Jessica quickly punches a number into her phone and waits until she hears the other line pick up.

“fany-ah, I don’t know what to do, I really don’t. I love yuri so much and I don’t think she thinks of me that way. I mean, whenever I see her or think of her, I can’t help it; this smile comes across my face. Sometimes she sees me smiling and smiles back. That’s when my knees turn to Jello and I get butterflies in my stomach. I know you think that she’s so totally adorable and cute, but if you look past that and actually listen to what she has to say, you find a totally different person. sHe’s so caring and considerate and she makes me feel like I don’t deserve her. Well, actually, I don’t deserve her. she’s too perfect, I mean, look at all the girls and boys that fall over for her. I could never be one of those. They are all so pretty and bubbly and… not me. I couldn’t even start to compare myself to them. But whenever I think of her or see her, I can’t help it, I smile.

Now I didn’t tell you this but she called me the other day about homework. I tell you now; I made a complete fool of myself. I’m so embarrassed. I stuttered the whole time, but she was so sweet and just kept talking and making me feel better. she’s so perfect fany-ah, I don’t deserve her, so why do I keep wishing and praying that she will notice me, why?”

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