breaking into pieces as I saw the state that Yunho was in

I saw the plant that he had brought and it was put right next to her stone

All four of us, as we were crying hardly, started to walk towards Yunho and just stood a few feet away, about 3 feet.

Yunho was kneeling in front of the stone, resting his head onto his hands as he was sobbing and crying, hitting the grass

The state he was in.. You can't describe it with words

"Sol Mi.. Sol Mi.. Come back to me... Come back to me please.." Yunho cried his heart out

I covered my face and looked up at the sky and then closed my eyes as the tears were running down

"Come back and make my heart whole again.. Please Sol Mi ah~~" Yunho cried

This state was even more worse than the time he saw Selina in the hospital..

He was kneeling, shaking his head while crying

"Sol Mi.. please.. Don't leave me.. We're.. suppose to get married Sol Mi ah~~" Yunho cried

The members behind me couldn't stop crying as they were seeing yunho like this.. Never in our lives have we ever seen Yunho in this state.. never..

"Selina.. Come back to me.. Make me feel alive again.. " Yunho said as I saw him staring at the gravestone, Holding a hard grip around their couple necklace

"Come back and make me feel alive again.. Please.."