I'm...I'm back... hello! it's been a while...for me to write something. pfft. pardon me

 

please enjoy^^

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“Morning, sweety” you touch my cheek—both of it, then you kiss my lips slowly and passionate. As always

 

“Hello, baby. Did you sleep well?” I returned her sweet attention by kissing back all over her face

 

“Ey, you’ll ruin up my make up, tiger”

 

“You already dress up? Where are you going, anyway?”

 

“I’m not going anywhere. Last night someone told me to go out today so, I’m already dress up—at least” you rolled up your eyes but then give that smirk to me

 

“Oh, right. I told you to go somewhere last night”

 

“Yup”

 

“Babe, it’s still 6 in the morning”

 

“Why not? I love morning. And I mean I love seeing you in the morning, waking up. Shirtless”

 

“How if I go down there? like, right now?” I got you. I learnt fast, right?

 

“Make me”

 

I start to get up and kiss you in the lips. Hungrily

 

 

 

You make that y moan which cause to

 

 

 

. I wish that you didn’t get up that early and already wear those shirt

 

 

 

Wait, why did you stop?

 

 

 

Why did you take a step back?

 

 

 

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I woke up. It was 6 in the morning, yet I feel lonely. The morning is no longer beautiful as usual. The sun is covered by many clouds. The room is getting dark. The bathroom seems empty—I heard nobody humming a song like always. And the bed feels cold, I mean really cold

 

I turn on the radio, seeking something that I could interest in it. But I heard a song. A song that somehow I supposed to like, but at the same time, it’s digging up the memories that I should keep in the past.

 

 

Yeah, you already in the past. It no longer in present nor in future

 

 

 

There is no ‘us’ anymore, it’s only ‘you’ and ‘me’ now

 

 

 

There is no longer happiness in my life, because I ruined it by myself, by my pride, my ego, and my selfish way

 

 

 

How I wish to turn back the time and treat you well

 

 

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“Jongkook hyung?”

 

“Oy, Gary ah”

 

“Hyung, what are you doing here? You aren’t try to get drunk again, right? Huh, hyung?”

 

“Aish, do you think someone will throw themselves all over again and again?”

 

“Well, if the person itself is smart enough.. I..”

 

“Oh? You think I am that stupid? Come here!”

 

“Yes! I mean, no! Hyung, I came with peace!”

 

“So, what do you mean by that, huh?”

 

“Hyung.. you better not to turn around”

 

“What?”

 

And with my eyes, I saw her. I saw her in the corner of the bar, sitting alone without any friend. She put down her head above her hands. She looks desperate. Should I come over and tell her that everything is okay? Wait, do I know what cause her like that till I can make sure that everything she had done is okay?--

 

Like, really?

 

Who am I to her now?

 

I might cause her to become like that. Like what did I see just now, it’s not herself who I knew these years. It’s her reflection of what I did in the past, yeah, I’m such an idiot, a beast who doesn’t know how to react when a haunter already divest it prey to the forest back. I feel bad

 

“Hyung? Are you okay? You aren’t gonna try to coax her anymore?”

 

“Coax? When it caused by yourself, you still wanna coax her? Don’t you feel bad towards her if you’re the reason of her condition right now?”

 

“At least, I feel wrong. And I’ll try my best to bring back the old her. To the joyful of her life”

 

“You seem understand this situation, have you experience it before?”

 

“Maybe? I don’t know. I’m too busy enjoying my life”

 

“You kidding me”

 

“Hyung, you only live once. Why make it hard?”

 

 

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* A year later *

 

“Hyung! Naya”

 

“Kookjong ah, can you make it fast? The party is about to start, kiddo”

 

“Arraso, hyung. I’m on my way to the Hall”

 

“Ahnyang is not that far from the building, is it?”

 

“I’m not coming from my house, I come from Seoul”

 

“What? Hurting yourself at the gym again, huh?”

 

“Aish ahjussi, is that the only thing you can assume to me?”

 

“Yes, apart of knowing each other for past 10 years, ofcourse”

 

“Look, I already enter the gateway. Could you wait me in the lobby by any chance?”

 

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“Jaesuk oppa! What are you doing here? Should you be on the stage?”

 

“Ah yes, if that little brat come on time, I might be on stage right now”

 

“Nugu?”

 

“That nagging-muscle boy!”

 

“Ah.. I see. How is he, oppa? It’s been a year already eh? Hahahaha”

 

“You two.. didn’t contact each other all this time?”

 

“We agreed to not to do that”

 

‘Aish Jongkook ah, you lied to this hyung..what if they meet inside? Or worst…’

 

“Jaesuk hyung! Miahananda. The traffic is—bad. As always”

 

“Oppa? How are you? You look..different”

 

“I’m.. I’m fine. How about you? You’re so pretty tonight”

 

“I’m fine, too. Thanks. So? All these year I’m not that pretty?”

 

“Ahahaha I didn’t mean that”

 

“Can you two talking inside the Hall? I’m pretty important here, you know, huh, Jongkookie?”

 

“Ah, yes, hyung. Thank you for waiting me outside..with this beautiful lady”

 

“Ayy”

 

“I’m joking!”

 

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I don’t know what to say, you look so perfect, so beautiful. I can’t stop looking at you, I can’t stop talking to you, tonight

 

I remember that you love party. You love dancing the most

 

You said that no matter how bad your dancing skill, the moment was just romantic to felt

 

Did.. did you felt it now? that romantic scene?

 

 

“Okay! Now our Kim Jongkook ssi will sing a song to all of you, to everyone who attend this party, thank you for your presence! It was a pleasure to be your emcee tonight!”

 

“Cha, our Kim Jongkook, what will you sing, tonight?”

 

“A song that remind me of someone, called ‘When I Was Your Man’ by Bruno Mars”

 

“The title seem sad, eh?”

 

“Try to listen it first”

 

 

 

Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now

Our song on the radio but it don’t sound the same

When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down

‘Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

 

It all just sounds like oooh..

To young to dumb to realize

 

That I should have bought you flower

And held your hands

Should have give you all my hours

When I had the chance

 

Take you to every party

Cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby’s dancing

But she’s dancing with another man

 

My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways

Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life

Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ooh

And it haunts me every time I close my eyes

 

It all just sounds like oooh..

To young to dumb to realize

 

That I should have bought you flower

And held your hands

Should have give you all my hours

When I had a chance

 

Take you to every party

Cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby’s dancing

But dancing with another man

 

Although it hurts

I’ll be the first to say I was wrong

Oh, I know I’m probably much to late

To try and apologize for my mistakes

But I just want you to now

 

I hope he buy you flowers

I hope he holds your hands

Give you all his hours

When he has the chance

Take you to every party

Cause I remember how much you love to dance

 

Do all the things I should have done

When I was your man

Do all the things I should have done

When I was your man

 

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I let you guys wander who is 'she' :) it can be someone who you wish to be pair with the tiger, so I'm not writing her name^^ oh,

 

I'm sure you know who is the emcee kkk~

 

sorry for missing for month(?) I'll try to update the other one^^

 

please leave a comment^^ and I take some request, too? hohoho