Flashback

 

Luhan POV:

 

"Hannie!" Sunny noona ran to me, with her cute and bright smile. She hugged me tightly, and said, "I love you~" 

I messed her hair, "I love you too noona." I gave her a long kiss in the lips. It is our last kiss.

 

 

I am fortunate to met you. You were perfect; you were the best of all.

I love you - I love you very much. But I cannot take it anymore.

I told everything to you. Even the smallest details. Why I cannot be with you again.

You, who made me cry.

You, who abandoned me.

It should be me that crying right now. Why you?

I loved you too much, it hurts.

I love you, you love me back. That is?

Our mouths burst with words other than the truth.

But I love you, is a truth.

I pushed away your heart - I am full of mistakes.

I thought just putting an end to this would be better.

I love you, I love you - like a habit, you said that to me. 

But your heart, it said no. 

Your sweet sayings stabbed me.

 

You are crying right now.

Is it fake tears?

It will not help you, really.

I cannot cry, and why should I?

You hurt me, it is you.

 

We spent this night together.

You beg me to not to end this.

Touches, hugs, and kisses won't help.

What I want is your true feelings.

We did it, but I cannot feel your heart.

All your words, hugs, and kisses, I never felt your true feelings.

We did it again, but it was all different.

I felt your heart.

I felt your true feeling.

Your touches, words, hugs, and kisses, it felt new.

But why now?

Why did not you do this long time ago?

But for now, I won't change my mind.

Thank you, Sunny noona.

 

It was a great night. The worst, but the best night ever.

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It has been six months since our break up. 

Are you doing well, Sunny?

It is been such a long time.

 

"Hello?" Her beautiful voice echoed in my ear.

"Noona."

"Lu-Luhan?! Wh-"

"Are you doing well?" I cut her words. She was silent for a few seconds.

"Yes."

"It is been such a long time."

 

You, who was crying because I turned away.

You dear, are you feeling better now?

 

"Yes, I know. Why are you sud-"

"Are you feeling better now?"

"Luhan-ah..."

"Better than six months ago?"

"Hannie..."

"Are you-"

"Stop it!" Her voice tone changed. I know she is crying right now.

 

Those times were really good.

Those days were really exciting.

I would grab the phone,

And stand up all through the white night, missing you.

 

"Stop that tears."

"..." I still can hear her crying.

"Those times were really good right?"

She did not answer.

"I surprised when you picked my call earlier, you usually did not pick my calls those days."

"I thought you were someone else." She said coldly.

 

It seems I am in regret.

What should I do?

Can't I return?

Where are you now?

Can't you come back?

 

"You were expecting someone else?"

She was silent.

"I miss you."

No answer.

"Can't I return?"

I heard her crying again.

"Can't you come back?"

"I can't..." She mumbled, but I heard it. I knew it.

"Are you okay baby?" I heard a guy voice from her.

"I-I'm okay o-oppa..." She said.

 

After that,

I won't love,

I won't remember,

I won't do anything.

I won't leave any lingering affections.

No attachment will be left to you like that.