Chapter 1: i'm sorry, my comment is inferior to candy's ultra spammage (lol!) but i just wanted to let you know that you have always been one of a small few of my favourite jongsica writers. you don't know how ecstatic i am to have heard you came back to aff with jongsica oneshot, one with 4,000 words! you haven't given up writing jongsica, but i must say (and i'm sure you'll agree) that jonghyun and jessica are beautiful characters to write about. but, only in a few fics can i actually really say that the author has carried out that beauty and made it into something appreciable to a high extent. let me tell you, you've written something extra beautiful! i think the mannerisms you've given jonghyun and jessica really brings me back to reality of how she's older than jonghyun. in the oneshot i don't think you state how old they are, but besides that, both characters are so complicated but perplexing c: i mean it isn't just, oh jessica is preggie, due to this she's in a shiet mood and takes it out on jonghyun when he messes up, he realises he messes up—blah. nah but you really use such a common scenario in society to discover every curve of the psychological mind. i think that's genius. your writing is exceptional! i've read some of your livejournal story entries some time earlier on in the year, and i remember feeling so overwhelmed at how much you've grown and improved. just like what candy said—i'm sure you had a good reason for your hiatus. your hiatus was like a temporary retreat, dy and i respect that. thank you for this baby, this oneshot is truly beautiful—it was such a read. i hope to see more on aff. i love you! <3333

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! CANDY! c':

tammy when you said baby dy had already reviewed, i wasn't expecting a spammage XD

Chapter 1: end of mah spammage <3333 hope you like it.

Chapter 1: Im gonna just combine the last two parts. The reunion just felt like a breath of fresh air. They’d finally found each other within each other (does that make sense) and they’d brought back their love. They came to a compromise. That’s what relationships are about, I guess. Sometimes a relationship needs to fall apart for both people to realize how much they need to fall back together. All the petty little things and the trivial details – that’s what relationships are about. It’s not the big drama or the corny sentiments, but the yearning and longing and the way two people can’t live without each other. I think that you depicted all of that beautifully in this short story and I am completely proud of you. I apologize for my very incoherent spammage, but I think that this is your best work yet. Don’t stop writing and keep persevering because you are an amazing author with amazing potential. Lastly, Iloveyou <33333

Chapter 1: This part is actually pretty movie-like if you imagine it, but when you write it, it makes it all feel more realistic and that’s a great thing. The way Jessica inadvertently just keeps thinking of him and eventually falls victim to her tacit desires – it all makes me swoon. I can just imagine Jonghyun and whatever he’s doing. He’s probably thinking of her as much as she’s thinking of him. The parts where you subtly depicted his care for her kept tugging on my heartstrings, but the part that just kicked me in the gut and got me clapping was “she feels as if she’s disappointed him”. This is the part where Jessica finally admits fault, in a way. She acknowledges that what she’s been doing isn’t right and she finally takes some of the blame. They both give in, in one way or another. I guess love is like that - the pain has to be there for them to truly appreciate what they once had.

Chapter 1: This part may seem like just a connector but I love that empty feeling you manage to give me when I read it. Like the way Jessica wallows in loneliness and her insecurities and the painful memories, I can vividly imagine it all. So poignant, really. The way he just flits in and out of her life even when he isn’t physically there. This is the part where she learns to cherish what she should have but isn’t doing anything about it because I suppose she’s partially remorseful about it all too. It feels painful – with the memories constantly replaying in her mind like some sort of broken television. I guess that when a relationship fades, it truly feels like it was all just a bunch of sad lies. People look back and think why it didn’t work and presume them to be lies to make themselves feel better. It’s sadder –like in this case- when the love’s still there. Beautiful, Tammy.

Chapter 1: I think it’s great that this part finally showed us a bit of Jessica’s side. So far, it was so much about Jonghyun and his sacrifices, but it felt good to finally look at things from Jessica’s perspective. I found the entire part sort of cryptic – in a good way. You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone. This might seem heartless but I felt good to see Jessica hysteric when her ruthless words actually came to life. This is the time when she should be realizing that she shouldn’t have let go of what she did. The last part, however, must have been the best part I’ve ever seen. The way everything is green and sickly without Jonghyun, like her world’s just become a sick and macabre mess of herself. And there’s this one part – “if she had anything to throw up”. This emphasizes on one thing that she’s been doing – all along she’s had something to throw away so she’s been so cocky about it. But once Jonghyun’s gone, she doesn’t have anything anymore… Omg I feel like an elementary kid but you seriously struck me hard when you wrote this part. I LOVE THE HIDDEN MESSAGES OMG CHU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A DETECTIVE GURL

Chapter 1: Break up in bed. How much angstier can you get, Tammy? I just want to squish them both when they decide to end whatever’s between them yet I really have to say that in a way, their relationship isn’t exactly helping them. They have too many differences and engage in too many petty disputes. It’s common between couples, but then again, some couples overcome these difficulties and some don’t. Here’s the turning point where you make us wonder whether someone’s going to give in and they’re going to make up, or they’re just going to go on two separate roads forever and ever (I know you ship them too much to do that though hehehehehe >) But I seriously love this part despite the little dialogue. The tenseness and the pain and the angst and the love <3333 ;_______; I like this part most so far “but maybe it’s just that they’ve started out so wrong that they can’t ever make it right”!

Chapter 1: ohmygerrdddd I am seriously in love the way you write conflicts. You just bring up the tension and with little conversation, you manage to establish the conflict setting perfectly. They don’t even need to shout or yell at each other much yet we know the severity of things. Actions speak louder than words – you definitely got that right. The way Jonghyun inadvertently offends her evokes so much pity from me because I know it’s not his fault and he’s busy and stuff but Jessica’s probably endured it for a lifetime enough to be completely suffocated by his insensitivity towards her needs. A relationship needs mutual understanding and it’s not just about all the fluffy stuff. I just adore the way you wrote Jonghyun – the way he blames himself again at the end of the third just makes me go “d’awwww”. The moment you’re able to make me not know what to do when I’m in his situation is just… I think you rock.

The next part is just so wonderfully sweet yet angsty. When he runs after her, finds her, kisses her and it all become so sweet like a movie, most people would expect it to just end there. When you wrote the part where Jessica said “you should’ve come after me”, you showed the possibility of a thousand more conflicts in the future. The way you just highlighted how matched yet mismatched they are just struck a chord in me, seriously. I don’t even know whether they should be together or not.

Chapter 1: Omg whattheheck your descriptions are so good. From the get-go I can already formulate two distinct characters: the picky and irascible Jessica as well as the defensive yet good-hearted Jonghyun. I think this would be a perfect depiction of their relationship. From the salad, their brief yet antagonistic conversation and their actions, the tenseness between them was so vividly depicted. The anorexia you underscored through subtle means was also well done. Simple, subtle, yet it leaves a lot of images in my mind. Time to reiterate the fact that YOU’VE IMPROVED SO MUCH.

I thought this part was really well done because you really tugged my heartstrings with the relationship problems between Jessica and Jonghyun. Obviously they have huge communication issues with Jonghyun being oblivious to her inner feelings. I really, really like it because you wrote it from Jonghyun’s side – the way he’s attempting to comprehend her yet his attempts are so blatantly futile. That helplessness and the way he keeps trying – it totally seems like something he’d do. It’s even more accentuated here about the way that he’s so good-hearted and that he truly loves her though she brings him through all levels of hell (reference to the other parts of the story sorry). It’s so touching how he blames himself for everything that he does wrong. Not many boyfriends do that. Most would just slam the door and find someone else. You’ve made the story precious and beautiful in just two parts. What am I going to do with you kid