Tao’s POV

 

I watch him sleep and look at his sleeping face. It looks so calm, so innocent, so loving. Exactly the Kris I fell for. Its dark and its already late but I really can’t go to sleep with all the things bugging me.

 

 

I sighed for the nth time tonight.

I look at the lampshade and the window in our room and see how peaceful it is outside.

 

I mean, we’re peaceful too, right?

 

At least Kris is.

 

 

 

 

Sigh.

I remember what my conversation with Luhan-gege days ago.

 

“Hello?” I picked up the phone which disturbed my wushu practice this afternoon. Kris is working today so I had no one to talk to. Wushu was the third thing I love after Kris & Guccis, but then if I don’t pick this up I’m pretty sure gege would get mad at me.

 

 

And I don’t want that.

 

“Didi….” He breathed.

“Luhan-ge? Is there a problem? What is it?”  I panicked.

 

 

“You and Kris.”

“What is it with us?” I tensed.

Me and Kris hasn't  been on our best condition, I mean.

Maybe things are just uneventful.

But something’s off and I just feel it.

 

“Are the two of you…..”

 

I let him continue

 

“……still together?”

 

“What kind of question is that gege..” I pouted.

“Oh. Of course. It’s just that..”

“What is it gege? You could always tell me. TELL ME PLEASE.”

 

I guess my worry was that visible in my voice so he gave out a few breaths and I know there’s something off. Luhan-gege only does that whenever he’d tell you a bad news.

And I braced myself for it.

 

“Nothing. Ha-haha.” He laughed nervously at the phone.

“Just Say it.” I gritted my teeth. Holding my wushu stick tightly. I guess a bit too tight.

“Umm. ..

 

Didi.

 

Do you know Chanyeol?”

 

Everything came to a stop.

 

 

 

Chanyeol.

It’s been a long time since I’ve heard that name. And I cringed at hearing that name again.

 

 

Of course I know who the Chanyeol is.

 

He is Kris’ first love afterall.

 

 

“What is it with him?” I breathed. Trying to sound calm. If that's possible.

 

 

“Haahha-ha. Oh so you know him..”

 

He’s still not telling me what is it.

“And?..” I replied harshly, my patience is wearing thin with gege’s ministrations.

“He’s back”

 

 

 

 

 

NO.

 

“What do you mean gege?”

“He’s the office’s  new intern. And he’s….

 

 

 

 

Kris…”

 

“Are they back together?”

But I was confident with Kris. I know he won’t leave me that easily.

I mean.

 

That’s what I think.

I trust him with all my---------everything.

 

“I don’t know. That’s why I’m asking you about the two of you…”

“Oh.” Of course, gege is always concerned about me.

 

“Yes. Yes we are still together.” I confidently replied.

“Oh-okay.”

 

 

“Yeol….”

My thoughts have been disturbed by Kris who's mumbling.

 

 

Just come to think of it.

These past few days, he’s been a bit cold.

It’s not that he doesn’t love me anymore.

He still comes home to me, so technically, we’re still together, right?

 

 

But.

It’s always quiet between us.

It’s like our relationship is slowly slipping without me knowing it.

 

 

 

No.

I don’t think I could let go of Kris.

I’m so sure he’s the one for me.

 

 

Before we met, I was just a tough boy who gets what he want using violence. I mean, I know wushu afterall.

 

And I can’t help it that I have eyes that gives an impression that I would to kill anyone who’d block my way.

Sorry not sorry.

 

 

But then Kris came along, and he slowly made his way into my heart.

 

It’s a pretty long story how we got together. But slowly, I discovered myself changing when I'm with him.

Now, I use my aegyo to get him do what I want.

 

Or in most cases,  buy me a new Gucci bag.

 

 

I smiled at this thought.

 

 

Because happy moments with him came flooding and my heart was thrilled with all of it. It’s been three years since we got together. A lot people were surprised, some got angry, I even received hate messages everyday form girls hitting on Kris when we were just starting. But I don’t care.

I’m his panda.

 

I'm his.

 

Up until now, we are still together. We’re pretty strong.

 

Atleast that's what I think.

 

Yet I just know that we are meant for each other.

 

I cant even imagine myself with another person, not Kris.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“….yeol.”

Again, my happy thoughts have been interrupted. It’s the nth time tonight that Kris had said Chanyeol’s name.

I hate it.

 

 

I hate how could Chanyeol just come and steal my Dragon away.

 

 

I know it’s silly, a panda and a dragon.

 

But its one of the cute things about the two of us.

 

One of the things about us that I won’t let go.

 

 

 

 

 

I look at Kris’ sleeping face. He looks so peaceful.

Could it be that he’s dreaming of Chanyeol?

 

 

 

No.

Kris don’t.

I gave you my heart.

I know. I know you were trouble the first time I saw you.

But I knew.

Heck.

I knew you we’re the one.

So please don’t go on and prove me wrong.

 

 

 

 

 

I remember the thousand times and moments you hold me and said that you love me.

The first time you said it on the park and then I tried kicking you and you stopped me with your lips.

 

The way you said it the first time we did it.

 

Whenever you say it each time I wake up and see you staring at me.

 

When we were waiting for a bus, that time I was so pissed because of the Gucci sale we missed.

 

When I broke my ankle when I took a wrong step while practicing my wushu.

 

Everytime you’d come home after your long day from work.

 

Everyday since that incident at the park.

 

You say it almost every moment.

 

 

 

But this morning..

“Kris-ge..” I started just when he was about to leave our apartment.

“Mmm” He was almost finished tying his shoes.

I ran after him and fixed his tie.

“I-I love you.” My lips trembled.

“….”

 

I only heard the door close. Indicating he had already left for work.

 

 

 

It’s been a week now. And he hasn’t told me about Chanyeol being their office’s new intern.

I mean, its no biggie.

 

But for me it is.

 

Especially with the way our relationship is turning out.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I thought you loved me, is that now in the past tense?

 

 

 

 

Tell me Kris.

Tell me, are you tired me?

 

 

Are you tired of me nagging you always?

 

Are you tired of me and my wushu?

 

Are you tired of me and my guccis?

 

Are you tired of  all my ugliness and imperfections?

 

Are you tired of me being your panda?

 

 

 

 

I told you I’m not as strong as I seem to be.

 

Tell me.

 

By this time, the tears I've been holding back for too long are threatening me.

 

 

 

 

Tell me do you still love me?

 

 

Tell me.

 

 

 

By now.

I’m just trying my hard not to let it out.

 

 

I might wake him up.

 

 

Tell me

 

 

 

Why don’t you answer me sweetly these days?

 

 

It'spast three in the morning, I can't let him know.

 

Stop it Tao.

 

Stop being such a weak boy.

 

 

 

 

Tell me.

 

 

 

 

 

Has Chanyeol snuck your heart again?

 

 

 

 

 

Tao, don't.

 

 

 

 

Tell me.

 

 

 

 

Have you had enough of our love?

 

 

Is this what they call a breakdown?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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