I've been through many controversies in the past but the latest really made my day turned into night.As a child star, I grew up under netizens miscroscopic eyes .Every actions and every words that came out from me were being judged.Controversies.Gossips.Rumors.Scandals.I've tasted all.Some made me cry, others made me laughed but most made me rolled my eyes to death.

Absurd.Irrational.Ridiculous.Nonsesical.Surreal.Those were that best descriptions of my latest controversy.A controversy involving me and Choiza-Oppa.I've known Choiza Oppa for years,there hasnt been an article written about our friendship and my co-artists barely knew that we had a close dongsaeng-oppa relationship just like with Heechul Oppa and other male artists.Last week, I received a text message from him,inviting me to go out and have a drink just like we used to do in the past.I've been very busy with Pink Tape promotional tour over the last months and going out with friends would be barely impossible once my movie Pirates started filming next week.Feeling excited, I said "Yes" to him.Who would have thought that a simple get together will turn out to be a big scandal the following day.Netizens pointed out the holding hands while walking thing.It may seems malicious to some but for me and for everybody who knew me as a sweet dongsaeng, the gesture meant nothing.

As much as I want to laugh or rolled my eyes to death,tears keeps falling in my eyes.Because the scandal has a catch---HIM.

HIM.The handsome Oppa who holds my heart without HIM knowing.HIM.The nicest Shinee member I have ever known who brings smile on my face.HIM.The sweetest man who's always been there for me every hour of every day.

As I waited for HIM, Manager Oppa