Understand?

~Selina~

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JaeJoong.. what's.. wrong with him?

What happened to him? What happened to my best friend?

As i was crying, determined I was going towards the door. i stopped at the livingroom as I saw the guys taking care of each other..

"Yuki..." Junsu said

"yuki! Gwenchana?" Changmin asked

"I'm leaving.. guys.. Uhm..take care of each other.. and Yunho.." I stuttered between my sobs

Yoochun got up and looked at me

"What happened? Did something happened?" Yoochun asked

"I'll.. leave.. now I'll see you in school.." I said and released myself from Yoochun's grip and hurried outside.

I started to run and I didn't stop

I ran and ran.. and didn't stop.

JaeJoong.. being so cold..

Yunho.. he's blaming himself and it's already showing.. the first steps towards suicide..

I can't handle this

I fell on the big green grass lawn and cried my heart out

I'm suppose to SAVE him .. not trying to get close to them, getting hurt by JaeJoong..

I sat up on the lawn and was crying as I tried to heal the pain inside of me.

The time was running and it felt like, it doesn't matter how much effort I was putting into this mission, seems like I will never get the chance to even get near Yunho..

Not even saving him

Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder and a handkerchief in front of me

I followed the arm as I saw Changmin looking at me

"Don't cry Yuki.. Uljima.." He mumbled

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~JaeJoong~

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After I had tucked Yunho in, I closed the door silently and headed towards the livingroom where Changmin and Yoochun were sitting on the couch silently, not even talking to each other

"You're done already?" I said and pointed at the bandage

Junsu sighed and got up

"Did.. you say something to yuki?" Junsu asked

"Mwoh?"

"Did you.. say something.. that made her cry Hyung?" Yoochun asked

I looked at them a bit weird

"What's up with this? HAsn't she left yet?" I said a bit cold and sat down

"She did.. but I wonder why.." Junsu said

"And in such a hurry" Yoochun finished

I sighed and started to take care of my wounds

"Hyung.. what did you do?" Junsu asked annoyed

"I told her to leave.. that's all"

"You told her to leave and she was crying like that?" Yoochun asked

"Koh jid mal" Junsu said

I rolled my eyes

"What about her anyway? Why do you care so much about her?" I said and stood up, facing both of them

"We care about her since she's really a nice girl. Hyung, chincha... What's up with your attitude towards her? Has she done something wrong to you or what? She's been helping us a lot" Junsu said

"I don't like her. Do I need more reasons?"

"Hyung.. you shouldn't be so cold towards her.. She helped us.. and I think you should reconsider and think about her feelings. You've been humiliating her and hurting her with your coldness and words.. at school, after school and now even home.. " Yoochun said

"I don't care what you guys think about her. I just don't want her in our lives"

"What right do you have to even say that?" Junsu asked

His words felt like a knife through the heart

I stared at him

"Hyung, I know that You and Yunho Hyung are still grieving over Selina since you were close to her the most. But.. we have to accept the fact that she's gone.. Just because Yuki are here, lending us a hand , helping us, doesn't mean that she'll take Selina's place.. We have never been close to a girl before except Selina... we kind of isolated ourselves from girls.. since they never felt real to us.." Junsu said

I sighed

"Let me get things straight Junsu. Selina's spot.. can never be REPLACED. That Yuki girl.. is annoying the crap out of me and she's always close to Yunho whenever she has the chance. I don't care if you guys haven't noticed but I won't let a stalker, an impostor , a crazy girl trying to act and be Selina just because she wants one of us.." I said

"Hyung.. calm down" Yoochun said

"NO YOU CALM DOWN!" I shouted frustrated trying to control my breath

"That girl will never take Selina's place and I won't allow her to even try to do anything. I told her earlier exactly what I'm telling you right now. She can't replace Selina. So she should quit while she still has the chance. Yunho's in this state, I won't let him suffer. And I won't definitely let her hurt you guys either.. and if You don't appreciate my protection fine with me. But you should then be careful cause when you least expect it, she'll stab you.."

I walked away from the guys and left the livingroom, heading towards my bedroom

"Hyung.. Come on.." Yoochun said

"Hyung..." Junsu said

I closed the door with a smash and locked it and sat down on the bed

I covered my face in frustration as I saw the picture of me and Selina on the shelf

I walked towards it and looked at it, my grip getting tighter

Yuki really felt like an impostor, standing in Yunho's room, looking at pics of him and Selina. She was at school, Yunho came to her rescue.. and now she was making Kimbap with Junsu and Changmin

What in the world is she up to?

I sighed as I looked at the picture

Selina's one of a kind and no one can replace her.. not in this lifetime at least

"I'll find out what you're up to Yuki... Just wait.."

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~Selina~

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"What.. are you doing here...?" I stuttered as Changmin looked at me

"I ran after you.."

"Wae?"

"Cause.. it's night.. and girls shouldn't be wandering around like this in the middle of the night by themselves.." He smiled and helped me up

He wiped away the tears and pulled me into a hug

"Mianhe~~"

"For.. what?"

"JaeJoong.. He's not like this.. usually.. Selina's death.. was really.. a big.. nightmare.. and I guess it still is.. but he had to stay strong just because of Yunho.. and since he's the oldest among us five.. I guess.. he's just trying to be strong even though it always works.." Changmin said

I wrapped my arms around him slowly and hugged him back as my muscles started to relax and I felt like I was finally feeling safe.. someone to lean on..

I started to cry because I was relieved.. I wasn't alone anymore and there was finally someone by my side..

"Mianhe~~. Please don't cry anymore.." Changmin pleaded and hugged me tightly

I hugged him back and shook my head at the same time

"I'm not crying because of JaeJoong.. I'm crying because finally.. someone's by my side"