No big deal.

I can do this.

I’m just going to ask him out. And it’s going to be okay. We have been friends for a while now. It’s the right move.. Is it though? Should I ask him out? Uhhh.. Yes, yes, I should. But.. What if something goes wrong? Oh god, what if I make a total fool of myself.. What if I sweat? He’ll probably think I’m weird.. I should just turn back now and forget that this was ever plan-

Oh, I’m here.

“Thanks, Mr. Taxi Man!”

Weird guy, really. Okay.. I can do this, I’m going up the elevator, walk up to his loft, and then knock, and then.. and then.. What the do I say?! Oh god, I should’ve thought this through. I guess, I could just take the stairs to buy me some time. Wait.. What floor does he live in again?

..3^rd floor

Crap.

Okay.. What about, ‘Hi, I’ve been really falling for you lately. Want to go out with me?’ NO. Maybe something like, ‘I think your eyes are really beautiful and your lips look so cute even when you’re not doing anything and I just want to smother it with kisses until its red and even more plum.’

..okay, maybe not that either.

What the is wrong with me? And what the is wrong with these stairs?

It’s the 3^rd floor already?! Okay.. Breath, Jongin, breath. There’s his loft. Legs, cooperate with me, walk. Feet, you too. Okay. Knocking.. Hand, yeah, you should knock.. There, I knocked. Well..

..nobody’s home! I should go before I distur-

“Jongin, hi!”

“Hyung! Hi! How are you?”

“I’m.. good? We just talked on the phone remember? You said you wanted to come here to say something?”

“Ah, yes. I did. I- uh..”

“Well, come in. I’m making coffee. Would you like some?”

“Yes, please.”

“Just sit here for a while, I’ll be back.”

Okay, hyung.

“I mean! Okay, hyung!”

“…”

“…”

“What? Jongin, are you-?”

“I’m fine! Just.. I’m fine.”

“Okay.. I’ll just be a minute.”

Oh god, why do I have to be so awkward? I have to calm down and think of what to say. Why oh why didn’t I think this through? I could say, ‘Hey hyung, you look really pretty today. I like you.’ NO. Or, ‘I’ve been secretly stalking you on SNS coz I like you.’ What.. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!

“I can’t just sit here! I have to tell him.. I have to tell Kyungsoo that I really like-”

“What do you really like?”

“I.. I really like.. coffee?”

“Oh, here then. It’s cappuccino. Enjoy.”

Oh, that giggle is just adorable. The way his eyes squint when he laughs and those plum lips are just shaped perfectly. Oh my god, he’s sitting next to me. Should I shift a little? Okay, I’ll move closer..

Oh god, he made a face.. I think I’m too close. I should move back a bit.

There. Wait.. Why does he look.. nervous?

“So, Jongin.. What were you going to tell me that you had to come over?”

It’s now or never, Jongin. Say it! I like.. I really like.. I..

“I.. I wanted to tell you.. I mean, I wanted to ask you..”

Oh god, he looks anxious. I should just spit out. I like..

“…”

Where the did my tongue go!?

“Uh, you could just tell me later. Just drink your coffee before it goes cold.”

Nod, Jongin, nod.

“Are you.. sick or something? You look like you’re about to throw up?”

“N-No! I think my sugar level’s down. I’ll just drink this coffee!”

“Jongin, slow down! That’s h-”

“Holy that’s hot!”

“J-Jongin, your shirt..”

“AHHHH! Hot! Hot! Hot!”

“Hold on! I’ll get a towel!”

Why is this happening to me? My lucky shirt.. Well, it’s not so lucky anymore. , it burns. I should take it off. Ow, my skin feels burned. Great, just great. Not only have my tongue burns, I now also had a burn on my chest. Perfect.

“Jongin, here wipe your- Uhm, h-here.”

Why does he look so flustered? I’m the one that made a total fool of myself. This is so embarrassing. Maybe I should just go home and save this confession for another day. I’ve already made a complete fool of myself anyway.

“Thanks for the towel, hyung. I think I’ll just go now.”

“Jongin! Wait!”

“Y-Yeah, hyung?”

“Your shirt- uh- You’re not wearing a shirt.”

Ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod.

“- I mean SHIRT! Sorry, hyung!”

“It’s okay. I- uh.. Here let me- oof!”

Oh. My. God. This is not happening. I am not on the floor with Do Kyungsoo on top of me. This. Is. Ow. Okay. This really is happening. OH MY GOD!

“J-Jongin..”

Now or never, Jongin. Tell. Him. Now.

“Kyungsoo, I- I really like you.”

“…”

“And I came here to.. ask you out. On a date. With me.”

“…”

“I- uh, you could say something..”

Oh god, here it is. He’s going to say no. He’s going to say why would he ever go out with me. He’s going to say-

“Yeah. I’d love to go out with you.”

“R-Really?”

“Yeah. But, Jongin..”

“Yeah?”

“Can we get up now?”