Fading into the shadows, it was a common thing for me.

Being the oldest in the group, it's supposed anyway, to let the dongsaengs get the attention, while I stand there watching over them. Like the proud hyung I am.

But then sometimes I feel like I just don't belong here, with this awesome bunch of people with defined jawlines and small faces. 

Sometimes I think I may be an awful person, but really I wish that I could outshine them like they did. I don't know, have the spotlight for once?

Then again the thing about boybands, they always refer to looks, don't they? It would never change.

I look in the mirror, and stare at the bit of flab around my thighs, and look at Luhan's perfect lean ones propped up on the table. It was hopeless.