A Sense of Loss

Description

"It is in a small cafe in Seoul, South Korea, that Seo Joohyun sees them together."

Foreword

This is a brief one-shot I wrote out of the blue one day after experiencing a bit of heartache of my own. Well, maybe the word "heartache" is a bit of an exaggeration. I guess I let myself believe that something was there when it really wasn't. That, and I totally messed up my chances with a certain someone I was interested in. So I guess this heartache (if you can call it that) is self-inflicted.

Anyway, these feelings and the fact that I was watching some random Yongseo vids on YouTube led to this. Fair warning: this is a bittersweet story, with a less than optimistic ending. I also wanted to portray a more realistic take on things (although my goguma heart still wishes they were happily seeing each other on the downlow and are secretly in love and will one day get married and have many cute little goguma babies and they will own a two story white house with a yellow couch in the living room where Yonghwa and Seohyun will teach their little goguma babies how to play guitar and...).

Note also that this is far from my best work - I pretty much banged this out in a couple of hours and didn't really give it the same attention/revision that I gave my other fic. I just wanted to work out some of my feelings via the writing (writing is therapy for me!) and some of the kind comments on my other fic wanted to see more from me, so I decided to post it.

There likely won't be any sort of follow-up to this - I wrote it really just to work out some of the feelings I was feeling at the time. If you'd like a happier ending for our favorite couple (shameless plug warning), go read my other fic. :)

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unfeignedfaith #1
Chapter 1: Hell... This was so painful to read but so good at the same time! Keep your yongseo stories coming, please!
unfeignedfaith #2
Chapter 1: Reading this again for the nth time. I believe there is another word equally just as sad as that word, if not sadder: "almost". Close but not close enough.
unfeignedfaith #3
Chapter 1: Oh yeah. Just my kind of genre that I'll never get sick of reading. This is so beautiful no matter how heart-breaking it is for Seohyunie. It is quite refreshing to read about her being the one who's regretting instead of the other way around. I've been searching for stories like this where it's the girl looking forlorn and regretful. It gets a bit too cliché when it's always the boy in this heartbroken role. Job well done!
Iceahri #4
Chapter 1: I LIKED YOUR STORY SO MUCH.
(I really like angst.)
Great structure and flow. Please write more. ^^
cnsdGirl #5
Chapter 1: I want to comment something wonderful. But, nothing come out. It just that, MAYBE I already had this kind of experience but just a little different.

And for your case, authornim. It's okay. There are many men in this world. If this make you mad, please don't. I just want to comfort you. As a friend. Cyber-friend. Can we call that? :) Also..we, girls, know how is it feel. I know this is easy for me to say, but, let's move on. :) Maybe there is someone better for us? ^^

Authornim, cheer up!! :D
keuraewolf
#6
Chapter 1: Aww this is heartbreaking~ :( but at least it's realistic. We couldn't have happy endings all the time right? If it's happy all the time,it's not a real world then. *smiles*

I've experienced that self-inflicted heartache before too and i totally know how you feel, author-nim. And that person now has someone special already. *bitter smile*
Sometimes when i think back,i do feel regret of taking that action but i think maybe it's already destined that we are not meant to be. And it's all in the past now. Maybe i will meet someone who is wayy better than that person later, who knows. *smiles*

So cheer up author-nim! ^^ There are still tons of fishes in the water. If you know what i mean. :)
fatenism #7
Chapter 1: aiiihhh, i've been warned but i read it anyway. How i hope that's not what happened to our YongSeo. now, i'm in my lowest moo, but hey thanks for an awesome story. i'll look forward to your next story^^
SeiraAiren #8
Chapter 1: Cheerup Authornim. :( A regret... why always to be end of the decission.

Ah.. mowla.. I hope you can suffer this! and hyun fightinggg!! ><
tartytorts
#9
Chapter 1: :( continue this and end hyun's misery :( and cheer up authornim ^^* after every hurricane comes a rainbow :)